CHAPTER EIGHT
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Evita Deighton's
If anyone knows how painful it is the unwanted one is. Then you will understand if I say I am in absolute pain. I have to constantly endure a dozen pairs of gazes sharp like daggers wanted you to be stabbed by it.
I was lucky enough to stay alive because of the Moon Goddess's Absolute Order which consists of Elders from every Wolf Pack where every elder or High Priest or Priestess of every Coven is also a member but because of the war, the only member of this order is the wolves. They delayed my trial because my brother pleaded I am not guilty of such a crime.
This is true but I don't want him to dig into the past and try to help me just to make himself the enemy of every wolf in every Packs. That's why I left to make him safe, to make everyone in Everest Pack to be safe. I don't want him to be in danger, my heart won't possibly take it. I promised our parents that I should protect him. If I fail to do so then I don't know how to face our parents in the afterlife.
" What will take you so long?! " instead of thanks I got hit by the wood I chopped for them instead. It was always like this and I always withstood, sometimes I got thrown to the ground and got bruises. They also hit or punch me in the face, drag me by my hair or tie me up to a tree and leave me out in the cold, I endured.
They say it was my punishment. And I have to be thankful they won't kill me. I was so all-powerful how does everything end up like this?
I was about to say sorry as I always say and nothing more but she shot the door close to my face before I could say it. The task here is done I have to go do another task for another household there are only 3 more left before I could take a rest. I take the laundry and wash it on the well located at the back of the main Pack House. There I could see him even by chance and every time I am hoping he could have a change of heart and pull me out of this misery.
I suddenly feel pain when I hear a loud moaning of a woman from upstairs. Unknowingly, tears fell from my tired and dull eyes. So you were enjoying a night with someone else, can't you look for me just once? Can't you feel the pull of emotions between us? Have you ever seen that the one that was meant for you was me?
I couldn't pull the rope because I was crying so hard. I look at the deep well watching tears drop in I am thinking of ending my life here and being with our little moonlight. The thought of hugging her there in my arms makes me smile. I want to leave the agony that this world gave me.
" Hmmm, Alpha Henris. Deeper, please... " I heard the woman begging for Silas to pound deeper in her I remember we shared a passionate night in the dream too. I remember him calling my name between his moans and kissing me passionately after that.
The aching I felt became overwhelming, Hearing them moaning makes this heart of mine ache so badly, then how about watching them doing it in front of me, I can't even imagine the pain I must withstand.
I heard a loud bang and an angry lady threw her laundry at me. " You useless bitc*! you can't even do this simple task! " I bent down and started to pick up the clothes, I realized it was the laundry I washed a few days ago. She claimed that it wasn't washed properly. It was so obvious that she just wanted me to have a hard day. I cleaned all the laundry properly when I washed them. She grabbed the pail and hit me with it. " What are you waiting for?! " I felt a little dizzy because she hit me on the head. I grabbed onto the edge of the well to support myself. " Do you want me to hit you again with this? " she asked and played with the bucket swinging it around. " No, I will do what you want. " I said almost whispering.
After that, she leaves me alone I keep making myself wake up since my eyelids were so heavy, and I want to close them but I have to finish all of the laundries. After a while, the moaning stopped, and the lights in his room turned off. It must be nice to have shared a bed with you. I envy the girl you were cuddling with. And maybe give her a few more kisses before you say goodnight.
After I'm done with the laundry I go to the kitchen of the Pack House through the back door. I move as slowly as possible, The last task to do today is to make breakfast for everyone in the pack I get the two kilos of beef in the freezer I will make a beef stew while waiting for it to defrost I find some ingredients for my buttermilk biscuits I only know how to bake a few breads and pastry since I also cook for Everest Pack before.
When the beef defrosts I start to make the beef stew and when I'm done with the 4th batch of the buttermilk biscuits I made was done and I hurriedly take it out of the oven.
I cleaned the kitchen and went outside and went to the shabby small hut they made me live in.
This has a lot of leaks when it rained the legs of the bed are broken and I just tied it tightly with the rope I found on the garbage can in front of the pack house. I have a blanket made out of rugs that I sewed together with a straw and a hardened cotton pillow that is very flat I can't even feel I was using a pillow.
I have two hours left before everyone wakes up so it means I have two hours of sleep.