Do the nights started when she used to cry herself to sleep , cry when she woke up , remembering every moment with the guys she ever fell in love with , and looking for mistakes or what went wrong . She was devastated . She knew she never deserved so much heart breaks , so much pain , honestly no one does . She became so numb to pain that she after that never felt the pain again , everything seemed as she already knew this would happen , she was so broken she never trusted a soul after that , everything was a joke to her . After crying and everything, she said to her self , "how much more days ? how long im going to be in this state of being miserable . She became this unbreakable , unshakeable person , she was so strong by now she never ever thought anything would hurt her , even the biggest challenges came by and she fought , fought with bravery , no emotions , its not that she never showed any kind of emotions , she just boxed the emotions that would signal someone that he is hurt so badly , she use to share that she is sad but never that she is so broken that she almost gave up on life . Elina past relationships and family issues broke her heart , so she said to herself that she has 2 options , either let this world bring her down on knees and absorb her completely and shrink her , either she stands tall and face everything with courage , with strong mind and with strong character , give and receive equally , no second chances to cheaters , either in love or friendships , never take revenge , ur absence is the revenge. It's not like she stopped being good to everyone, she was the most loving caring person , but she was worst person when triggered , she was a helper , kind warm welcoming soul , everyone loved her , except for the one's who did her wrong because she made them vanish from her life . She was never the one to bare bullshit , Elina became a queen for herself , she treated herself like a queen , she knew her worth and not only her , everyone who has been with her or is saw it , and they all envy her for that and Elina knew that because by now she could read peoples eyes what they are thinking , are their intentions pure with her or not . No she didn't gave up on love , she still had faith she will find the ONE for her , she waited , she experienced many lovers , she went through hell finding one , but she never gave up . She was just like every other girl a Hopeless romantic , who was ready to give her all in a relationship. to be continued....