ARIEL
Ugh! My head hurts,
'Finally you woke up' selene says
What happened can't remember anything
'Oh! we found our mate' lucile reminds me and from her tone they ain't happy
Right we found our dear mate who happens to be jace and he was busy fucking someone else.
Amazing!
Really!
Of all the scenarios i imagined when i will meet my mate that was probably not one of them,it's the most disgusting sight i have ever seen in my life.
Ew, and to think i have been keeping myself for him? how pathetic,now i wish i never met him in the first place,jace is a playboy i knew that but it didn't bother me cause he was not my business but now that we are mated,is that the kind of life i will be living,walking on my mate having sex,loosing control,being injected with whatever i don't know and being knocked out for hours,to add on that it hurts like a bitch.
Oh moon goddess what did i do wrong to deserve that?i have never hurt anyone so why am i hurting,i should have never walked in that room,speaking of the room, his scent is present,don't tell me he's here,i can't erase that disgusting scene from my head,i don't want him touching me with those dirty hands,goodness i won't let him hurt me like that again.
Never
'Listen guys,you've seen your mate and i need you to cooperate with me please,no more losing control or pushing me to him,you have to respect my decisions if you don't wanna hurt again you have to follow my lead okay?' i address my other halves
'We got you ariel,we feel the same way' lucile confirms
Good.
Atleast we are on the same page.
What am i gon' do now?
I need to get out of this bed and i know i will eventually face him so lets just get this over with,so i open my eyes and try to adjust them to the bright light in the room.
I feel exhausted,mentally and physically, the injection they gave me was to weaken lucile and selene and they haven't recovered yet,just because of some mate,i won't let him affect me this much,if he want me he has to work for it and i will make sure of that.
So looking around am met with a pair of grey puffy eyes,has he been crying?oh boy why would you be crying and it was your choice,i just stare at him blankly,actually i just realised i know nothing about jace,he's attractive and all but am not letting looks deceive me,and he finally speaks.
"Baby" he reaches for my hand but i take it away and i see hurt flash in his eyes,Oh so he thought i will just come running in his arms or what?
"What are you doing here jace " he's taken back with my question,of course i remember you are my mate unfortunately.
"Can we please talk" his voice is tender you will think he's innocent.
Such a good boy, i scoff internally
God i wish i was mated to someone else
I don't care about looks,character is more important to me.
And so far his character sucks.
"Yeah,start talking i need to take a bath" i say sitting up
"Okay,first am sorry,baby, i didn't mean to hurt you,i can never do that intentionally, you have to beleive me,if i knew i would meet you today i wouldn't have done that,sorry."
You gotta be kidding me,
"So you were never expecting a mate?" that's a fake excuse
You don't see me jumping from one guy to another just because i don't have a met yet.
"Ofcourse i was but since yesterday i didn't feel anything, i thought maybe she was not at school"
"So because your mate wasn't at school you had the right to sleep around ?" I scoff
"Am not doing that again okay?" he says experated
"To think i have been keeping myself for my mate who doesn't give two shits about me, do you know how i felt jace? Its hurts so damn much,and it was disgusting watching my mate fuck someone else,what if you walked on me fucking someone else, tell me how you'll feel?" he clenches his jaw.
Oh, the big boy is angry? Of course, he got balls.
" I said am sorry okay? what do you want me to do?" He yells at me.
This is bullshit
"Well,i want you to get the fuck out of my room" i say lowly as the tears i have been holding finally breaks free.
He's not even sorry,he can go fuck himself and whoever he wants, but he better pray i don't walk on him again cause then i will let my beasts loose and will not hold myself this time round ,he wanna learn the hard way? am so game.
'We are too ariel' selene says,glad they're with me and not with the stupid mate.
"Baby,am sorry i didn't mean to yell at you,am frustrated okay?am frustrated with myself for hurting you, for fucking up" he kneels infront of me crying "forgive me please, for hurting you,for not waiting for you,for my stupid hormones for everything "
Hormones huh? I have them too you know
It's really heartbreaking to see him this way but he has to learn the hard way,he's not getting away easily with what he did.
"Sorry alone is not enough jace" i whisper looking in his puffy eyes.
"Please tell me what i need to do baby,i will do anything cause i really need you babe" he says grabbing my cheeks,the tingling feeling from the touch is calming but am still angry.
"If you really want me,work for it jace,you have to earn my trust,i need to know you are ready to commit,i need to be assured that i will have your respect,that my mate will not be going around fucking random chicks,i want to be able to count on my mate and i want my mate to treat me right like the way it's supposed to be,do you think you can do that jace?"i ask him calmy
He nods quickly "i will do it baby,anything to win you over, you have no idea how much i have been waiting for you,i have been searching for you and now that i found you i will do anything baby am not loosing you"
What a wonderful way of waiting.
I wipe away his tears, they make me weak but i need to be strong so it won't happen again,i need him to realise his mistakes and change for better before we start anything.
"Am right here jace am not going anywhere, when you are ready for commitment you know where to find me,i hope you know what committing means cause i don't want you to hurt me again"
" I understand baby" he mumbles and we just stare at each others eyes silently, he's still kneeling and his puffy grey eyes are now red,his nose is red,he looks pitiful,maybe he's really sorry but i want him to prove himself to me first.
"Mmh.. can i hug you?" he asks unsure
"Am still mad at you jace and i want you to prove yourself before we start anything , i really hope you understand, things would have been easier if we met in different circumstances but now i dont trust you,i need to feel safe with my mate not insecure"i say and he nods
"Am sorry okay" he says again
"Just prove you are" he silently nods
He doesn't make a move and i don't know what else to say,he's staring intensely at me,taking in every detail of my face, i have never been this close to him,his face is soft and spotless,his hair is tied up and it looks so soft,he's flawless and i want him to be only mine and as much as it hurts keeping my distance,it has to be done.
"Mmh" i clear my throat "can i go take shower my body feels sticky" i ask motioning to the bathroom.
"Yeah sure" he says getting to his feet
"Okay" i mumble heading to the bathroom,i need a long warm bath hopefully when am done he won't be in my room, its better that way no matter how sad.