Breathing is not the same as living

Eyes feel heavy,it's burning.I want to close my eyes and fall into the world of dreams.Despite trying so hard I simply can't make myself fall asleep.I am not even able keep my eyes shut. This feeling of exhaustion and afraid of falling asleep has been occurring for quite sometime now.In the darkness of the night all worries seem to come alive. The negative energy eating away my thoughts. I'm simply afraid of losing time. Time is ticking,I'm rushing, A gush of adrenaline running through my veins. My eyes wide open,mouth gets dry.I feel like I would run for an Olympic any moment now. Although the reality is completely different, laying in bed.My body can't seem to catch up with my brain. My mind is seems to be getting ready for running in Olympics whereas my body feels paralyzed and my soul stuck in between.Life seems to flash through my eyes and I fear it's going too fast.I want to sleep but I also don't want to.This dilemma is excruciating and a pain to my mind and I live this pain every night.