His Journey
Jasi' mindset all this time...
He was like the third person who is at a loss and the only thing he could do is just watch while his family and job were slowly departed in his world.
By the time that his father had passed away, his eyes did not shed tears looking by its too dark did not like the luster the way it used to be now devoid of any emotion.
His girlfriend can't make it so she just video chat and said some consoling stuff for her boyfriend and also said sorry about not being on his side jasi just smile and said that it was okay and comfort her he change the subject by asking about what happened to her these past months and if she was feeling pressured about her family business management and if she was eating properly on time and resting and he joke if she doesn't eat properly he would take the nearest flight tomorrow and he would straight and abduct her to eat and sleep properly his girlfriend just laugh and return his joke to him he was surprise and smirk after 2 hours of their call this came to end they said proper goodbyes and I love you and take care before hanging up.
His mother had depression so he assigns his second brother who is on the vacation to take care of her other family member was also sad and the harmonious atmosphere in past disappear and everyone always looks listless.
Several months later...
By the night he was alone in his room he can see the achievements and the picture that contain the happy memories in the past he smile seems bitter hot streams slow shedding in his face but he could not feel it right now the only thing he minds.
He wondered if this, more than guilt, was what had been holding him back. It wasn't that he was punishing himself as much as it was that he didn't want anything anymore. But was that true? Did he not want anything? What did he want to do? What did he want, period?
Like the moment he saw the rope and chair sit-up for suicide he slowly approaches it and hock his head up and kick the chair where he stand-up a while ago.
Several minutes passed and the suffocation continues strong gripping of the rope to his neck slowly sucking his life the blurriness of his eyes till it reaches the blackness.
He hears a strange voice you can't recognize because the voice was low to be classified as male or female.
People say that bad memories cause the most pain, but actually, it's the good ones that drive you insane.
His family heard the sound of a chair smash so they immediately go to jasi's room but it was look anxiety are eating them and they began to panic as they got the room key they saw jasi's body hanging and they immediately unleash him to the rope and check if his breathing thankfully it has slow breath so they immediately go to the nearest hospital.
As soon as they reach the hospital they immediately go to the emergency room.
The doctor checked his pulse rate and bruise it was a rope mark cause by hanging after a while the pulse rate and breathing stabilize so jasi was transferred to the normal ward.
Jasi girlfriend was also heard about jasi situation she was really worried about his situation but she really want to go as soon as possible and be by his side but her workload keep her out from his side so she just call Jassi's mother and her future mother-in-law about the situation but madam Hutton said that jasi was stable and not be too worried about it Mitch was relieve about her frustration and after that they exchange few topic and said good bye's madam Hutton sign while hang-up.
She was said but she need to be strong for her children's as she look at her eldest son she felt frustrated and helpless about her son situation cause she always believe that he can manage but looking at him now the black soft hair that always shove properly became messy now, the healthy face that always full of life became dull and cold there are also black circles under his eyes and his natural pinkest lips became bloodless you can also notice that her sons body became thin as the result of what happen to this past few months.
Jasi son why are you doing this if you're tired just rest okay don't overthink things and don't leave okay your dad just passed and if you also—sob~~sob~~sob~~sob~~sob~~you're not a burden for us, okay so please be okay it would make me happy madam Hutton said while brushing his messy soft black hair.
Be okay elder brother his siblings said with a bitter but not disappointed smile.
At the time jasi wake-up, he saw his mother sleeping by the side of his bed the arms are folded the only side can only be seen the wrinkles are visible this used to not exist in past but now her mother's face look like it aged 10 years.
His mother seems uncomfortable in this kind of sleeping position so as soon as she changes her position she opens her big dark with misty eye and saw that her eldest child woken up and staring at her with a dull eye not the usually confident and kind emotion on it.
Are you okay? Are you thirsty? Hungry? Or uncomfortable? Jasi his mother asked.
I am ok- a bit thirsty mom his hoarse voice sounds.
Ohm~~ here drink slowly okay don't choke
Nash calls the doctor and asks to come here and check your elder brother his mother said.
As his second brother led the doctor and nurse to his ward they check and examine his status.
The examination spends few minutes and the result is good doctor recommends that jasi need to see a physician for his depression and advise them to be more patient and understanding to jasi.
Two days later jasi can be discharged and there is no abnormality on the examination results.
Few days passed and everything is back to normal but jasi family members are also sad but they don't say or show it to jasi because of his history they became more gentle and caring to jasi they also contact a physician to examine and advise jasi the schedule is on Monday.
On the day where jasi see the physician, he was calm and communicate properly to the doctor the physician advises him to travel to a place where he could relax his mind and slowly recovered.
The family members held a family meeting about it and they came up with a decision that jasi would stay on the old grandparent's house on jasi maiden side.
On the way to jasi grandparents old house, jasi was silent as he closes his eyes to take a short nap because of exhausted and fatigued this past few nights of not being able to sleep properly because of nightmares as his vision went black—
Change has to come for life to struggle forward.
Sooner or later we've all got to let go of our past.