Amaya's P.O.V:
I am currently going home with Kenshin and I can't help myself but steal glances at him. He looks so gorgeous and I feel shy as ever. The cold air touching my face added heat to my body and the tension between as is making my heartbeat fasten even more. "Hey, you are blushing." Kenshin's sexy voice intensify the thick air and it made me weak on my knees. "M-maybe because of the air." I awkwardly answered him and he smiles at me. "You look so cute." He said and focused again on driving. I on the other hand look out the window to ease the awkwardness a little bit.
The busy streets of Artymoind make everything around us very romantic. Why do I feel so shy whenever he is around, my heart can't be at peace whenever he talks and I can't make eye contact with him because everything stops whenever I am trying to catch his glance. Why do I have to deal with so much nervousness when he is around? If my son is only here I would gain a lot of courage to face his father. Lycoon looks so much like him. I felt sad remembering my son. Where could he be? "Amaya?" Kenshin called for my name and my world stops as he makes my heart jumps.
I slowly faced him and I met his serious face. "Y-yes?" I stuttered so I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. "Why are you closing your eyes?" He asked me and I can feel him moving towards me. "Did you see a monster?" He playfully questioned me. His breath is touching me an indication that he is just an inch away from me. I heard the clicking of my seatbelt and it free me from being stuck in my seat but I can't move when he was this close to me. I manage to open my eyes and our gazes lock and our noses are touching. "Your lips are beautiful." He compliments me and the next thing I knew I am closing my eyes again as I let him put me under his spell.
That soft lips touching mine sent a heat that is sending me again to my edge. Like Hades sending me to his underworld that's Kenshin Hide is. I know I should be stopping him but instead, I become braver and fight for my dominance. How many bad things would you want me to think of? Kenshin didn't ask for permission and explored inside my mouth. His tongue played skillfully like it was memorizing every each of me. His hot breathing is sending me to a high fever and he's making me drunk daze with the movements he is making. My mind wants me to stop but my desire devours each of my strengths and made me submit to him.
After that roller coaster ride that sent me to cloud nine, he stops and kiss the tip of my nose and peck my chin. "I just wanted to tell you that we are already here." He whispered into my ears. "Thanks for the wonderful night kitty. Please include me in your dreams and have a good rest. I'll see you tomorrow." He said and kisses my cheek before he leaves his car. I am so shy but what he did to me makes me feel brave and nude. He opens the car door for me and waited for me to get out. "I'll see you in the morning." Kenshin is only an inch away from me when I get out of the car. "Thank you for the ride." I manage to thank him even though my bones are weak due to the blast from the kiss.
"You're welcome. Have a good sleep okay?" He said and rides his car. I nodded at him and he smiles. "I'll see you in the morning." I shyly said. "I'll be going now." He said and left. I was left alone as I watch him leave. When I can't see his car anymore I walk inside the building with a blush on my face and I run to the elevator. I entered my house and rush to my room to bury my face in the pillow. I hold my chest as my heartbeats fasten. I sit down and look at the picture on my bedside table. "Where are you Lycoon? Baby, mommy is already missing you." Tears fall down my face and hug the last picture I have with him.
"I miss you so much." I cried and cried until I can't even pull any tears from me. I am getting crazy looking for my son and mother. Especially the fact that I can't tell anyone what I am feeling right now. I have to pretend I am doing good but I am broken inside. It feels like the world is so big for me and I am so little to reach my goal. I wanted to tell that I am not okay but to whom? When? and Where? I wanted to cry but will someone want to hear me out? Will someone try to understand me? It hurts to ask such a question because I know what's the answer and it's a big No. No one will dare to reach for me. No one will listen because I am just Amaya.
I grew up like this so I should be brave and fix things on my own. I should be used to this and not crying anymore. I look at my son's portrait and talk to him. "I will find you and will introduce you to your father bravely even though I am scared I will tell him the truth about you. No matter what's the consequence even if he won't accept you. You will not grow up like me." I said and kiss his picture. I let myself cry and cry so tomorrow when I wake up I will be brave to face this problem. I let myself be weak and off guard for now.
My phone rings and I reached for it to look whose the caller. I quickly fixed myself when I saw who the caller is. I did my best to sound okay and good.
Kenshin Hide Calling...
"Hello?" I answered the call and I heard him talk right away so I just listen to him. "Hey, Amaya." He greeted me. "Yes?" I asked and my voice is a little shaky so I have to stop talking as I don't want him to notice that I cried earlier. "You okay?" He asked. "Yes. I am doing just fine." I answered trying to keep it called. "You sure? It feels like you cried. You can tell me what's wrong." Kenshin said and it feels comforting but I can do this. He won't listen to a rant by the way. "I am good. So what can I help you with?" I asked avoiding another question. "I can't sleep. Can you stay up late with me?" He asked and I agree since I don't know what to do with my night either.