Chapter 92 - make sense?

Similar to what Ken is doing now when he intends to meet his mother. The activity at the beginning was so smooth and seemed very memorable at that time. It seemed as if he would have succeeded in expressing his desire to meet Jessica and tell her that he was actually that child or that woman. But in reality when he was just saying that his chest felt tight and his tongue felt stiff. Ken couldn't do it so smoothly but he had forced his body to be able to react to that stage.. Ken thought that if he didn't do it now then when would he carry out his plan?