*****Nevada POV********
''Aren't you hungry any more?'' ..........
I just stared at my plate, with no words to reply.
Have you ever felt, like answering a question, that was directed to you, but you just couldn't reply, even though the answer is on the tip of your tongue. It's like a force is holding you back, as if you said a word, all hell will break loose. That's how I felt at this moment. My appetite had nothing to do with, whether I liked the food or not. I just felt worried, and drained.
I'm also confuse, because I don't see why an easygoing person like Orion would need security measures like this installed in his house. More like a flat, than a house. I've always separated myself from my family, and sought to live alone and do the things, that makes me happy.
'' Is this a silence treatment? Or are you still mad at me? '' He questioned in his calm voice. The warmth in his tone, made me stare at him from underneath my lashes. His blond hair, that you would normally consider dark in daylight, was lucent. His pale skin was radiating under the dim light of the kitchen, my eyes met his questioning gaze, they were so intense, but then they have always been like that, perhaps because of it's colour. I wanted to be honest and tell him how scary the whole situation was getting, but that wouldn't be me. I might be weak, but I won't let it show.
'' Yes, I'm still annoyed at you. Did you expect me to forgive you for treating me like some dirt, just because you served me a damn instant noodles, and took care of the injury, that you... Inflicted '' I raised an eyebrow. I knew he felt bad about it already, but I couldn't not blame him. His downcased face gave me some tiny pleasures, I kind of needed. The last time I was like this, it's almost ruined our friendship, and I promised myself not to let to be insensitive. But we seems to be fine now, so why not?
Okay!!!! I'll just be considerate this time. '' Oughh'' I groaned.
'' Are you still in pain'' His eyebrows knitted together, apparently worried.
As much as I would like to lie, I rather not carry on.
'' If you're worried about my ankle, don't be, because I feel absolute numb and no pain. I just have a little headache that's all.''
'' Headache?.'' He stood from the his side of the table, and walked round to my side, he glanced my untouched food on the table, before squating down to inspect my foot.
'' I said I'm fine'' I snapped.
'' But you just claimed, that you can't feel your foot, which should only happen, when there is no good blood flow, your foot will die'' He argued, as he lifted my foot up.
I really could not believe his exassgreted diagnosis ''That's because it's in cold water'' I explained. But that didn't stop him, from doing whatever he wanted. I couldn't feel his hold, as he held it. My foot was dripping of water, so he took out his handkerchief and wiped them off gently. Sadly, I couldn't feel it.
''Are you still eating? '' I eyed my cold food and shook my head.
He lifted me up and made his way back. I see no use of protesting. The steps, that led to the room, were just a staircase, as if the sole reason for it at all was to separate uper room from others.
This night has been hetic for me, totally in huge contrast to how I have lived these past months. It's like the blame and guilt, that I've come to accept and ignore, have resurfaced again. I just feel it deep down, that something, was up, or Orion wouldn't have brought me here.
I had known him for 6 years. Well not quite, His logic was that we have met for 6 years, but known each other for 4 years. Is there any difference? Because I don't see any.
He finally, placed me on the bed, and went to the night stand of the bigger bed to get something I have no idea of. All I have in mind right now, is to sleep, in hope, that all my problems will disappear. But not yet, I need to wash off, every dirt particles, that must have crawled to my body, it still bugs me, that I laid on those disgusting creature's territory., I could feel my body slowly itching.
In a moment he came back, with a cloth and something else. He sat on the bed and placed my foot on his laps, he opened the content, and applied it on my foot, I scroged my nose as the strong minty scent. His masaged started off gently,..... then rough kneading. I flinched, as I was taken by surprised.
'' Want Were YouThinking?'' I withdrew my leg.'' As I stared at hin in disbelieve. I furrowed my eyebrow, as I felt pain.
'' I just wanted to make sure, that you can feel something ''He said innocently.
'' By breaking my foot? '' I bluttered.
'' I'm fine now.'' I assured him. '' besides I'm the expert here'' I claimed with my head held up high, which made him to chuckle. '' And, since when was that?'' Was that a challenge, or what? But either ways, I will let it slide for now. All I want to do at this moment, is to sleep.
'' I assumed, you would want to free yourself out of these outfit.'' He handed me a shirt. '' You can put this on for sleep.'' I took the shirt, It was of bigger size. '' Is this yours?'' I enquired.
He nodded slowly '' Is there a problem?'' I shook my head.'' It's just not the size you would normally go for.''
He waited long before answering. '' That's might be, that you are only familiar with my social life and not my private life.''
My lips tighend at his conclusion, I could only shake my head in agreement. After all he was right, I had only been socially, I made sure to always create opportunities, and sometimes he reaches out also, Just like today.
'' Don't you like it? I made sure to pick your favourite colour'' He was confused about my change of mood.
'' No, I don't see any reason to like it.'' I replied bluntly. ''I would like to just shower now.''
