"i just Remember"

This happened sometimes...

"it was a pleasant day, but not for my day, It's always been bad"

Casually walking around to get some fresh air and change my background instead of my usual dark room.

Looking so gloomy as i walk always facing down the road to avoid awkward eye contact to my surrounding (this is just my mannerisms cuz i don't like meeting their eyes)

Nothing really special that was about to happen, the place has some trees and grass on the side of the road totally normal place here in club manila east.

And then i saw something i wished i do not, i hoped i even have the courage to just casually ignore it and move on.

But i was so lost in life, pissed and bored not sure what to do.

It's a not so short tree branch? (a stick??) It's curve looks a bit splendid, not so bent and all..

There's no changes on my walking speed i just stare at it as i approach near it....

Since like i said early i couldn't helped but notice it, i stopped..

Just right in front of it... i stare on it for 2 more seconds while standing Looking down...

My mind was clouded??? Or just clear??? I analyzed what i saw, It's definitely a stick...

It's already too late i stared too much on it, i can't just walk away and done with it, It's like an UNSPOKEN RULE when you went into It's luring zone you have no choice but to pick it up...

Just like how i normally pick up things that i drop, i squat down to it, and reach my hand, grab hold of the stick..

That time, under the unspoken rule which i know so well, It's normal choice of action to pick it up, as if it was fated, like it was meant to be there because i am definitely walking there at the same exact time..

The moment my hand reaches it, and hold it on one of It's end..

The wind blows... it seemed troubled.

Or so i thought (maybe it was jusg my imagination, let me be DON'T JUDGE)

i felt the demon karma has awakened and It's a sign that the Queen needs my service.

Slowly stand up with the stick on my hand, i felt the surge of power stimulating from the stick, it crashes against my divinity and demonic mana as it definitely attracts each other.

I..... took a deep breath.

"i guess It's time, i just have to do it" murmuring silently between my breath

"It can't be helped, It's a matter of loyalty to ny sword duty as knight from the underworld"

I slash to the air, as if testing the power of my new found sword that has yet to awakened on It's true form.

It needed the blood of such celest creature that lurks into the surface of the earth

They descended from the sky, unsure of It's origins.

Then a faint voice echoed through my head...

It's someone elses, yet so familiar

『Can you really do it?... you can hear them right?』

"yes, the sound of your kin"

『Well of course you can, you can communicate through quantum brainwaves as well right? It only make sense after all you and I a celestial being, demon lord from a different dimension beyond the blackhole are....』

"the same person?"

The grip tightly onto the sword of nature, It's rough texture needs to be polished and i steeled myself and resolved to bring vengeance against the celestial beings that abandoned me to the earth, and to bring honor to the Queen i swore to protect

"for i am the demon lord, root of divination knights from the kingdom of haltina"

In the middle of this conflict, that happened inside my head in just 5 seconds the moment i touch the stick, a sound of Brooooom can be heard.

Lots of tricycle passed by, i continue walking with that stick inhand still Looking down, but this time with a trouble expression, i walk near the sack of trash, and thrust the stick to the ground besides it... and pretending i was just planning to throw...

Because this is just fucking ridiculous, none of what i imagined earlier are true as much as i hope it is.... i'n really just sick in the head i guess to even think those shitty stuff, if people were to focus their attention to me earlier they'd be laughing their ass of...

Demon lord? Celestial beings?? Power? KNIGH OF QUEEN MY ASS... give me a break, i literally embarrassed my self infront of MYSELF, i shamed my self for stupid shits...

Before i left, i look back to the stick as i am walking away....

"i've place you in there cuz who'd have thought a legendary sword can be found besides the trash, this is to avoid it bein in the wrong hands."

"besides i've done enough fighting for honor, i'n sick of this endless war, perhaps i'm not your master after all, cuz a new ones from this generation will be born to carry on our chivalry"

"someone more worthy than i am..... he will definitely surpassed...."

『JUST FUCKING STOP IT ALREADY, if someone can read your mind, you'll end uo a laughing stock for fucks sake.. this is so embarrassing even if nobody witness it, It's just too muchh....』

I end up internally crying.... half of me still hope They're true.. but just please let me stop thinking about it.

OTL

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