Dear diary,
My final exams is on the 15th and 16th of this month. Yeah, the economics and chemistry practical. I can't wait to get it over with!
How am I feeling today? Well let's just say I love it when someone underestimates me or tells me no because I'm going to do it so let's just wait and see the outcome. I'm really feeling different ,ever since we had that talk ,I'm really glad we had that talk.
So, I told my mum my plan of taking the exam at my dad's back . What did she say?Let's just say I have to pass to make it up to her. You know ,having one of your parents who actually cares about you is a gift and a blessing tho there are people whose parents cares but nevertheless, I'm satisfied. My mum is basically an angel . Hey! don't get me wrong ,she is military kinda strict mother but she listens and that alone says alot. That's the thing, parents don't understand that they can be super strict or whatever but once they listen to their children ,they are the best especially with us teenagers. I mean we got alot going on in our lives ,it's basically the period we take our first steps in the real world. Where we get to understand the world is not all rainbows and sunshine . Some of us get bullied ,some of us develop inferiority complex and so on and when we can't let out our feelings we tend to find people or things that will help . That's how drug abuse and the joining of gangs starts . Once the pain doesn't go depression sets in and who knows what happens after that if not suicide. You know I've come to realise that people who bully ,go into drugs or something like that are all experiencing pain in their own way but the thing is, why do that? Why try to implement the pain on someone else? why try to use something that could end your life? Am I judging? Oh no, but is that really the way to work things out .From what I know that's not the solution, I should know because I've been through much more than you think, hopefully we get to talk about it soon . You shouldn't always deal with pain like that ,you should find a way to communicate, I do it through writing, dancing or even talking to no one in particular, I mean,it helps . Do you believe in God ? I do, when you have a problem you can just close your eyes and talk about it. I know you might find it weird but trust me ,there is a sense of relief when you do it.
Well ,I'm going to go ahead and read. See ya .