And now I know why she hasn't answered by tests or even my calls because she was angry or maybe she wanted to …. No, no. no!, God, please, please, I won't do these bad things again and I will never taste a drop of alcohol, if my baby doesn't ditch me because of what I have done. It's a mistake that I know I would have to live for and maybe pay for but not the expense of Kat leaving me. Please God!, I uttered and prayed because knowing Kat, she will definitely wouldn't want anything to do with me after she saw those horrid vids with those fan girls.
Our band did good and our last night in Virginia was a hit in the internet and the world. I was happy we had a successful tour but sad since I can't seem to contact Kat now. Sam advised me o take the time off, anyway we have a month or so before the band will start to do our next album along with our German counterparts and producers. I drove my big bike, a Yamaha GT30 1000 cylinder to Kat's home in New York but Tali managed to get hold of me though busy with a shoot for a magazine. She told me that my girl went home to Sun City and California is near that place. I love the summer feel in Sun city and it has a wonderful memory for me when I met her parents there for the first time.
Mr. Stevens or Leo opened the door for me, though we have our own house near here, Kat didn't want to go there since she is really mad at me now. Let's just say she wanted to kill me as what her dad told me but in a nice way. Bridget, Kat's mom is still smiling at me, thank God she isn't that angry with what I did but Jaden and Will who are grown men now surely wanted a piece of me looking through their fiery eyes. I apologized and explained everything. I did make a mistake and been drinking too much that time since I miss home and I miss Kat and I couldn't divert my affection to anything but the alcohol and the girls who literally threw themselves at me when they have the chance. I fell and I feel sorry for Kat for trusting me well enough but betrayed her because of my stupidity and weakness. Bridget hugged me and told me I can come back later to check on Kat. But now she isn't ready to talk to me. Leo brought me out to the front porch and talked with me. He told me everything about Kat and that she is a stubborn girl and if I insist on meeting with her it will just end up in a break up. So, I just gave up and decided to give her some time to think and when she's ready I'll talk to her, explain about everything and ask for her forgiveness to take me back.
So, I stayed in our two storey home I bought for our engagement. Terry called me and he said the gang will have a get together party at his house in Beverly Hills. But I'm no mood to have fun tonight. I need and miss my baby, so I declined his offer.
Kat, looked at the window and saw Alex's light on. She checked on her watch near her bedside table and saw it's about 2:30 a.m. Hmm, she isn't asleep yet. Haaaa.. I hate feeling like this and I can't bear getting angry with her, it's like my hearts going to explode with the hurt. Even if I was mad at her I'm still in love and I still want her so bad. Though it's just two weeks since we last talked as if it's forever and I can't bear the thought of losing her. I stood from my bed and went down the stairs and got me a glass of milk from the kitchen. Huh!, Dad?!, I asked a bit surprised but still feeling low. Yes, how are you feeling honey?
Sh*tty, sorry, I don't mean that, I mean I feel bad like I'm going to get sick like forever!, Kat added almost crying. It's okay, honey, that's what being in love is and getting hurt is part of the process plus when you're married it's much worse actually, Leo advised laughing while he moved to hug Kat who gladly took his arms and rested on his big shoulder. Wow!, what a way to convince me to back out and not get married!, I replied also laughing in sarcasm. Aha, no, honey, I was just telling the truth. Did you know that your mom isn't really my first love but she was the best friend of my girl before? Before our engagement I was in a hurry to pee and when I ran to my soon to be fiancee's bathroom, I same her and my best buddy kissing in a study room near the bath. I was totally devastated and I wanted to scream at them but just decided to be discreet and left the house without any word. I broke up with my girl and your mom is also a friend so I always have her back and helped me find my way back to love again.
Your mom told me that she had a crush on me since high school and she was really hurt when I proposed to her best friend. But I think she loved me too cause when I asked her be my girlfriend she already said yes and moreover, she kissed me on the lips automatically. And there our love blossomed, it's never easy but I tried my best to get to know her and then love her. Now I'm in love with your mom like it's the first time we met and make sure she falls in love with me every day. So, if you love Alex, then you will accept her and everything about her. She isn't perfect just as you aren't but of course I won't let anyone hurt your feelings like that. But Alex explained to me that she made a mistake. I believe her and I know she'll make sure she will make you feel that love you always wanted from her from now on, Leo explained lovingly and kissed his daughter's forehead. I kept quiet and smiled at my dad. HE has a point. I love Alex and actually I never blamed her or had a grudge on what she did. It was okay. I was hurt like wanting to kill her at that moment seeing her with other girls, but after the incident, I thought of a question, why would Alex do this to me and what's the reason behind it?, I told myself and believed that I already forgave Alex before she even asks for it. I put on my coat and got my keys to the house we had for our engagement.
Alex's gift to me which I loved so much because it was near my family's place and my hometown. I know it's a bit hard for Alex to move here because she loves the night lights and the sound of New York City. But she told me that she has found her heaven aside from our place in Maldives but our own nest, crib or whatever they say it in slang words pertaining to a home. I walked slowly to the door and turned the key and opened the door. The lights are dim and I headed toward the second floor where our room is at. I found the place gloomy and quiet but knowing that Alex is here, makes it interesting and happy, beautiful and hopeful. There's no one in the bed room. Hmm!. I heard someone singing in the bathroom. Our bath tub and it's bigger than my bed at my parent's house. She really wanted it so she and I can fit and well…the rest is censored!, Hi, hi!
Alex is singing "Can't Help Falling In Love with You", and I love that song. Her voice reverberated inside the bathroom and it is so melodious and calm to hear. I love her voice so much. How I wish I could sing like her, but I know my voice is good in the shower and only in the shower, hehe! I just peeked through the half opened bathroom door and listened to her singing. Alex is naked and the tub is full of bubbles. The room smelled lavender and Strawberry flavours that I could taste the sweetness and sweat of my love in here.
I miss her so much I totally forgot the hurt she caused me and her so called faults, that I ended up taking off my nightgown, jacket and panties. Totally nude I walked in and flashed myself in front of the singing lover. Alex's eyes went wide and like seeing a ghost she almost wanted to shout, but fixing her eyes on me, she went smiling to crying. I went inside the tub and smiled. Then my face went serious that Alex got scared on what I would do to her in the tub. I wasn't going to do anything but to make her suffer by making love to me as many times as I want to.