We were just an ordinary couple. we fought, laugh, kiss, hug,get jealous, upset, like other couples, i thought our relationship was still ok but one day when we saw each other at school she suddenly became cold we have practice after school for girls scout she would talk to me but in a cold way every time i touch her hands she would avoid it we practiced until 6:30 pm all of us went home me and my gf went walked home together for a while then she said she will be taking a different way home she took my phone and she typed something and gave it back she said
" read it when you get home"
i said ok she was already far away i cant help but be curious on what she typed on my phone so before i got home i looked at what she typed on my phone she said
" I'm sorry I'm not the right person for you i want to focus on my studies i wont be able to focus if i keep thinking about you you will find someone better forget about me I'm tired I'm sorry"
after reading it my eyes widened and my heart began to beat fast i didn't know how to react i was shocked and i wanted to cry but without thinking i suddenly began to ran towards her i know she was already far away but i couldn't stop finally i saw her and i grabbed her hand she looked at me in shocked i was tired from running we looked at each other and stayed silent.
There's so many things i want to say to her i wont bother her when she's studying and i will help her with her studies please don't leave me but in the end i couldn't find the courage to say all those things to her without realising my mouth starts to move
You know i really love you, i love you so much that i just cant let you go, but i don't want to take away your happiness i hope you find someone better and be happy and have a beautiful life i thought we would be together until we turn old but i guess all this was just a trial i wont beg you to comeback to me cause i don't want a loveless relationship, i let go of her hand and told her " go and be happy" she turned her back and as she started to walk away from me tears began to fall as i watch her walk from a far i said on my mind don't look back keep walking be happy and forget about me dont think twice just keep walking till i cant see you anymore
i couldn't see her anymore i couldn't help but cry loudly while remembering the memories we had it hurts my heart hurts like there's thousands of needle stuck on my heart i miss her already i still love her but maybe after a few weeks i be able to move on from her.
when i got home i deleted all our pictures together and all our conversations and i removed her account from my device as a respect i couldn't give back the stuff she gave me so just gave it away to someone else
its been a year since we broke up I'm happy i still keep thinking about her sometimes but not in a romantic way anymore i promised myself that i would never give all my heart to someone else it would take some time to fully give my whole heart to someone else but atleast it would only hurt a bit if they aren't my soulmate