He motion for me to sit and went the extra step to pull out a chair 'I would sit but I look around the other guys are standing, only one chair is out nope not going to happen' I look at the chair and at the room then walk to the desk at least if I sit on it I can see all their face and gauge this situation better. If it is a prank their eyes will tell me everything. I sat on the desk and he moved towards me he sighed after taking a deep breath. I look around and their eyes have followed me to the spot. He stands in front of me and looks in my eyes and says
"I don't think this thing between us is going to work out (I am shocked but I can't show that, that's what they want to see, a show, he could have done this in private but nope we have an audience), it's not you it's me (how original) we need to spend time apart and I am not ready for this I need to be alone" (lol this is new) my heart ached but my face smiled as I held back the tears. I looked around the room Ndivhuwo was grinning, Rudzani had a sympathetic look on his face and Rendani he is a dummy but he was smiling and Tali looked angry. This was a game to them, my life was a sick joke, me in pain would make them happy.
He carried on "I don't want to hurt you and I think it would be best if we broke up" (yet your hurting me in front of your friends, why didn't you give me a heads up so I can arrange some back up for me too. And the last part are you asking or telling me because I don't think I have a choice if I said no would you let it go, hug me and tell me your kidding) the look in his eyes said different.
He carried on "we can still be friend …" I raised my hand and placed my index finger to his lips to shut him up, at the same time he raised his hands a signal. I did not notice his friends had moved in closer surrounding me ready for anything. Were they afraid I would start something maybe injure him? He was asking them not to do anything. I took a deep breath, kept the smile that was on my face and got up for my seat (decisions, decisions I could run out crying making them happy and that's exactly what I want to do, cry my heart out or I could face them) I was going to run then I caught Ndivhuwo with his phone pointed at us. Still with the smile on my face landing on my feet I turned to face him, my heart cracked, I took one step to close the gap (my heart further breaks when that step was taken) I use up all the courage I had left despite the breaking heart telling me to go, I cleared my throat and said calmly and clearly "Thank you, for everything" his face read (WTF) he was shocked and I had to continue before I lost my nerve I placed my hands around his neck to pull him down 'should have stayed on that desk' I continued " … for every first that I shared with you, I have no regrets, goodbye" I placed a soft kiss on his lips and turn towards the shelves where I had the books waiting. Without a second glance I walked away with a smile on my face I place the book I did not complete shelving in the box closed it and walked to the storage area I grabbed my bag as I had 5 minutes to get back to class.