The moment I look closely at my brother, all I can see red and blue marks on his skin, it gives me a feeling of disgusting. I felt disgusted of my father that is how can person be so brutal to his own son, just a mistake but punishment like this shit and if he can behave with his own son like this, then he won't be thinking for a second, when it comes to me.
However, I left silently from his room, but not before putting a big fake smile on my face so, that no one would be able know what I am truly feeling. I don't like or wanted my pain, sorrows and tears to be shared because I believe there already so much sadness in this world, wherever I look and if I share little happiness instead of sadness then what is the problem. However, this is not just my belief I perform such type actions too, in doing good or helping others, I sometimes don't even care about me and once people got their helped they would usually bless by keeping their palm on my head or thanks me by just smiling at me, honestly their this gesture make my day blessed.
Soon I reached school and got busy in my practice, I really found physical exercises relaxing plus I can also channelize my negative energy into something positive productive one through this. About in an hour practice got over, as I don't have a first class today. Here, I found Erik's two friend sitting having their coke, at a moment our eyes meet up with each other, they smiled at me and I smiled back at them slightly. However, soon I found my friends Nish, Ketty, Zoe, Anji and Pixie sitting there and here only a seat that is vacant beside Nish so, I go and sit beside her.
Once I got settled beside her, she shifted a bit toward my side and then lay her head on me plus her back is literally on my full left side body, so technically she is sort of half laying on me in sitting position. Though, I got stiff for a second but later I got relaxed because of her warmth and wrapped my left hand on her back, to protect her from falling by chance and then after sometime I look at her face from the corner of my eyes, she is smiling as if she is super comfortable. Honestly, I am quite comfortable with her physical touch. However, soon Ketty break my trance state with her comment on me and Nish,
Ketty: (surprise and smiling) Hell babes, look at you Siya. How long it takes you come to this level, I mean from day one you were never comfortable with physical touch and now look at you. You and Nish both are cuddling.
Siya: (With hearty laugh) Like seriously cuddling, Nish just needed comfort and somewhere me too so here we are sitting close together and nothing else.
Ketty: (smirking) Huhh Whatever.
Soon, except Nish and me all of them get occupied talking about some movies and song. While Nish and me are still in the same position, but Nish initiated the conversation in a low voice so, that only we could talk,
Nish: Hey, how do you know the I need the comfort? And thanks for backing up for me there, I am not really in the mood to argue or give explanation to anyone today.
Siya: (low voice only) Hey, no need to thanks. I would be there for you like always and answer to your first question is that, you looks low on mood plus energy and your face also looks dull and since the day one I know you like to flirt or tease me but today nothing as such happened so, I know there must be something wrong.
Nish: Hmmm I must say quite impressive observation skills (I can practically feel her smiling, without even seeing it).
Siya: Hmmm studying psychology do have some perks.
And with this we laughed out loud, she get from her position and we laughed again, seeing us laughing us like that all of our friends looks at us with their eyebrows raise in way as if we have gone mad. Once our laughter died, we ignored our friends questioning gaze and rather we ask them if they want to eat anything so, together we ordered chilly potato, sandwiches, and juice. After waiting for fifteen minutes our order arrived, we bring to our table and start eating it and when we finished eating food, Ketty checked time on her wrist watch and let us know that its nearly time for our class and this is the common class for us so, we left the canteen and once we entered in the class Nish and me sit together again and our friends sit near us only.
We apparently, may have reached early in the class as teacher has still not come. However, we all got busy in discussing about luxurious cars but suddenly my phone pings which so, I take my phone out from my pocket and see Erik message there saying,
..... (message conversation)
Erik: You are looking good today in red t-shirt and blue denim jeans but how come last bencher like you sitting on the second bench.
Siya: What? Where are you? (I looked around in the class, there in the extreme right corner of the room he is sitting on the last bench and looking at me and smirking. Plus he has this possessive look in his eyes which is saying I should be with him now)
Erik: Hey
Siya: Hey. You in my class?
Before he or I could text some more, teacher comes in and inform us that because other class teacher is absent so its a combine class (this answer my question). After one hour class attended and I got a message from Jazz saying her next is free, I checked my next and found my next lecture is free too and I replied her the same. Soon she also texted me saying that Vicz is also free, I picked up my bag and start leaving the class but stopped by Erik voice,
Erik: Where are you going?
Siya: For my next class.
Erik: Ohh okay see you in the our next combine class and yeah I have a surprise for you?
Siya: Ohh okay bye.
With this I reached at the school gate where Jazz and Vicz are already waiting for me, soon we leave the school premises and walk towards the shake shop. Once we reached their, we give our order and settle in the near by seat, after some time our shakes come and we start drinking. In the middle of our drinking, Jazz initiated the conversation
Jazz: Hey have you guys two ever drink white protein shake?
