51, remember the first meeting, deng jin said: "did you write short frequency fast summer vacation?" I say yes. "Somebody wants you to go to the little pavilion in front of eight shacks," said yun, thinking of that, I. Deng jin, deng jin!
In the afternoon, ROSE was sitting in front of me in the "philosophy" class. As I looked at her and read a dream of the red chamber, she looked up, her hair like a waterfall of silver thread was on my desk.
She turned her head away, and her white, lustrous face, that was the face of water, came out, and made me drunk. I found her teeth were a little bit dark, but I had a feeling that her black teeth were beautiful. That figure, that situation, is very soft and pretty. ROSE, ROSE, I love you! I had an idea. I pulled out my hair, put it in the pen, and touched her thick hair, as if I had kissed her.
53, issued, seven 95 points in me, said I "picture master."
So I cried out, "hong xin," embarrassed, she said she could not recognize me, I also yun, she is indeed more beautiful than before, more beautiful.
55, zheng renxiang took deng jin's hand to show me, there are small pieces of skin black, deng jin laughed it.
A good look ROSE, a study, really very beautiful, and absolutely a movement, a frequent smile, silence sorrow, mouth smile, all touching, like a deep clean water.
Evening and dai went to the reading room (newspaper), and xiao xing was there.
57, ROSE sat in front of me, I think she is very beautiful, suddenly I catch the table with the hand, she leaning back, hair, the soft soft yarn, the cloud fog type soft, soft in the dream, in my hand across, makes my heart medium wave, so a few times, meet the pole, one of my hairs or unplug the brush her hair like clouds and fogs, satisfied, and in the future, the beauty of the first love, in the future.
I received a letter from hu cheng. He said that I could get along with others with advantages, such as being favored by teachers, being envied by classmates, and being favored by women. All the past is wrong, but it is good to be past. My past, everything really past, how is also lovely.
Tonight, everyone abreact again, big sing its song, lead to go upstairs drink to finish, Lin yuehen say me "wayward", be so?
60. When talking about my heart, I said, "after all, people are selfish." One is material, one is spiritual "comfort".
In the evening, Lin yuehen took some "diary of a girl" and showed it to several of us. It was the first time I had seen such a thing. I was curious and fascinated.
62. In the noon writing class, dong qin said that she thought she was a girl and got 90 points.
63. At the meeting of xuetong society, I was appointed as a reporter in the library department, and the press card was changed to be a regular reporter. I will submit a press release every week. Went to the reading room again.
Modern Chinese teacher Mr. Jiang asked a question. -- -- -- -- -- to make my heart is full of poetic -- -- -- -- -- - let du from dividing the phrase level, she rowed, make my heart - (my heart), and Chiang asked two classmates to go, is in favor of, say again "the class represents?", I don't know what mood stood up, a little happy, also fear, because of the different perspective, and would like to ask will wrong, was rejected, puts forward - I - (I) in the heart is full of -- -- -- -- -- -- --, Jiang Yun approve of me, I was very happy. ROSE has been seeing ME, HE SEE HER, SHE STOPS. I'm so happy.
In the afternoon of the writing class, dong qin said that the minister should not criticize him too much, but ge yimin was the only one in the class. Dai weiyang said "ROSE SEE YOU", and I was so happy.
It has been four days since we ate noodles and bread.
67, night went to see my girl's party, I was the first good, cheers, eating melon seeds, conversation, were busy all night, dancing, smoking, and bottles and play the guitar, fireworks, then FengPing, huangshan to girl sang a song again, she read I said: "also do not know the name," I said, "so sorry", after wearing for the name, I said "long live GeYiMin", she said remember, GeYiMin, she teach me to dance, step 14, said that I learn about, and teach the four steps to a few times to me, is so wonderful. After I say: "thanks fengping, fengping long live", finally wait for dawn, she sing, I admire her many balloons, ah Lin finally invited her to jump, no, to me, but I did not invite, finally I throat hoarse, big show.
I was very happy to receive xu qian's letter in the evening. She said she was glad to receive my postcard, and was angry that I did not send her a letter, and asked about the university march. She is the most beautiful one of my classmates. She is the most ideal candidate. She could write to me. At night, I lit a cigarette and went back to the second year of high school. When I looked out of the window, I saw the buildings with thick boughs and buildings. The light was a little bit too beautiful. Did I really fall in love for the first time, too happy, "heart itch a little bit not connect to pull". Long sleepless.
69, noon to xu qian to seal three long letters, said the college students democratic movement, do not reply to the reasons, the brilliant university life, I want to change, quoted Rousseau, very sentimental, waiting for her to reply.
