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Chapter 5 - The Mall

Carissa's POV:

I was sitting on the toilet of the bathroom I ran into. Why did everyone think that I was their mate? Was I ever going to have my own life? It seems as though everyone wants to own me and run my life. This pack is going to be the exact same as my other pack. I have to get out of here.

I looked over and saw a huge shower and when I stood up and saw that I still had some blood in my hair, I knew that the shower was calling my name. I opened up the shower and turned on the water and while it was warming up, I took off the hospital gown that I was still in. I looked at the mirror expecting my back to be horrible, but it was almost healed. I knew that I would have scars, since I have not shifted yet; but I guess I can call them my battle scars. My bruises were almost completely gone. I was starting to look like myself again. With that, I walked into the steaming shower and couldn't help but moan at how amazing this felt. I could hear what sounded like two people arguing outside, but at this moment in time I did not care.

I was looking at all the shampoos, conditioners, and body washes and I had no idea which ones to use. I opened the cap and began to smell them. I finally settled on the one that smelt like the sheets that I had been sleeping on.

Once I was done, I wrapped a towel around my hair and my body and wiped the smog off the mirror. "Shit, I don't have anything to wear."

I quietly went to the door and put my ear to the door. I heard nothing so I slowly opened the door and stuck my head out. No one was in the room, but there was a pile of clothes next to the door. From the smell, they were Kimberly's. I went back into the bathroom and put the clothes on. They were a little big, but not too bad. I brushed my hair out and braided it and made my way out of the bathroom and the room I was in.

I could hear talking coming from down the stairs, so I slowly made my way down the stairs and followed the talking into a huge kitchen. There was Kimberly and the Beta sitting at a huge island, and the guy named Titan leaning against the counter.

The talking stopped and they all looked towards me. Shit! I could see Titan smell the air and his eyes began to go black. I was too scared to move. I watched as Kimberly walked over to me.

"Hey there, are you wanting some breakfast?"

I just nodded my head and she walked me over to the island and had me sit in the seat that she was just sitting in. She walked over to the stove and began to cook away.

"Are you feeling better Carissa?"

I looked over to see that the voice had come from the Beta. I just nodded my head again, because I had yet to decide if these people were actually nice and could be my friends or just putting on an act.

"Here you go, eat up?"

I looked down at the plate of eggs, bacon, sausage, and hashbrowns and thought, I have not had this much food at one time in years. I began to just stuff it down my throat, thinking that they could take it away at any second.

"Slow down, it's not going anywhere."

So, I did slow down. They continued to chat about something that I was not paying attention to. Half way through my food, I felt as though I was going to throw up. I put the fork down and ran back to the room and bathroom that I had been calling home for the past couple hours and emptied everything that I had just eaten into the toilet. Kimberly ran into the bathroom and found me as I was just finishing up.

"Carissa, are you okay?"

I slowly walked towards the bathroom door and when I walked into the room, both Marshall, and Titan were there. I started to see stars and everything went black.

For the second time, I woke up to loud, annoying beeping noises. I opened my eyes and I was back in the pack hospital. I slowly sat up and looked around. I pushed the call light and waited for someone to come in.

The doctor walked in with Kimberly and Titan hot on his heels. "Well, I see someone has woken up."

"What happened?"

The doctor walked over and began to check my vitals and heart rate. "Your body has been starved for a long time now, and you ate breakfast too fast and ate too much before your body was ready to consume that much food at that rate of speed. So, the only thing your body could do, was to get rid of it."

"Okay."

"You will need to start off slow and work your way up. Like for breakfast maybe have some toast, lunch a half of a sandwich, and dinner maybe some chicken. Just until your body gets used to more food."

I nodded my head. He took out the IV and allowed me to leave. I walked out of the pack hospital and was blinded by the sunlight, but it felt so good on my skin.

"Risa, can I talk with you for a moment."

I stopped and turned around. "No one has called me Risa since I was little."

"I always called you Risa when we were younger. Would you mind taking a walk with me? I promise I won't do anything to hurt you."

I nodded my head and followed Titan. I just hope that I was not making the wrong decision in following him. We kept walking and walking. "Alpha, are you sure that you are not taking me somewhere to kill me, where no one will hear me scream?"

He chuckled and I couldn't help but feel all warm and fuzzy inside at the sound of his laugh. "I promise Risa, we will be there in just a minute."

We came around a corner and right in front of me was the most beautiful lake, with a small waterfall that was emptying into the lake. Titan walked out onto the dock and sat down and dangled his feet over the side. I sat down too, but I sat farther away from him with my feet tucked up underneath me.

"I am sorry for scaring you this morning when I mentioned that you were my mate."

"How could you know that I was your mate? We haven't touched or anything?"

"I have known since we were younger?"

"How? We don't find our mates until we are sixteen?"

"Our parents were friends and Kimberly and I used to always come over and when you went off with Kim, I had to always have eyes on you or be in the same room as you. You and Kim would never let me play with you or hang out with you, but I was always around, I had to be around. When I got a little older and my mom and dad told me what mates were, I knew that you were it and what do you know I was right?"

"I can't be your mate Titan. I'm broken and beaten and I don't want to be anyone's mate."

"You are neither of those things Risa. You have been through hell and back and if anything it has only made you stronger. I have been in love with you since, well as long as I can remember. Let's start over okay? Hi I am Titan."

He stuck his hand out for me to shake and I was debating whether or not I should shake it. "I am Carissa." I stuck my hand out and as soon as my skin touched his there were sparks and it felt as though I was on cloud nine. I smiled and pulled my hand back.

