Sometime in 1975, Hagonoy, Bulacan
Mother and my three siblings are leaving for Aparri, Cagayan. Without me (why) there's not enough money for my fare. How sad but it's the truth, that bites and hurts. I was left behind to live with my sister and her husband in the place where I am living now. Pandi, Bulacan. I was 11 years old and I am not aware what is happening in the world. I just want to play,eat and sleep. I wasn't able to go in school (why?) I'm not enrolled coz doesn't have money to pay. Another truth that bites but it doesn't hurt that much.
A year has passed. One day my eldest brother (Ricardo) arrive from Manila where he was staying in my uncle's house, he told my sister that he will bring me there and stay also with my uncle so I can get back to school and study. And I was enrolled. I'm in grade 3, I was 11 two years late but schooling and studying is for all ages.
Living with my uncle in Manila is not as simple as I was living with my sister. I have a lot of tasks to do from morning till night. At my young age I am doing a lot of house chores and even taking care of some hogs. I have to wake up early 4:00 am. And sleep at night between 10 and 11. Why too late? I have to do my homework from school.
It's not an easy thing to think. Yes I am studying but I'm not allowed to join any school activities. Can't even go to library where the books I will use for the school assignment are located. Oh, how sad.
My uncle has 14 children but only 10 are in the house because the 4 elderly has their own families. I am sleeping with my male cousins. One of them is a 17 year old who is always playing with me before I sleep. It's not the usual play as you are thinking of. He always plays with his dick and let his cums spread in my face and lips. I was pretending I was sleeping and didn't know anything.You know what I mean. Their youngest is my best buddy. Let's hide him in the name Edward. A name he wants to be. He was the one who gave me the name Erica. We are always watching the anime Daimos and Voltes V during the time. He said I am that character Erica. But I wonder why he's is not the Richard and choose Edward instead.
I was in grade 5 when I see or met the very first boy who makes my heart beats fast. Yes I was falling in love for the first time. He was at the same grade but in another section. They are in CT and I am in DT. His name is Manolo. He was the apple of my eyes. Despite the fact that I am not allowed to join any school activities or extra curriculum I have a bright mind. I'm always on top in the class.
Manolo became my inspiration. He never knew me. Yes he didn't know that I am loving him. But all my classmates does. Whenever we are walking and cross our paths my classmates will shout hooooo. Omg I was blushing and his face is puzzled, maybe asking what is happening.
I'm always telling my cousin Edward about him. Maybe that's the reason why he chooses to be the Edward and not Richard because Manolo is my Richard. I have to admit that I have a crush with my cousin. When we are alone together he was so sweet with me. Most of the time when he arrives from school ( a private school, I am in public) and nobody sees he kissed me on my cheeks. That tender moments end when one time he was asking me to do this thing. He asked me to suck his dick. That time I don't know what is it and I don't know how. I didn't do it.
Maybe he was hurt, and get some distance from me. One time he was caught in his sister's house with the maid in the room. I don't know but I felt a pain in my heart. If