The , that day will be more exciting , lily saw karden and gave a congratulationsons for both of us, the day passed as usual, college ended,then I came to the main entrance, where I saw Ryan standing, I tried to act like nothing I saw, he stood my way, excused a time to talk with me, we sat on the park bench, he goes excited ,that we both met here at first , but I don't want to feel the past , just cut his feelings off.
what is the reason, you want to talk?tell me fast,I need to go home,I said.
that's my problem , honey,are you got mad, why you are encouraging that karden, he is a monster ,who separated you and me, think about it , how we lived our life?,i never thought ,we will cross our paths like this ,I am missing you every minute, my life getting hard , please help me.
what should I do?
my only request is, come ,let's live our life, said Ryan.
shut up Ryan,it's enough, just try to live with gabie,don't hurt her,don't take as wrong, i am saying because for our good,I loved you wholeheardly, we had very beautiful days,those days are really unforgettable,and i had your baby, everything was true,I never mind you believe or not, but everythingng it was really hard to feel without you,I can't tolerate, you doubted my pregnancy,I shall be a money digger in front of you, just leave as it is, please,we have to choose a different path, we cannot travel in the same.
I can't control my tears, he was also very broken.
let me go, karden is waiting for me,I requested him.
suddenly he hugged me and cried on my shoulders.
I was wrong blayer , how I believed you are against my life? if I have do discussed my problems, there won't be any separation between us now,I am really sorry,I am sorry to leave you in that situation, please forgive me,I can't live a single second when you are not in my side, please forgive me.
I saw him as a very strong mountain sliding down, he was in tears.
I can't hold my tears ,I just walked a step away from him.
I am sorry Ryan, said me.
He still crying behind,I saw karden was waiting outside the car,I entered the car without uttering a single word, but he was talking without break.
How was your day?did you missed me?,I missed you so much, shall we go out for dinner?, why are you silent?
please don't ask me anything Mr.karden,I answered rudely.
he understood how I am seeing him just with respect, not as a husband.
we were reached home,I placed the books on the table and fell on the bed.
He was not home ,I was busy with folding blankets , the door opened slowly, and nothing surprising , this is karden, but he walked unstedily, my attention over him,I watched him closely,I came to found he was drunk,ohhh my is he having this habit too!, he was not conscious , he came aggressively in front of me ,i was very nervous , with more romantic in his attitude, he approached me, holded my waist, pushed me close to room wall ,I pushed him so harshly, but I was failed In his grip, he was very strong but I pushed him on the bed then ran to the bathroom, I locked myself inside it, he knocked the door, I never give a chance to allow him.
I got angry, and afraid to go near, after an hour I can't manage to stay inside the bathroom, my tiredness pushes me to go outside, then I realised the outside was silent, so I opened the door a little bit and checked where he was, he laid on the bed without his shirt, hugging the pillow.
I sit in the corner, cried for sometimes, how I am trapped in this?,I am in the situation to neglect what I loved, who I loved, and slept there itself, early morning I packed my things, then planned to go for the paradise forest, where the team already working, before leaving the place I wrote a letter that I hate him, and I am going for excavation trip,and explained about how he behaved .
I reached the reservation spot,I met the team members we all introduced with each and everyone, the place was really amazing the camp was spotted at the entrance , and they get me to the main spot , the temple attracts my eyes,th letters written on the walls was very admiring,I went there before the day were our fixed date by department,I went there to forget about kardens thoughts,I don't like him , how I accepted him?, such a dangerous man, why he can't get I don't like him.
My problem is , I can't get out of the pain caused by a past person, ryan.in addition to this karden also taking care of me, but it is giving me more fear,I felt cheating him , when he try to get close with me,i loved Ryan and we goes nearly marrying each other, then why he supposed to give this much affection?
'Really fearful'
He is a very good man, but I am feeling poor to accept him.
while looking at the entire temple ,I noticed the emblem of hybiscus,I crossed it casually, but after I realised this was the same I had seen on that tunnel way, but how?, how it is possible?, why should they mention this here?
I asked one of the senior staff about the emblem, and they said this is the emblem of the Hiranioken kingdom .