"Please don't give up on the mates thing. Let's start off as friends and get to know each other and see where it goes from there. Is that okay with you?"

"Sounds good, but I am not promising you anything."

He smiled and I could not help but smile back at him. He really was the most gorgeous guy I have ever seen. Werewolves are usually better looking than normal humans, but this man had to have been made right from the moon goddess herself.

He stood up and put his hand out for me to grab and I grabbed it and he helped me stand up. I really was liking how these sparks were feeling, but I was not the person to be his mate and be the Luna of his pack. Hopefully he will see that and let me go.

We made it back to the pack house and Kimberly was waiting outside by a car. Was she waiting for us? Or did she need to speak to her brother? I felt his hand go to the lower part of my back and I jumped a bit, but didn't pull away.

"I have asked Kim here to take you shopping for your own clothes and shower items. I love that you smell like me and I hope you keep smelling like me, but I feel you need your own things."

"I don't have any money."

"Don't worry about that. Go with Kim and have fun and I will see you later okay?"

I didn't feel like arguing, so I nodded my head and walked towards the car. Titan opened the door and I got in. "I'll see you soon okay."

"Okay." He closed the door and Kim and I were off. I watched through the side mirror as Titan got smaller and smaller.

"Don't you worry girl, you have my brother tied right around your finger."

I looked over to her. "What does that mean?"

"Girl, my brother has been in love with you since you were like four. He has never had any girlfriends or anything because you have always had his heart and deep down he knew that you were not dead. I mean yes he has slept with women, but never has he had a relationship."

Hearing that he has slept with other women, I felt my heart squeeze like someone had their hand around it and was squeezing it. I can't be mad, because hello I was kidnapped and kept in secret for fourteen years.

"Carissa, I know what you are thinking and for the Were men, they usually don't wait for their mate to have sex. Titan loves you and he has actually not had sex with any woman for over two years. He promised the Moon Goddess that he would quit sleeping around if she would bring you back to him, and here you are."

"Oh."

That was all I could get out. Kim turned on the music and we were silent until we made it to the mall. I had never been to a mall before, I mean I know what they are, I just have never been to one. Kim got out of the car so I followed. We made it to the door and I stopped.

"Carissa, what's wrong?"

"I shouldn't go inside. What if someone from the Red Moon Pack is here and recognizes me?"

"The Red Moon Pack doesn't come to this mall. They have their own mall they go to. I promise no one is going to recognize you."

She opened the door and I followed her inside. It was huge and there were so many stores. I just followed Kim and she would take me to a store and throw me inside a dressing room and throw clothes at me to try on. I would do as I was told and I would walk out and if she said yes we would buy them and if she said no, we would put them back.

We had about twenty bags and Kim was hungry so we walked to a place that had a lot of different places to eat. "The doctor said for you to have half a sandwich, so let's go get a sandwich and we can split one."

"Works for me."

I was sitting at a table with all the bags while Kim went to get the food. A lot of people were looking at me, and I could tell that there were also humans at this mall.

"Hey there sexy."

I looked to my left and this guy was standing there. "Um hi."

"What are you doing here sitting all alone?"

"I am not alone, my friend went to go get some food for us."

He sat down across from me and I was starting to get nervous. I had my hands under the table and I was squeezing them so tight I knew that my nails were drawing blood on my palms.

"Hey, ass wipe, get away from my friend."

"Well hello Kimberly."

"Tyson, get out of my seat and leave my friend alone. Titan would not like to know that you are messing with his sister and their family friend."

This Tyson stood up and started to back away. "No need to have to tell Alpha Titan about this okay. We are leaving."

With that said they left. Titan must run a pretty tight ship. "Sorry about them, any new blood in town and they think they have dibs."

"Is Titan a pretty tough Alpha?"

"He can be when he needs to be, but mostly he is respected and loved by the pack. Tyson here has just had a few run-ins with him and it didn't end well for Tyson, so he I guess you could say is scared of him in a way. Here let's eat and there is one more store to go to."

"Do we not have enough as it is?" As I look down at all the bags.

"You need to get some underwear and bras. Then we will be done."

I just blushed red, I could feel it. I was only able to eat half of the half of the sandwich I was given. I didn't want to push it.

We walked into a store called Victoria's Secret and she had me measured for a bra and it was very uncomfortable but I just breathed my way through it. After a very long hour in that store we were finally in the car and on our way back. I do not understand why girls like to go shopping? I really did not enjoy it.

As we were pulling into the driveway, Titan was waiting for us outside with Marshall. Once the car was in park, Kim opened up the trunk and the men went to the trunk to grab the bags. I got out and made my way up the sidewalk and followed everyone inside.

"Risa, I gave you the bedroom across from the one that you woke up in today. That room was mine and I thought that you would like a room of your own."

I followed him up the stairs and he opened the door and it was the most beautiful room I have ever seen. "I love it."

"I am glad. That door is a closet and that other door is the bathroom. And if you need anything I am right across the hall okay."

I turned around, "Thank you Alpha."

"Risa, you do not need to call me Alpha. You can call me Titan."

"Thank you Titan."

"Well I will let you get settled in and put your stuff away."

He went to turn around and I grabbed his arm, which was different even for me. I had trusting issues with men, but maybe it was the mate bond. He turned around and I stood on my tip toes and kissed his cheek. "Thank you again."

Here is this big huge mountain of a man and his cheeks were as red as a rose. "Let me know if you need anything." He put his hand to his cheek and walked out.

I went and walked around my room, looking around and for the first time I actually smiled and it was the first real smile I had done in a long time. Maybe I will like it here and maybe things will be different here, and maybe I will be able to be the mate that Titan deserves. Only time will tell.