My name is vami, I was a mediocre kid growing up, who found a middle ground in everything. I wasn't as beautiful as my peers growing up, they had beautiful brunette long hair which was braided and folded elegantly with a lace. They had pretty-looking earnings and white stoned nose piercings, which just exaggerated their beauty and not to forget the short skirts which showcased their thick thighs and hips, made boys drool over them.
I was the opposite of all I had a pixie haircut which didn't suit my face. I didn't like how razors made me feel. When the razor went down my neck I felt as if I was wet, and I was forcefully made to sit there in the room like a salon I was scared, at the same time I was pleased too, it was a pleasureful torture. Which I couldn't deny as it was a rule set by mom. I didn't have any kind of piercing on my skin, it never felt the dripping sensation and sexual tension. my skin was as virgin as the virgin vami. I was skinny one was able to feel my bones and organs just by glancing for a moment. Nor I was as girly as them. Neither was I good at sports not studies. But I enjoyed singing.
With a lack of validation and attention from the opposite sex, I started to crush on every single guy I came across. I used to fantasise about our marriage and our sexual acts and foreplay. Of he'd just compliment my body, and kiss me and my nipples until I forcefully push him back. And how in return he'll look in my eyes for a second and locks me upside down with my head facing his genitals and my legs up in the air, suddenly he'll vigorously start to lick my vagina inside out and I'll get back to him by playing with his penis. We'd talk to each other in between are sex to make sure each other is okay, and convey to each other how much they are loving it. The conversation we'll have creates an emotional bond and safety for just being naked with our thoughts.
These fantasy mental stimulations created enough dopamine and other hormones for my survival.
All these countless pleasureful torture and fantasy mental stimulation continued till I met him...