Police wanted to investigate it but as Rumi forbade them, they took the car and kept it somewhere. Suddenly after four months, a detective came to talk about that accident. They searched for us but they couldn't find us and finally today he found our address. Rumi was not feeling well so he wanted to stay at home today. He became a driver but he had to drive another's car. How poor he is now! He could buy his own car once but now the days are gone. I found a new job in a restaurant as Rumi's income is not sufficient for both of us(he spent most of his money on alcohol). However, I was getting ready to go to my new job in the nearest restaurant. I work on three shifts but could earn a little money. That time someone knocked at the door and I went to check who it was. Opening the door I saw a guy wearing a brown coloured overcoat. He had the blackest hair I had ever seen. I asked him who he was but he asked me in reply if I am Lina. Being assured he told me that he came to ask me something about the day of my parents' accident. He showed me a picture of that strange man which I saw the day of the accident. So I told him everything that I saw. That time Rumi came and asked who the guy was. The guy answered that he was a detective, he mentioned his name but I can't remember it right now. Then he told us that he is a dangerous criminal and he is helping a big gang leader to hide his crimes. He had a file consisting of the proof of the gang leader's sins so they are searching for him. And he is seen last on the day of our parents' accident and in a CCTV footage he was seen to sneak inside a house(that was ours). As I saw him, the detective asked me if I saw something on his hand. But I couldn't answer because I didn't notice it well. He wanted to investigate the case and that's why they needed the car of the victim to investigate the case properly. We told him that the car had been taken by the nearest police. What if they really got murdered? I saw that guy too. But I didn't know that my silence could do such harm to me. If they had been killed by that guy, I could never forgive myself until I took my last breath." After that the diary moved on the next day. Nothing special happened that day. But after that there was something that stuck in Dae Ju's sight. "The detective came today. He caught that guy by investigating. He accepted all the things that he had done. It was truly a murder. But they got killed without any reason. The guy didn't come to our house that day. He came there intentionally, following the red car. He hid his file on that car before we rented the car. And for destroying it, he put a timer bomb under it. And for putting the bomb, he followed the car and reached our house. Why did we have to rent that car? There were many more vehicles in the world! Why did it have to come into our house? Why and how a guy could take any innocent life like these! If I would become aware and would never let them go in that car, I could save them. It was all my fault. No, it's my sin. I hate myself. Why am I like this? Why I am so stupid? So selfish? But I want to kill that guy right now. He has no rights to live in the world. What benefit did you gain by killing four people? At last, you had to surrender! So why in the world did you have to take those peoples' lives? If I could, I really would kill him with my own two hands but they couldn't come back if I kill him. And the last thing is I could have saved them. Partially it was my fault too." Dae Ju couldn't believe his own eyes. Someone got killed for this silly reason! Where is the world we are living in! he thought and continued to read as he was too curious and also shocked. After that there was nothing much about that. But after knowing the truth she and her husband both changed. She had to struggle a lot. Every night she sat with a pen and this diary and wrote what was going on with her. This diary was proof of how pathetic her life was after the accident. Almost every page was full of her dark past. And whenever she did something wrong or mistakes, her husband beat her up every time and she had to bear it quietly. Maybe that's how she was giving punishment to herself. Her so-called husband couldn't love her at all. He hated her more than anything in this world but she was helpless. After all there was no one else in this big world. She couldn't go back to her father's hometown because she didn't have enough money. If she went there, where would she stay? Who would give her shelter? If anyone feels pity on her, he could take care of her for not more than three months. After that, what could she do? Girls have to be dependent on someone in that country that is why she likes to live here. She could at least find a job. It doesn't matter how small the job is but no one is insulting her saying that how could you do such a job! You are a girl! This is why she decided to stay here till the end. And also she has one whom she has to take care of. She knows that he couldn't forgive her no matter what but there is no one who would take care of him. Yes, she has a crush on him but she has to protect him like her son. Though he has a strange personality. Though he did whatever he wanted to, he is her husband. And he lost everything because of her. This is why she has to take care of her. If his parents were alive, he could become another nice man but he lost the chance because of her. So, she decided to stay with him and make him a better person as his mother wanted to make him.
