Ren Jidian pushed himself forward, not saying a word and maintaining a neutral expression.
"Scholar Ren..... That's..... I didn't mean it like that...."
Ren Jidian continued just grinding up against him, waiting for him to be wet and naturally loosen up as all Omegas do.
"I don't mind it at all, Empress. I'm just telling you not to lie to me or to yourself so this would be easier."
He gripped the wrists tighter and thrusted harder, as if emulating how a real Yang man would do it.
"If you want me to pretend, I will pretend. I don't even care if you do not call out my name, much less if you call out someone else's."
He buried his head in the crevice of Wei Wangyi's soft and smooth neck. "Just please don't think of ever lying to me. Don't think of my sake. Enjoy this moment as you will."
Empress Wei was brought to tears by this. "You think that I am lying to you?"
Ren Jidian bitterly smiled. "I'd rather think that way than have false hope."
"False hope that someone like you..... Someone as beautiful and as precious as you....."
He finally placed it inside the hole that swallowed him in immediately and greedily.
"Ah..... Mm....." The Empress moaned, clasping on to the hands that pinned him.
Ren Jidian continued with a bitter tone. "Would ever like to spend a night with someone as unworthy as me. Someone who will never satisfy you."
He shut his mouth immediately, and pushed in deeper, until his whole thing went inside. Which didn't really took that long as it was so small.
Pitifully small. He bet the Empress could barely even feel it, and so he made up for it through intensity and speed.
He pounded fast and reckless, not caring to use any technique, as it would be all for nothing even if he tried anyway.
"Sc.... Scholar Ren..... You said you would not assume yet here you are..." Empress Wei's breathing was heavy both from the pounding and his crying. "Sob..... Why must you not believe in yourself so much? On your own worth?"
"And most painful of all, you don't believe on how much you are worth to me...."
Ren Jidian did not answer, as he feared that it would all spill out the moment he opened his mouth. He just kept on going, feeling the Empress' warm insides like a comforting embrace.
"Mnnnn... Scholar Ren... Don't go on like this..... I won't be able to bear it if you go on like this...."
Ren Jidian just quietly traced his jaw with kisses, licking on them and going lower, his lower body still relentless.
Whether the Empress was laughing or crying, sober or in heat... He was still so beautiful that it hurts. Something that may not be grasped, and yet here he was, defiling him. He felt like the dirtiest man alive.
He opened his mouth over the space between his neck and shoulders, that raised arc, and...
Bit down.
"Hah.... Ah.... Scholar Ren..... Mmmm..."
He bit down until his teeth had fully sunk into the flesh, until his mouth drooled from the taste, until he felt like he had become despicable enough for the Empress..
As despicable as those wild Yangs. Not something pitiful, not something to sympathize with.
The Empress continued to shout sweet honey, followed by his breath that smelled like flowers in spring waking up from its winter slumber. But Ren Jidian continued attacking that spot, and he felt Wei Wangyi tugging at his hair.
He took this as a cue to stop, but licked the wound he caused. Yes, it had become a wound, he was sure of it. He tasted blood.
"Ren Guang...." The Empress called out.
"This mark would have been permanent if I was a Yang, Your Majesty. I would have rightfully claimed you, gained an unbreakable bond between our bodies. You would be mine."
He continued to plow harder, the more bitter and sour his words were, just like a citrus fruit that went on to become overripe and eventually spoiled.
"But that is not the case! All of this is insufficient. It would be nothing more than an ant's bite to you, and will disappear over the passage of time."
Empress Wei clasped his face once more, eyes just flowing with tears that felt like rain.
And he realized the reason why it felt like rain was because some of these tears were not his own.
"Ren Guang.... I am so sorry... I know that apologizing would just hurt you more, but I still want to tell you that I feel your pain. I am hurt when you are hurt."
Ren Jidian would not answer, shaking his hands away. They just kept going and going into the night, until eventually, the Empress reached his limit and climaxed, clutching at those clothes.
Ren Jidian felt him in inhale the sweet scent of an Alpha/Yang when he climaxed, and he could only furrow his eyebrows as he smiled with so much contempt.
He let go of the Empress, his dick still hard but not close to ejaculating yet. Even if he ejaculates, these seeds were infertile. All of it has no point.