I received a long letter from wang qunxin in the evening. Alas, xu qian and wang qun, the characters for whom I used to dream, will also write to me, but how will I treat them after the winter vacation? Zhang weimin took my message book to see, found a lot of girls to my dumping, at that time I was indifferent? Later? What did the old students say to me?
After dinner, she sat at Mr. Ji's house and went to the dormitory. Lu saw a woman in a purple windbreaker and a velvet hat. Cannot see several eye, very natural and unrestrained float by. Later luo shouxi said that she called "ge yimin" three words, at that time I did not know.
I wrote three pieces of paper to xu qian. She and a girl (zhang qiaofeng) read the letter in the corridor in the early morning, laughing and saying, "Lao ge has written a letter.
Hongxin said she had made an appointment with xu qian to her house and asked me if I would go to her house. At that time, I commented on the matter, feeling in my heart, but I didn't say anything in my mouth. I really wanted to go, but I shook my head twice.
Zhang qi is really lovely, small and petite, like a water lotus is too beautiful to flow. She had many things to say to me about the current regime, about the bureaucracy, about the Vietnam war, about her childhood, about her transformation.
75, mackay and a person, is a super, I'm thrilled, bian bian head, concentrate on waiting for her, after they came in, I say: "you eat", they get something again and again, hong said grade to her house, I vaguely said bad days, xu qian always holds the mood to see me, they go after, I and Locke, also said that looking for horse, after xu qian, and I really was not the taste, she the purple pants, emanate charming brilliance, beauty, beauty, beauty. After see old finish, they walked, most is xu qian that one turn round of gentleness.
76, Lao ma said that many women like me, he listen to the girls, such as xu qian, hong xin, xuqian really. Ah, xu qian, in the morning liu hui asked me if I was good with xu qian, I said "good P", she said xu qian told her I was good with xu qian. But why didn't xu qian answer my letter? I didn't say three words this time. Too happy, think xu qian, zhang qi (Lao ma said she had someone, and 66 years of birth, I can not delay her), but xu qian, tomorrow can see her?
I woke up and couldn't sleep after thinking about xu qian. In the morning, I met with Mr. Guan at the gate of the training school.
These days I always think about xu qian in bed. I really fall in love with her. When I was a sophomore, I fell in love with her.
I sent a letter to xu qian, saying that she was in a hurry, and that she got along with others by advantage, so I waited for her to reply.
The woman in the evening of philosophy class is really beautiful.
81, now fengping said: "you are ge yimin, did not say the wrong," I because of trouble, did not. Will want to move some to her later, alas, how say.
I received xu qian's letter late and was very happy (when I saw it was her letter). I was very excited for a long time and said that I was the first one to write to her. However, I disapproved of the ugly Chinese and asked her princess yun er.
In the afternoon, sunny day, I sent a letter to xu qian, saying the meaning of her love.
In the afternoon he xianmei and wei liming came to the meeting. Said the conversation, then left.
These days I often see red pants, how beautiful, good temperament, but I only have to see and yi, the world who like me passionate and can not love it. I really want to go home and meet xu qian. I just sat there with my quilt over, daydreaming.
, go to the super 86, seek along while, knocking at the door should not be for a long time, heart Peng Peng straight jump, blushed fever, I do not know what mood, which come of courage, a key on the door, can't help but open the look, just open voice asked "who is that" a woman inside, closed the door between panic, good ring, perch knocked again, live ugly, opened the door, I face is not good, words can tell, just say "xu qian in?" her mother must have no good impression, the smoke of hell in a red shirt, she wondered along while, understand is a super classmate, was called to sit down, tea (I), she said Xu Kao town, try to zhenjiang volleyball back yet. Shi qiao hong xin came, and hong xin play, talk for a long time, I leave, see guan hong, she pre-selected, after the teacher came, talk about the meeting, then go back to sleep, really tired. I was so regretful, how to appear in xuqian home in this way, was enchanted by the ghost.