Dae Ju couldn't read anymore. He closed the diary and put it aside. He was thinking how hard her life is! But this is unfair. She is not guilty at all. Then why is she punishing herself still now? She has to let the past go. She has to live her life as she wants. She can't stay in the dark cage anymore! Dae Ju wondered how she found the best way to punish herself. He looked at his own hands and thought how could these hands be able to put up to beat such a nice girl? These hands should not stay in this world. And also, how could this mind even think of hurting such a sweet girl like her? She didn't do anything wrong. She is just too pure for this unfair world! It's not her fault! She believes in people too easily! It's not her fault! She has to understand and overcome it. Dae Ju decided that he will support her from now on to overcome her dark past and for living a better life. Dae Ju lied on the pillow and started thinking how he could help her. Suddenly he remembered that he had a plan for today. He looked at the clock immediately and saw it's past three. "Aish! How could I forget about it! I had to go for my credit card! Aren't everyone at the dorm now! Ah! I missed the chance." saying this he took a long breath not because he forgot about today but because he couldn't perform today. As it's the ending time of the year, they have to take part in many award shows but he can't go there now. He was thinking of his brothers, what they are doing and how they are doing without him. He remembered that they couldn't stop crying at an award show. That year they won five awards at a time. They couldn't imagine it would be possible. So all of them got emotional but after that they have won those prizes every year and so it becomes a normal thing in their life. Whenever he holds a trophy he feels like he won his own past. He could show it to his past when he wanted to quit singing. But he never gave up and so he could reach this far. He fought against his will, his happiness, his hard times and he helped his other members to fight until the end. He is the one who felt nervous before any concert. He was afraid that he could do well but he never showed it to others. He always showed that he is over confidence but it was never like this. He always feared for tomorrow and worried about it. But if he showed this true side to his little brothers then how could they gain confidence? How could they overcome their darkness? How could they throw things back to haters' mouths? Moreover, the world is depending on fake faces. It will always welcome the fake. People always cheer for the fake. But whenever the truth comes in front of them, they start to hate it and make controversy. When the truth comes they can't accept it. So, he decided to always wear the fake mask and get the world by his side. This is why he is worried about his brothers right now. He wanted to see them but he couldn't. Even if he went to them right now, they would not be able to recognize him. They won't recognize him. He was disappointed and helpless. But when he thought about Lina he found himself lucky because he didn't have to face that much problem. Whenever someone gets disappointed in his own life he should see people like him who are living a worse life than him. Then he will feel that he is not the one who is facing the problem and feel better. This method worked on Dae Ju too. Though he doesn't like this life and he wanted to go back to his own life, he felt pity on Lina. She is just like him. She always pretends that she is fine but actually there is fire which is burning inside her every second. But nobody could say that by seeing her once. He also couldn't guess what was going inside her without this diary. He felt so sad for her that he wanted to help her. But he could not understand what he could do for her to make her happy. Suddenly his phone started ringing. He took the phone and received the call.
"Hello!" said Dae Ju.
"Is it Rumi on the phone right now?" asked a lady voice.
"Yes! I am sorry but I couldn't recognize you." said Dae Ju gently.
"The borrowers never could recognize the lenders. Isn't it?" said the lady with a gentle voice but in a rude way.
"Excuse me! I couldn't understand." said Dae Ju. Oh! Then I have to introduce myself again. My name is Lee Mi Do. I am the secretary of the manager Mr. Hwang from XO bank. You lent 500000 won but you didn't pay a single installment and it's already been ten months. We were quiet until now but we will not continue. We will have to take action against you. Got it? You better give at least one installment by the ending of this month." saying this the lady hung up. "But....Aish! She hung up on me! From how many places did you borrow money which I have to pay that now?" asking this he looked at his body and patted his left thigh.
"Things are getting worse day by day. If I couldn't find my way now maybe I could never go back to my real body. No, That's not right. I will not let this happen." thought Dae Ju. But he was helpless. How could he go back? He doesn't know. He looked outside and saw a strange lady. He wanted to remember but he couldn't recognize the lady. He saw her somewhere but where he couldn't understand. The lady was coming near his house. She was looking just like a beggar. She put on a brown coloured overcoat and black and white striped pants. She had a cap on her head which covered her forehead. But still, Dae Ju can't recognize her. That time he heard that someone was knocking at the door so he looked back and thought, who could it be? Lina has the key and she can come inside without knocking. "Maybe it's all in my mind." saying this he looked outside again but the weird lady was gone. His eyes were searching for her but she was nowhere. He came to the window but it didn't work to find that lady. He opened the window to have some fresh air but suddenly the lady appeared right in front of him and Dae Ju got afraid.