when Nathan was asking me if I would like to feel the kiss my mind was already blowing up and with nervous voice I replied "yes I would love to but you will teach me, I don't know how." he stood up and take my hand and he gently stood me up too. he gently pulled me closer and he crosses his arms around my back and his hands on my waist and he took mine, put it around his shoulders then looked me in eyes and smile and said"hey relax oky?? I can't do anything without your permission until you are ready I will teach you right?but for now I want to hug and hold you tight so would you let me?? and replied "yes I don't mind".
*honestly I wanted him to give it all,the kisses and hugs but for some reasons he chose my comfort zone which is hug,it's like he feel me,he knows what I like without even asking*
we hugged a bit longer without saying any word I felt comfortable and my euphoria was increasing little by little. it's really crazy how I got those feelings to someone when we don't even know each other's second names.
on other hand y'all remember the party was still going on in our school when the party was turning up Jennifer suddenly remembers that I exist and she was wondering how I am because she thought I was alone not knowing that someone creates little heaven for me. so she decided to come over to see how I am doing or If there is any help I need,when she was on her way to see me she met Jonas,Eric,Alice and she asked them If they saw me and they replied by yes and tell her to go ahead.
she continues to come over and when she gets in room she was shocked by what she saw and she suddenly goes back where the party was held we all noticed her before she went back to the party, she continues to party but her face and mood was changing little by little whenever she recall what she just saw,and I don't know why.
the party continues , meanwhile us we were enjoying each others company,we had deep conversations. while we were hugging someone suddenly came in room rushing, it was Jennifer,she came and and took my hand without even talking to Nathan and when we get out she made some excuses so I a can accompany her to the party that means I left Nathan hanging without even telling him If I will be back or may be if we will see each other tomorrow. I got into party and everything was new to me, I really don't like parties and also being around people, I have anxiety problems which caused by my dad In past,I rarely meet people in person but I hide it well so I look extrovert in public.
when I was in party,I wasn't enjoying anything in particular but I had to pretend to enjoy so I can't get Jennifer mad at me at that night she was already mad. while others were dancing and having fun I was only thinking about Nathan and the moment I had earlier and that keeps smile on my lips whenever I recall what happened few minutes ago. then kept on pretending dancing and some guys came to me and ask me to hangout with them and I said no and they kept insisting over and over and suddenly alice,Jonas, Eric appeared and when those guys saw them they wanted to have a fight and Alice stood in front of them and said"yow this is my brother's girl don't mess with her unless you want to see Nathan's colors". when they heard Nathan's name they disappeared immediately and Alice came to me and she asked"girl you don't know how to speak for yourself why"?? and when she asked that,my face suddenly changes and my eyes filled with tears and I stood up without saying any word and went outside.
I went out and grab sit in basketball field and starts to cry again, while I was crying someone came to me and give me hug from back when I turn around to see who it is I heard a soft deep voice it was Nathan says"shiiii relax I am here,oky? you can cry however u want". I felt comfortable crying when I was with him and he came in front me and and grab a sit in front of me and he asked "what happened"?? and I....
before I answer him matron suddenly appears and starts to yell about why we are outside alone, and she asked me to go back to the dorms if I don't want to go to the party,we stood up and he took my hand and whispered into my ears"everything will be fine oky?" and he reminds me that tomorrow he has match and he want me to be there and I said that I will be there to see why he is captain of team. and before I go he pulled me back to him and says in lower voice" we have unfinished business".and I smiled at him and I said"it finished unless you give us that trophy so I will consider". he smiled and says "I like the way you roll your eyes. matron was standing there and her face looks so done with us and she yelled at me to stop talking to Nathan and do what she says...we wrapped up things and go back where we both belongs.
I went to our dorm and prepare my self to sleep and when I was about to sleep two girls came to me and Jenifer come to me and...
watch out next part....