Nicolas
A lot has happened over the last days including me getting a blow job from a handsome devil somewhat I fell somewhat happy not knowing why but having a secret admire someone like him who likes you kinder fell amazing. But I still find it strange how come he has the same eyes as my dog and is it a coincidence that my dog hasn't showed up that night.
He left a lot of love bite on my whole body that I had to cover my self when I go to work afraid that Andrew will ask A lot of questions to where I got the marks or worse he will ask me who is the lucky guy to which am not ready to disclose anything as of yet.
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He looked at me like I was his number one prized possession. He pulled me to where his body lean against my bed then he placed a kiss on my forehead and that was my last breaking point all my life I have never experienced the kind of affection I received on that day that small action a lot it made me fell A kind of emotion I was afraid to express outside.
Since that day I came out as gay in secondary school my life was never the same people in school made it there mission to make my life a living nightmare they bullied me even classmates they all join in and they experienced how much they hated me for being who I am and it even got worse when the orphanage I was staying heard the news they suggested I get enrolled in a conversation therapy to which I said no.
I was not going to join conversation therapy when I know I was perfectly. After the whole argument with the caretaker they let me be and that's how they started to dislike me from that day on.
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I didn't know how much time I spent in the arms of the stranger but I was living this new feeling he made me feel secure and a sense of belonging of which I never felt around anyone except Andrew and now him.