"Hah... Hah.... Thank you, Your Majesty." He did not say what he was thanking for, but one could already guess.
(Thank you for giving me this opportunity, for trusting me, for this honor that I do not deserve.)
He clambered up, and helped the Empress back to his feet, still feeling that sticky liquid on these clothes that were not his. How fitting, because that just shows this night was not spent by the Empress with him at all.
It was spent with an imaginary Yang. Someone that Ren Jidian tried to copy, in order to satisfy the Empress.
"Good night." He said, just leaving the Empress alone, wiping the tears harshly with his arm.
But as he went towards the door, the Empress flung himself towards him and hugged him from behind.
"I can't let you go on like this, Scholar Ren. You are wrong about me, and you are very wrong about yourself. What you do to me is not something that easily disappears. Every single thing about you stays with me and marks me in itself."
Ren Jidian just gritted his teeth, responding at a fake jolly tone. "Good night, Empress."
The Empress just hugged him tighter and shook his head. "Can't you see? You are the one lying to me and lying to yourself. Why can't you accept this?"
The Empress turned him around and interlaced their fingers together. "Are you scared?"
"I am not scared of anything, not even death when it comes to you, Empress." Ren Jidian answered with a determined look.
"Yes. You're not scared of anything for my sake, because there's only one thing you fear." Empress Wei said, reaching out to his collar to push the oversized sleeves away.
The scholar stopped him, holding his hand, but he persisted. He got rid of the Yang clothes, and what was left was Ren Jidian's small and bone-thin body.
Ren Jidian knows he cannot be seen in the dark, yet he crossed his arms anyway, trying to cover his unattractive body. Empress Wei tried to pull those arms away, and touched Ren Jidian just as he touched him earlier.
Ren Jidian pushed him away, trying to back out of the door, but Empress Wei would not let him go. He breathed heavily, and tried to diffuse the situation by grabbing his hands once again, and both men struggled, until they were both breathless and heaving.
"You are scared of me, Ren Guang." The Empress said breathlessly. "Why are you so scared of me?"
This caused the scholar's eyes to widen.
After that.... he made a soft chuckle.
"Because you are too beautiful."
Empress Wei frowned at this, and grasped his chin. "Yangs like Emperor Zau lust over me because I'm too beautiful. You fear me because I am too beautiful. I am starting to believe that beauty in itself is a crime, and nothing more than a curse to both the wearer and those affected."
He could not reply to that either. Ren Jidian just looked at a silhouette of something lying on the floor.
Those vibrant red robes. Bridal robes. It was him who shed them, not this man's husband.
He kissed the hand that was holding his chin, and said, almost pleading. "Just wear your clothes back, Your Majesty. You'll feel cold if you sleep without them."
Empress Wei shook his head, and continued to touch him as if trying to memorize every part of him this way. Ren Jidian's heart felt like it was slowly being driven to the edge of an explosion.
Empress Wei delicate hands finally moved to his small, pitiful thing. That useless organ hanging by his crotch.
"I want you to get rid of your fear of me, Ren Guang. I won't escape with a man that is frightened of me, frightened of taking me." He said with a commanding tone that left Ren Jidian breathless.
He continued to stroke him and kissed him.
He made Ren Jidian face that lump of flesh over his neck where he left his mark, pushing it close to his lips. Ren Jidian doesn't understand what his intention was in doing so.
Empress Wei somehow guessed his thoughts. "You said you want to leave a mark just like a Yang's that was permanent. That yours was nothing more than an ant's bite."
"Keep marking me until the end, then. If it disappears, just repeat it and go even deeper. Turn it into a scar that will never be erased."
This caused the medicine scholar's pupils to dilate. He looked at the direction of the empress' face despite not being able to see anything, and smiled.
And somehow, he felt that he was smiling back.
As Empress Wei continued stroking him faster, and he was getting near, he bit down on the same spot.
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" Empress Wei made a long, dragging shout from both the pain and pleasure of it.
Ren Jidian bit until he tasted more blood, and he just swallowed it. When he reached his climax, he let go, and licked his bloodied teeth.
The two of them just panted for breath, as the Empress was now stained by his seed that will never bear fruit.
Yet somehow, it didn't matter anymore at this moment. They kissed each other once again, and fell asleep in each other's embrace.