It was on a Saturday evening when my friends came over to visit me at my home, my family members were happy to see my good looking and well behaved friends that ihad, it was quite interesting cause Inever thought that there could come a time when my parents will appreciate anything that ido.. Since all they did is make me feel bad for not having achieved what they wanted me to, itook a different career against their will and it seemed that everything idid was never good enough for them, on the other hand my siblings seemed to impress them even with the littlest they did, sometimes I felt like am an outcast, and maybe being the middle child must have been a disadvantage, I felt like iwas not my parents daughter, my bed was my crying spot, iwas soo dissapointed and ihad gotten used to being a loner, so you can imagine the kind of happiness it was to me that for once in my life they praised me.. I almost shed tears but idint want my friends to look down on me or think that there was something going on, so after the evening tea they asked for my parents permission to let me join them in a well arranged party with one of their parents, iwas soo excited. And for sure my mum allowed me to join my friends, I dressed up and off we went to my first dream party, and as a teenager that party meant alot to me , iwas soo overjoyed that day. We arrived at the party at one of our friend's house, it was soo dark and silent, I wondered:, idint understand but iknew parties are alwys loud, as I have alwys heard.. , now since it was my first time iwas certain that people lied about parties and loud music. Anyway, I wasn't gonna let anyone or anything spoil my day, so dint bother much about the noisy part, so we entered the house and that's when I realised that parties are alwys loud but this was silent because it was soo private and a secret party even to the owners of the house, so you can imagine how silent it hard to be, my friend's parents were unaware of what was going on, and it din't bother me much anyway because Iwanted to enjoy to the fullest that day, so we prepared everything and most of our friends joined us hours later, we had soo much fun, there were boys, food, freedom, alcohol, some even used drugs, others are those I never thought will ever do that, I promised myself that iwas going to be careful not to drink too much, the party had just started and it more fun than I thought, as I drunk my first glass of wine one of my friends came up to me and started questioning me why iwas having wine when I can actually have alcohol, iwas too ashamed so ihad to lie that I usually started with the light drink before icould have the strong one that might make me blackout, peer pressure is bad, I found myself having alcohol as I was already tipsy from taking three glasses of wine, and just 2 glasses of alcohol blacked me out and that's when my nightmare started. I found myself sitting alone in a very lonely but beautiful field with nothing but green grass and from a far you could see amazing flowers, the problem is that iwas sitting alone, idint understand how I got there, itried to look around but couldn't see anyone not even animals, istood up and started looking around to see if ican see or find anything familiar, I walked for a while but there was no end, even getting to the flowers was even harder, iwas soo hungry and frustrated and that moment ithought or iknew that iwas already dead cause there was no way icould be in such a beautiful place and iknew that it never existed in this world, once I realised that iwas dead and all alone tired with no food, no one to talk to, no water and no life.. I laid down in that beautiful grass looking up the skies and cried my heart out, I started wondering where that was, it dint seem like hell to me, and neither did it look like heaven, we all grew up knowing that heaven is above the sky, but icould see the sky's, so ithought that i wasn't that bad so God dint allow me to go to hell, and I wasn't soo good so I couldn't go to heaven either, it seemed that my punishment was to be alone in a beautiful place, so I decided to that ihave to make that place my home, I started by accepting my situation..iknew that if I reach the far end where icould see the flowers my answers will be answered, so itook off and started walking while singing, infact I found it fun since iwas in command, icould do anything and no one will stop me, Ican shout to the top of my voice, iwas the boss and the queen in my own world, this gave me joy and some kind of fulfilment, as I was approaching my destination inoticed the beauty of those flowers from a far, but istarted wondering who planted them cause they were soo well kept, at some point it felt that I wasn't alone, iwas getting closer and closer the I noticed something that caught my attention, soo many people were were where iwas heading, this shocked me, I asked myself how??? Can no one see past those flowers? How come there's no one this side but everything seems going well the other side? Anyway Iwanted to find answers so I walked through and it was a hill so I went down the hill slowly and carefully not to fall, at last iwas there, people were looking at me as if they were suprised to see me, it's as if I was dead...this is when I noticed iwas at the hospital, iwas actually half dead and it all started at the party, someone spiked my drink and they drugged me, well iwas never allowed to go to any party and life went back to normal but this time a little but worse cause now my parents thought apart fro being a failure iwas a bad decision maker as well, icant choose friends wisely eighter.. this has been my life soo far.