After li erqiao left, I decided to go to my brother first. Just and Zhou Daobao respectively, see a woman cry, "hey, GeYiMin", the rise is mackay, good surprised, then saw the Feng Qingrong, a woman is wearing a red grey striped dress, wear glasses, not for the moment, a stupidly is xu qian, I will speak and Li Erqiao at noon, he left and I go to my brother there, just go, xu looked at me, may have been looked at, charming eyes to tender to intoxicate refused, I nodded to her, she seemed to smile, then don't. I found my elder brother. I can play go. I bought some food and wine. So he sent me to the teachers, and mackay and her boyfriend to go to the movies, talk about DE jong said in He Xianmei place, saw the Zheng Renxiang and BiYunQing, find Wang Beiyu, he took me to the dormitory, know xu qian has gone, ah, so in a hurry, without saying a word, this is what the fate, I regret it, why don't ask, don't was 1: "when are you coming home?" I saw some photos in he-ch. There was a little photo of xu qian in a half inch. She was wearing a white shirt, with a hundred heads and a charming smile. So beautiful, so beautiful.
For some reason, I think of someone these days -- xu dandan. Could have been a high school flower, know how recently?
Today, we agreed to go to the south division with dai Lao er, first to find his classmate tang xuemei, I told her that xu dandan was my hometown, she then called, we are waiting. A moment down a beauty, tight blue jeans, white pullover, short hair, do not know, as if the feeling is xu. She was in the middle of the stairs, looking down, shy and bent. Later tang nodded and I said, "are you xu dandan?" She said yes, and her eyes are dull, I said: "do not know it", smile, she also smile: "do not know", so I told me that I am ge yimin, jielong people. Ntu department of Chinese 86, she just a little know, and know is ntu, high school than her one grade. Asked her about her classes, classes, reading novels. Came up with the idea of writing unpunctuated poetry.
I wrote a letter to xu in the morning, thinking it was very good, without punctuation, a paragraph of prose, a paragraph of poetry, showing my admiration since the second year of high school.
Ah, xu dandan, you can understand my feelings.
Late do not know why, played the guitar, then went to the south division to find xu dandan.
Near home is more timid.
To her dormitory building, the porter's wife asked a girl to call her. After a while she came down, wearing a white dress, a mini, a white pullover, with flowing hair. She nodded to me first, and I was a little flattered. At first I wanted to go up, but the boys were forbidden to go up, so I went downstairs. She said she knew I was here, and I said so, walk out side by side. I asked her if she would go to nanda, she said Thursday to test the history of the revolution, tomorrow night, today (Wednesday) have to read, or not to read, to test zero, I laugh bitterly, or feet, walked out the back door side by side.
I asked Saturday to come over to play, she said maybe something, nothing can come. Then I said I could call up 110 qin shaoping (department of journalism) to come with me. Along the way, she said, "you have come to invite me over". I don't know what to say. Oh, she is so beautiful, so beautiful that I can't get near her. Speaking of the movie "the chivalrous guts", she said she did not like martial arts films, liang yusheng novel not a read, alas, how I continue to talk, then said you read books, I go to the old horse.
Long wall a while to end, the beauty is companion, time is very quick, walk in from the front door side by side, I a little angry, or sad, all the way have no words, after 1 she, I say to see qin shaoping, can come together (if have time if), she say not certain to come, don't call, otherwise let a person wait. She also said that she often went to the piano room. I asked zhang xianliang if she wanted to read the novel, she said "good morning friend" she had, "half of a man is a woman" may borrow, I said I have, she did not speak, ah girl, why you step on the golden mouth.
Farewell, she said again.
Looking for the old horse, not, then back to the south big, all the way is quite sad, tree up and waiting for the car, as if the tree also has a spirit, but the tree growing green, I also not equal to also.
Also saw "man's half is a woman", carefully looked, unexpectedly very profound.
Another "love monk hate su manshu" (song yiqiao) is also very moved, is my people.
Later, xu became a member of my film and television training class (I gave her and her companions free of charge) and movie tickets for the military club.
The diary has been interrupted several times, and the reason for not writing it down is nothing but emptiness, loneliness, boredom and helplessness.
Today I picked up a pen, began a long psychological process, I think I no longer empty, I am very happy, really, from the beginning of the school to today I have been very happy, I should do what I should do, I chose language, I also want to learn foreign language, I worked film secretary general, I want to know society, know life. What's more, my mother, han qinfen, xu haiying and jiang binh all said that I am good to close girls.
Han qinfen, it is too pure, the first time to see "red sorghum," sitting in my dormitory, very quiet, round face, big eyes, physique elegant, after xu haiying introduced to see my guitar, han said she also, and played for a while, began to speak, very nice.
After going to see a movie, I and Lin yuehen gave them tickets to go in, we crowded in to see. After the meeting to our dormitory, I borrowed a few books, an umbrella for them, has turned out the light, han let Lin do not send down upstairs, I sent them to the school gate, all the way to talk, after they did not let to send, they left, very happy. I was supposed to visit zhang yimou the next day.