1 YEAR LATER
author pov-- guess what? fate was with hank all over... after siam got discharged from the hospital she forgave him and became friends but... siam coldness never left her side... whenever they used to hangout she used to be like a statue sitting or talking and so on.... but one night when siam who was chilling out in her home watching some movies, she heard her doorbell go ding dong!!
she opened the door and found hank smiling sheepishly... she asked, " what??" with a stern face which hank was used to. he just shoved his hands up and showed 2 plastic bags and excitedly said, " chicken wings and beer... cheers!!" she just sighed and said, "I don't know... you are going to clean up the mess" and let him in
1 HOUR LATER
after drinking 3 cans... siam lost her tolerance... she started blabbering stupid things and here hank who was not drunk yet, was admiring her with full love... he smiled when she kept all the bear cans orderly... siam turned around and saw him smiling... she said to the cans as if they were real, " do you guys saw... he smiled... he can smile"... she looked at him and said with full sorrow, " I am jealous of you... I am jealous that you can smile... why can't I do that?" she again turned towards the cans. only if the can could know how she was breaking down. she spoke, " do you know I have tried so hard to smile but I can't... do you all know how many sleepless nights I have gone through... how all those dreadful memories come in my head and starts winding up whenever I try to smile..."
she looked at him who was looking down with full guilt... maybe those teenage acts or can say memories affected her so badly. she said, " do you know how much I wish to laugh out loud whenever I hear jokes... how I wish to clap whenever I watch a funny movie like you all do..." she said and started clapping her hands forcefully which made her tear up. she continued, "I know the action I have toward my colleagues scared the shit out of them, I know I scare them with my voice, my presence, my aura, but deep down I am myself afraid of those things ... my heart still in pieces... never have got healed... my heart feels numb, I have no feelings, I can't smile... I still can't smile" and that's when she broke down in front of someone for the first time in 10 years.
she started again between her hiccups, "I even lived my life as a joke... I lost my parents, my brother, and even my best friend levia who died 9 years ago" she looked at him and said, "I know everyone is making fun of me... bad mouthing behind my back... bad-mouthing... and you... you too want to mock me right? do it.. just do it.. do as your wish... don't give me false hopes... am I not scary?... am I not funny?... just laugh.. laugh.. laugh" she started crying and started hitting him on his chest while his tears never stopped flowing.
he held her hands and forcefully made her sit on his lap... she started wiggling to get out of his grip, but he held her tightly and made her calm down.. he whispered comforting words and whispered, "I love you and I can't say a more truthful thing than this love... I know I broke your heart... I was a teenager. it was my fault. but can't you give me another chance... I promise I will never ever make you cry... I promise"
she looked at his eyes through her swollen eyes. their face was inches apart. she looked at his lips so did he... he started coming forwards and kept his lips on her soft ones...
NEXT MORNING
As the sun rays glimmered throughout the room… siam opened her eyes slowly and found herself in his arms… she stared at him and traced his facial features softly .. slowly hank opened his eyes and whispered, "good morning, siam" she just asked, "why?" he frowned and asked innocently, "what why, siam"
A tear escaped her eyes and said, "hank you fucked me up…why? I was unconscious hank..." his eyes turned soft as he said, "no siam, I made love with you. not fucked you" she said, " there is nothing called love"
"it is"
"No, it's not. if there was such a thing called love, I wouldn't be like this"
" you just didn't get the right and real love"
" I had parents, my brother, grandpa and Leo to love me"
" you were alright back then... everything started getting messed up when they died"
after hearing what he said some tears left her eyes which didn't go unnoticed by him. he hugged her softly and said, " sorry...siam" she said, " why did god make my life like this? what did I do to him that he snatched away all my loved ones from me..."
he just patted her back and calmed her down... she continued between her hiccups due to crying, " everything was alright unless I turned 15, grandpa died. my whole family drowned to death... my boyfriend...." she stopped when the realization hit her and continued, " my ex-boyfriend died in a fire. even my best friend died because of a collapse. how can I smile again? how will I laugh when there is no one to make me laugh? I wish I could die but I can't. I am afraid hank... afraid of dying... I tried to do suicide... but all in vain. dying is not that easy hank." she said in her cries. while hank was staring at her with guilt. he kissed her forehead and said, " you know siam, I used to love a girl very fondly. her name was siam. she was so cute, cheerful, kind and crazy too" he said with a chuckle, "but I lost her because of my colossal fault, I would never have made friends like them who threatened me with a person whom I never wanted to lose... I pranked her... who knew that the person I was in love with used to love me more than I could... it tore her apart...that's when she realized that everything started messing up" he said and started shedding tears. he continued, " only if I could another chance..." she stared at him silently. she moved forwards and kissed him on his lips... their kiss was passionate and that's when she knew...this may workout...