DANA
Oh, God.
If that was the basis on how fucked up my life is now, anybody would know that I am not really coping up. I didn't mean to kiss Neil and I have nothing to justify why I did that. I cannot say it was only a reflex, or obfuscation of some sort. That wasn't a part of the plan. There was no clear reason at all. It was only plain craziness.
"I think you have to go now." – I said, addressing him
"why? I'm sorry… did that bother you?"
"of course… I mean, that was uncalled for. I shouldn't have done that. that was pretty irresponsible of me."
The regret was shown all over his face and suddenly I felt sorry of what I just did. Even when we try to deny it, it was really me who commenced it. I… I'm really, really sorry. I dragged him into this when he shouldn't be a part of it in the first place.
The gaze he then gave me was long, and then he smiled… unexpectedly.