Siya: Yeah once and I don't like its taste.
Vicz: Never. It has other colors too, other than white?
Jazz: (with mischievous glint in her eyes) Umm the one about which I am talking, is pretty hot and in high rich protein.
Vicz: What type of protein shake you are talking about?
Though a memory pop in my mind where Erik once told me, about this protein shake and here I got it what Jazz is trying to say but I am surely going to pretend like I don't know because I don't want to spoil Jazz plan. (Okay, let me tell you something about our group, which will help you to understand Jazz better) Vicz is damn innocent one, I am one who understands everything but pretends like who doesn't understand anything and Jazz is quite very bold, mature plus notorious one in our group. So, basically she likes to pull Vicz's leg plus tease her a lot and I enjoy a lot in such situations. So, coming to back to the main scene.
Jazz: I am talking about that protein shake which helps in, to get a girl pregnant.
Vicz: (eyes open wide for seconds, than shout and later get embarrassed) What!!?? shit you are so disgusting, How can you say such things boldly. Yuck, I don't want to talk to you.
With this me and Jazz laughed out loud heartedly, for some minutes she looked at us with frustration but later she also, laughed with us loud. After ten minute we stop our laugh, wipe our ears and finished our banana shake and leave for our next classes.
I enter in the class early more likely I am five minutes early, I look at the vacant seat and then only I notice Erik sitting there lost in his phone. I go and sit beside him, then only he looked at me excitedly. Though I looked at him confusing, with raising my eyebrows I asked him
Siya: What?
Erik: (mischievously and smirking) We are going to try something in new in this class, today. This would be truly adventurous.
Siya: (A bit scared and confused too) And what is it?
Erik: No first promise me that you do it with me?
Siya: (Hesitantly) Umm okay
At the end the conversation, he takeout a small packet from his bag. And shove it in my hand, I look inside in the packet and it has yogurt in it. After seeing this I look back at Erik, with a expression showing "really yogurt" and he replied to me saying
Erik: (Smirking) it is not simply just a yogurt, it is mixed with marijuana in it.
Siya: (I am shocked, its an understatement and stammering) W.. What? Are you s.. serious?
Erik: (Grinning and smirking) Yeah I am serious and we are sharing this one cup only, because you are new to it and this your first hand experience.
Honestly, I don't want to do this because drinking alcohol is a different thing and actually trying drug is a complete different thing. I am hell scared because what if something goes wrong, what if my family caught me or especially my father then he would the beat the hell out of me. However, after some minute Erik finally opened the yogurt and forward it to me, I hesitantly took a three spoon of it in my mouth and it taste yuck, then I pass rest of it to Erik and he finished it.
After sometime, possibly waiting for around fifteen minutes I guess something started happening inside my head. I don't know when the teacher comes in and start studying, I am just trying to keep my focus on but second by second its getting hard plus I am feeling like I have no voice left in me or simply I just don't want to speak anymore. However, its feeling like it is going to take forever for class to get over. When class got over, we start walking toward the canteen, here every step that I am taking feeling like I am walking on the air plus every voice that I am hearing around its more like echoing and in these voices I can also hear Ketty and Zoe voices but I am unable to locate them.
Soon we reach canteen, sit at the vacant seat. All I am doing sitting here is that looking at a distant only but thoughts in my mind are running wild that is I am shit scared, repeatedly I am trying to takeout my phone from the jeans pocket so that I could father to let him know that I am not good but I am unable to do so. I am sitting their like a lost puppy and may be sleepy too because my head is feeling extremely heavy.
So, I slept for some time, I may have slept for an hour or two because once I wake up I am feeling a bit better. After ten minutes, I still feeling a bit loss but much better in state, I tried to re-focus my mind and look Erik is sleeping in front of me with his head down on the table plus Ketty and Zoe too are present there and looking at me deeply.
Siya: (Dry throat voice) What happened?
Ketty: You tell me what the fuck happened to you?
I told them everything, they got shocked. Then, Ketty informed me that I am sleeping from three hours plus since we come to to canteen all three of them tried to talk to me of get my attention but neither I spoke to them nor look at them once. And seeing this they got scared and Erik become seriously sad & worried plus he is sleeping from an hour. After sometime, I excused myself and go to pee but once I come back I found Erik is till sleeping so, I go close to him and wake him up and as soon as he wake up, he hugged me tight though I got stiff and doesn't hug him back. After sometime he said,
Erik: I hate you leave me.
With this he break off the hug, pushed me lightly away pick up his bag leave the canteen and his this behavior filled all three of us with shock.