JUNE'S POV---
during dinner,
I'm eating dinner with my parents, dad always makes sure to have his dinner with us whenever mom is at home after completing her day shift and....
...today she had a dayshift.
I gaze at meat in my plate and today's university incident played in my mind unknowingly.
Today was such a weird day, that devilish looking arrogant guy!. my lip twitch.
he firstly smirk at me and then stumble across me.
he didn't even help me by his full heart, but just formality !
his tone was so cold like he has no emotions.but his voice was so smooth like milk?.....i wasn't even able to take a look at his face!
"(sigh)"...a long sigh left my mouth,his face looks so handsome from afar?...but what does his face looks like closely?....
what eye colour do he have?..
do he have pimples and acne?...
no..i shook my head and put spoonful of meat in my mouth.
He has such a nice athletic body!...then his face must be handsome, clean and masculine just like any novel male lead!...
"hehehhe.."
i giggle,did i just got a crush on some one?....even if that man is arrogant to me?....
no!!...i drink up curry from my plate and tried to focus on my remaining dinner...
i don't want to have crush on some one as arrogant and cold as him!..
"hmmf"
but he is stranger to me!..so isn't it a good thing that he is cold?....what if he is like other guys who are players and just take a chance to have a girl...then isn't it good that he is cold!....then he will only have his girl in his mind like any MALE LEAD from NOVEL!!!
woah~how lucky? i swallow down my food.
"sweety?"
"huh?",I snap out of my thoughts as my daddy called me,"yes daddy~"
"what happen sweety?...."he asked me and i got confused,"huh?"
and my mommy asked me again,"you look happy?...does something good happen today my dear?"
"no~mommy!...",i said hurriedly Thought their is definitely not any good thing that happened!
"then why are you laughing to yourself,sweety?",again my daddy asked.
i groaned,"nothing daddy!...it's just that today was my first day for second year!"i chirp happily and they both nodded.
"how are your new teachers my dear?",mommy asked while daddy again focused back on his food.
"they are so good"
we talked for some moments and again mommy focused on her food and everything turned into peaceful silence.
But, isn't today a good chance?
I peek at both of them eating silently and "mom~..dad~",I called for them as sweetly as i can grabbing their attention.
daddy hmm while eating and mommy look at me,"yes honey?".
I took a long breath and spill what i wanted to ask them,"i want to help you in work~".
"(ting)"
"??",I snapped at my daddy!... i think i saw him flinching? and i asked him,"dad?...what---!!"
"why honey?",but my mommy cuts me off.
"huh!",did she just tried to get or divert my attention?
let it be maybe i m wrong....let's just focus on what i wanted to say!
i snapped at daddy as he kept his spoon in his bowl and gaze at me silently,
"why?...you should focus on your study sweety!",he asked so calmly that if we got any guest for dinner right now then he will never even think that this person has just drink before dinner.
"their is no need for that",he said calmy and again restart eating
i knew they won't agree so shall i use another reason?....lets try!"just...want to earn money...I need them for college~"
mommy hmm while nodding!....does this mean i can?...but daddy sternly said,"NO!" which crumble my hopes!
i groan and my throat went dry!...why don't he let me help?...i want to know!...but they never said the reason
now i want to cry, "umm~..why~"
daddy slide glass of water towards me,"it's for your own good my sweety~"
"hmm",
i can't refute!...i look at my mommy pleading her with my teary eyes!....she can't resist my eyes!
she look at daddy,"ohh honey!"
hehehe...as expected!....mommy is the best!..
"I SAID NO!"
she press lips and shook head at me and hiccups left my mouth,
"hic..hic",daddy again crumbled my hopes.
"okay darling...but if she want, she can help me...can't she??for one or two days weekly?",my sweet mommy tried to coax daddy.
ohh~.i didn't thought about this!...i wipe my tear and look at daddy expectantly..he can't refute now!...can he?
he look at me to say no...i already got his intension and my lips tremble to cry making crybaby lips which made him stop and ponder for some sec.
"okay...she can play..violin..once or twice.."
"w..what?", i blink my eyes at him.Did he just agree?
"what?...you dont want to then concen--!!",oh?...he really agreed!
"yeaaa....daddy...thank u~~",i stood up and hug him over shoulder.
he pat my back tenderly and chuckle,"but only while accompanying your mommy..okay?".
"yess!..yess!...my daddy is the best!" and both laugh happily.
mom inturrepted me,"okay..okay...now...finish your dinner"
i peck her cheek,"okay"
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inside bedroom,neon light was on,
"no...no!",i mumble gazing at front.what is he doing with that knife?
man look at me and grin then he pull his knife ,horror took over my face,"don't please!" but that man didn't stop and then
"(stab)"
what??....."NOOOOOOOOOO!",i screamed.
"huff...huff",i peek around and then at my bed.
i again got same nightmare and my eyes caught date on digital clock
it's 4:45am?
and my eyes caught date above time,"(gasp)"
i gasp taking long breath "27th??"
my chest begins to feel heavy,"huff huff"
"i ne..need fresh air !",shotting up from bed ,i dart towards washroom in hurry but stumble on floor but gather my balance
no...i don't want to go through that nightmare again!....why?..why only me?
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AFTER SOME TIME....
at beach,
it feels good here at early morning!...
such a good feeling!...
the beach water hitting my feets feels so good..
i look around and found no one except for myself!...
this is what i want...
i move towards my favorite place and sat their wondering if their is someone made for me?...
someone who can help me!...
no their used to be someone and she is my smiley...
where is she?... its been so many days that i haven't seen her...I MISS HER...
then i peek at my books and violin which i bought along today,i dont want to skip my classes...
my gazes linger on my old rusty violin which my grandpa gifted me years ago. brushing my fingers through it, i can't help but remember him.
he too left me
"why?"
"just...why?"
i grab my violin and my hands begins to move on it's own playing his favourite song.
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...to be continue