When I woke up in my room which was as warm as a blanket I noticed a faint smell of hot chocolate. I walked downstairs and saw presents under our brightly lighted Christmas tree.
The tree was covered in lights which were a warm white and the star on the tree glowed so much that it hurt my eyes if I looked at it. Under the tree there were a lot of presents which were in many different sizes and colors.
I walked into the kitchen and saw my Dad wearing an ugly red Christmas sweater. On it, there was a reindeer.
His oily black hair was going in many different directions at once because he didn't take a shower yet.
When he woke up he immediately went to the kitchen and spent a while making breakfast for me. I was shocked because the bacon was glistening, the hash browns were crunchy, and the eggs were scrambled.
The last time he had cooked was when my Mom died. The food he cooked back then wasn't good at all. Once we both got food poisoning when he undercooked pork and he spent in the hospital for a day.
After the food poisoning incident, we relied on food from the store. I haven't seen him, cook, since then until today.
He had told me that for around two months he attended a cooking class on days that he didn't have to work so that we would be able to eat better meals. Tears fell from my face because I know he did this for me.
I ran to him and hugged him. I haven't had a better breakfast in my life. Everything was perfect.
After we had finished breakfast I opened my presents from under the tree as my dad watched on our brown leathered couch. I got underwear, shoes, shirts, socks, and even a new phone.
"Dad thank you," I said to him as my vision became clouded because of my tears. I know that ever since Mom passed away it has been hard for my Dad. He has always tried his best for me and I am lucky to have him in my life.
I realized that if we didn't move here our life would've been much worse. His new job has made it so he can support me. I have started to accept my new life even though it is different. I hope that I will adapt to my new school and make new friends and have fond memories with them just as I did with my friends in Florida.
When the presents were all opened my Dad turned on the news and the weather forecast predicted that a snowstorm would happen for a few hours. I looked outside and sure enough, there was snow falling and the winds were strong too.
Even though it was morning it was still dark out because of the clouds in the sky. The only source of light came from the street lamps and the Christmas lights outside other people's houses.
Seeing snow was still weird to me, especially on Christmas. Back in Florida, it was 60 degrees out or even sometimes 80 on Christmas. Normally I would hang out or play video games with my friends on Christmas.
I texted my closest friend from back home asking if he wanted to play a video game with me.
A few seconds later he responded with, "Sorry bro I'm with my gf all day maybe tomorrow tho."
I never expected him to get a girlfriend because he was on the nerdy side but I was proud of him.
"Ayo I didn't know that you got a girl. If she cheats on you tell me because I'm finna fly over to Florida and confront her." I quickly responded.
He responded again saying, "Same goes for you, if a girl cheats on you I'll come over to Colorado and I'll have a chat with her. Also, gtg my GF is finally ready I'll text you tomorrow."
I chuckled and told him, "Don't ruin your date bro."
I texted the rest of my friends asking if any of them wanted to play but they have all made plans for today.
I wasn't sad or lonely. I'm glad that all my friends are doing well. I played video games alone. I revisited some of my favorite childhood games and even tried out some new ones.
After the snowstorm had faded away me and my Dad went ice skating. The ice skating rink was indoors and Christmas music was playing. Christmas lights infected the walls and there were a few Christmas trees too.
It smelt like cinnamon and it was almost as cold as it was outside.
We both fell a few times before we got the hang of ice skating. We had spent two hours or so ice skating until we had decided to stop. We took our ice skating shoes off and handed them back. We went to the snack counter and got snow cones.
My dad got an apple-flavored snow cone while I got a lemon-flavored one. Even though we were cold we both enjoyed our snow cones.
When we left we drove around the town and looked at the Christmas decorations on some of the buildings. This town was much more into the Christmas spirit than my hometown was. It seemed as if every building had decorations up.
Although I miss my hometown I have started to get used to my new one. I still miss my old friends. I miss hanging out with them, I miss having fun with them, and I even miss yelling at them.
I'll probably never share another Christmas with my friends back home ever again and that thought saddens me. It's hard adjusting to my new life but I'll get used to it eventually. Next Christmas I want to share it with friends just as I did in my hometown.
I went back into my bed and began watching romance anime. I wondered to myself if I'll ever get a girlfriend.
I have always wanted a girlfriend but my luck with girls hasn't been the best. I don't know if its fate trying to say that I haven't found the one for me yet but I'm starting to doubt that I will ever get a girlfriend.
I envy characters in romance anime because they seem to get a girlfriend with ease yet I struggle to find one.
I guess a reason that explains it is that anime is meant to be perfect while the real world is not.
Another reason could be that I'm just ugly. I really should stop watching romance anime because it is giving me unrealistic expectations.
My eyes got heavy and I began to doze off. As I closed my eyes a tear fell. My body was wrapped in a blanket and I was warm. I slept for about 9 hours which was more than I normally sleep.
I had around two weeks left before I would go to my new school here in Colorado. I hoped that I would be able to make friends even though people have probably already formed their friend groups.
"Will they welcome me? Will I make friends? Will I sit alone at lunch?"
These are the questions that I often thought about. I was anxious and I didn't know how my first day of school would go.
Things started taking a turn for the worse over the rest of winter break.
My friends started to text me less and less as the days went on and eventually we stopped texting. I was being forgotten and left behind. The only one who I talked to was my Dad because my friends had all left me.
I had now a little less than a week before school and I was completely alone when my dad was working. I had no one to talk to there and I was lonely.
I don't know why my friends stopped talking to me but I guess it's because we don't see each other anymore in person. I guess we will be strangers soon and we'll forget each other.
Maybe I'm still living in the past but I still think of all the memories I have made with my friends. If I don't make friends at school then I will be alone.
I worry that I'm going down a bad path. I still have no idea what I want to do in life and I don't have a job even though I'm a sophomore.
I feel like I'm wasting my life doing nothing now. I feel like I'm falling behind everyone else. My old friends had jobs.
I didn't get one even though my Dad was barely making ends meet until just a few weeks ago. I feel terrible for not helping out my Dad.
The rest of winter break felt like seconds to me. Each day began to feel the same and I wanted to break out of this cycle. Finally, winter break had come to an end and my first day of school had arrived.