The letter contents which Ani wrote for me are as follows:
"Dear Siya
I know you would be feeling anger, as today you have came across to one my biggest lies. Though I know, I have never lied to you since we become friends but past six months turned my life upside down and one of the big reason for this, when I fell for the wrong guy which is Rey. At first he seems to be the perfect guy for me and day by day I fell in love with him, though after we confessed things started to change. His obsession and possession for me increase, he won't allow me to meet with other peoples, he used my body like toy and I know what he was doing to me was wrong but I don't know whom should I share with this. Soon I got pregnant with his baby, I thought may be this good news could bring change into him, but he didn't accepted it and we got separated. You know dealing pregnancy with mental trauma, depression is not easy and it leads to miscarriage.
I thought to share with you but you seems to be too much occupied with Erik at that time, plus your schedule was so busy, I couldn't tell you and telling to family never crosses my mind. So, with the help of Vicz I did everything, in initial days only she seems to be good person and when we spend time together,. She understood everything and helped me, plus I always talked about you to her so, she knows about you this much.
Lastly, I would say that don't worry about me I am leaving the country as I requested my family for this and they are helping me, not knowing the whole truth off course. I am not sure, whether we would be meeting in future not but just keep remember one thing that passion is healthy but not obsession.
Love you, Siya..."
After reading the letter I went numb, Zoe keep a hand on my shoulder and asked me:
Zoe: is everything all right? (I compose myself, turned my self to her front and after seeing my face she knows something is definitely wrong)
Siya: (with heavy voice) yeah everything is all right. If you will please excuse me, I have some important work to do??
I picked up all my stuff, dumped in my bag and tried too run off from there but voice of Ketty and Nish stopped me by asking why?? what happened?? But too my surprise Zoe said:
Zoe: Let her go, she has to return a book in the library. And its important as today is the last day.
Before taking any step further, I said something to Vicz:
Siya: Thank you for the all proofs, and letting me know about the Ani's past. (She smiled)
I leave the canteen in hurried, moves to the washroom and to my luck it is empty. Inside the washroom, I moved in a small cabin room then I shut and lock the door completely. There comes a storm of emotions in me, I felt sad, regret, guilt, sorry, frustration, happiness but from above all this I felt anger in me. I don't know why but all feelings, somehow it result in anger only.
In my mind some thoughts going on repeat, "how can I be so busy to ignore her? I just wished for once if she has said, whatever she was going through? How can I become so much selfish, that I not for a once think about her?" And my eyes got numb for a minute, later I compose myself took deep breaths and unlock the door and go for my next class. Though, I am not interested but has to do it. When I reach there I can see Zoe and Ketty sitting together and keeping seat spare in between them, they see me and gestured me to come and sit with them and without hesitation I go with them.
Zoe: Relax!! everything will be fine
Ketty: Gives me a assured smile. Put a hand on my shoulder.
Once again I feel a emotional cry to come, though I never cried in front of anyone but due to the comfort, protection and warmth oozing from their bodies make me feel like I am at home and then I cried out. I am continuously sobbing out, telling a bit about what actually happened and both of them trying to comfort me by saying:
Ketty: Shit.. shhh baby everything going to be all okay.
Zoe: shhhhh don't cry so much. Its okay.
As we trio sitting in the back seats so, no one saw us that to especially our teachers. After approximately 15 minutes I got settled but I am not smiling anymore. My next class is with Vicz, we see each other and smile. Though my smile is fake, but still for courtesy I smiled. I go and sit at the last row seat, teacher studying but I am least interested and my whole focus on what happened with Ani and what I did with her. In between, I can feel a gaze on me from my left side and when I head up at that side, I see Vicz is looking at me with a concerned look. I drifted my eyes to other direction and started looking down again.
As soon as class get overs, I leaved the class and moved to canteen as soon as I enter there, I see Erik there. And I thought, what happened in the morning wasn't that enough, now he is also here. Though I choose to ignore him and took a window side with my favorite hot chocolate, enjoying the outside view I am sipping it and this making me feel relaxed. Suddenly I heard his voice and and it broke my trance.
Erik: hey
Siya: umm hey
Erik: are you okay?? Your voice sounds low.
Siya: (not again his caring attitude) Yeah I am fine. Thank You but I need to go (sipped my hot chocolate in one go and I leave from the canteen.
I attended my last two classes, where I can feel Erik gazing at me continuously and with the corner from my eyes I can see him doing so. Though I remain seated there with a sulked face, as soon as final bell ringed I tried to move as fast as possible but Erik seemed to be more faster then me and he closed the door. Now we both are alone in the whole class, and he initiated the conversation:
Erik: (he pinned me to wall first and caged me between his arms) Look at me Siya now.
I remain mute because of two reasons. Frist is he is too much close to me and my heartbeats increasing like a beast, I am feeling suffocated and secondly who the hell is he to question me I won't going to look at me.
Erik: (frustrated) I said look at me.
Siya: (crying) Leave me
Erik: (with is his finger under my chin, he forced me to look at him) for fuck sake look at me.
Siya: (crying and angrily I pushed him) leave me!!!!
When I pushed him away with anger he take few step back and leave me and I quickly unlock the door and run outside of the school took a cab. When I reached home, finally I relaxed. Though I never imagined, from the next day I would be trapped in a cage created by Erik.