When the routine becomes a task, and the task turns into a tedious work, not even yelling and screaming out of rage will help….
The neighbour next door will complain
Too loud
What's going on?
Early riser to go to English classes, work after lunch….
Hoping the night comes and I'm still alive, not being blown out by a car or suspicious bomb left somewhere or public place, not being robbed or kidnapped, or raped.
Problems with the city water supply….
From early age we are trained to store eater
(Just in case, enough to last or before the service gets cut off)
My papers, waiting to be approved so I could leave the country are taking too long….
What am I doing here?
Went to the Embassy to inquire about my request for a visa to leave the country…
It's being processed', they said…..
….
4 months later, an envelope came with the paperwork approved and visa granted.
Ironically, after I lost all this time living a routine and surviving an unsecured life, the letter came.
More ironic, offers for a new job came too.
On my career, rumours spread I was looking for a job since I've lost my current one, friends passed along the word and contacted me.
Hard decision to make, but still had to collect enough money to afford the plane ticket.
I finished my English classes, I could pretty much follow a conversation in English…..
Kinda….
Funny though, had to do the mandatory military service…..
I guess I got excused because of my working situation...
Kinda…..
The following jobs were just for a short period of time, but gave me the necessary time to finalize the paperwork to travel overseas, I've seen so much on tv, had to think where to.
I'm young
Can go anywhere and adapt.
My brother, lucky won an admission to study overseas, due to his amazing scores.
But did not want to go the USA…
He was graduating too and moving to another country he wanted to live and start a new life.
We are all at an age we had to plan for our future; obviously overseas….
But I'm still here.
Needed advise.
Pronto!
Anyways, still to do was the photos required by the application, letters of recommendation from employers, my graduation papers as proof, and most important, have acknowledge of English.
The situation here was not improving.
You could still make a living here, but as u received ur paycheque, if you did, it vanished just with food for the month.
Utilities, cable, transportation, although you could get away with a months bill, the next month easily doubled or increased without notice.
Another way of abusing citizens, pricing rise without notice.
No control at all.
Utilities not available for many and still had to pay for the services…..
What am I doing here?!
Became a torture
An everyday question without an answer….
Many told me just to pack up and leave
You can look back,
But
Don't stare….