He scrashed the back of his head head. ''Now? I you sure, you can manage?'' I nodded. Does he think of me, as a child. ''Seriously?....!!!! '' I rolled my eyeballs. I'm exhausted of complaining, so I just let him carry me to the bathroom.
It was big, much bigger than necessary. If this place is only useful for his hiding, I just fell like it's a waste of space. He stopped at the shower. '' Are you sure you can shower alone.'' he gazed down at me. It made me feel conscious of how I shamelessly wrapped my hands around him.
''What? Are you planing on bathing me?'' I raised an eyebrow.
He pursed his lips. '' No, I just think it would be more comfortable to use the bathtub, than hanging on One foot under the shower.'' He explained.
I studied the bathub in question and noded, he was about to dump me in there just like that, with my clothes still on.
'' Ahhhhhh!!!! What Are You Doing? Put me down, I can take it from here'' I gave him a pleading look. I know he felt guilty, but his pampering is really getting too much, I will definitely die of shame if this continues. I could never have imagined being carried arround, like a baby by my nemesis. He stared at me for a while, before putting me down. I watched, as he ran the bath for me, he asked if the temperature was okay, and that I'm free to use whatever I like.
I nooded, puting on a wide smile, while I shooed him away. Now alone, I removed my clothes, and wasted no time to get in the tub. Finally, I could relax and take in my surroundings. I chose one of the ginger body wash, and lattered the water, just a soak would do.
Half of bathroom is white, while the other half is bunt, I'm actually at the bunt side. Orion have always been a lover of bright colours, It's strange for him not to add his flare, in his own dwelling place. But one can not be so sure of anything. Maybe, he doesn't sleep here often. I wouldn't either 66 steps hin and zurük, isn't fun at all, it's nothing but a death wish, to pass through that everyday.
I drained the soapy water and filled the tub up again, I felt some discomfort first, untill it warmed, does that make me a whimp?
I poured an essential oil, that I could lay my hands on, and leaned back, as the ginger scent filled the atmosphere. It's as if he was still in here, like his existence in here could not be wiped out completly.
My thoughts were everywhere and nowhere, I had no energy to select or ignore. I did not want to get out of my current position, like it's lulling me to sleep.
I twitched my lips, as I remembered, that the shirt was still on the bed, but was not that worried. There were medium shranks and shelves, that was installed at the end of the wall.
I believe, that I would find all that I needed, including a towel. Self assured, I closed my eyes, as I couldn't stay awake any longer.
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'' No, nothing like that. She is taking it well, than we expected '' I assured him.
''I don't know how long it would take.'' I sucked in a deep puff from my cigarette and exhaled the vapour from my nostrils. '' But I'm glad, that she is here, where we can keep an eye on her.''
''I also don't understand, why I couldn't get any valid lead.'' I gripped my hair in frustration.
'' No, nothing like that. She is taking it well than we expected'' I assured him.
'' But you know, how smart she is, we can't deceive her for long.'' I flicked the ashes on the ashtray, as I stood up, and paced arround our terrace.
'' I wasn't able to bring it up, let alone to persuade her. But I think It's better that way.'' I clenched the phone tightly to my ear, at his objection. '' I think It's better this way, at least you would be able to keep an eye on her.'' there was silence at the other end.
'' Do you think this is any way connected to the upcoming event next week?'' I couldn't help asking.
'' Even if I did try to stop her, she would never change her mind, you know that too. '' I looked up, to the blankets of the the stars. ''
'' I don't see, why you find this so hard?, If you have no feelings for her, then there is nothing for you to worry about.'' I pinched my eyebrow,
'' I have to go inside now, she would probably be scared, if she didn't see me.'' I removed my hand, that was in my pocket, and held the handrail.
I hesitated before hanging up. '' I'm not questioning your capability, but it wouldn't hurt to take extra security messures. And don't sleep late'' I hung up.
I don't know how it will turn out in the end, but I won't run this time, I will always be there for her, even if she would never love me back. It's not my first unrequited love, so I will be fine.
I went inside and slide the glass shut. She was not yet out of the bathroom, the shirt I gave her, was still on the bed. I was about to knock, and hand it to her, but recalled, how I was shooed away. She probably needs some time alone, so I left it on the bed, and took my pyjamas and head to the guest room for my night routine, since she was still in there. I made sure to stock in all the necessity, in here, not that I will ever receive any guest here.
..............
With my hair still wet, I entered the room already dressed in my plain pyjamas, but she was nowhere to be found. Everything was still the same, and I couldn't hear the sound of water or movement.
I calmed myself from my speculations, as I took the shirt, and knocked gently at the door, but there was no answer. I knocked again, and again, louder this time.
My heart leaped, in fear. I doubt, that her tiny brain, would convince her to escape, It's not like she is my prisoner.
I opened the door immediatly, hoping, that my worst fear not to come through.
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