chapter 1 intro

In life I've seen people lose faith in themselves because of some minor set backs , and i was one of those people who think that they are not good at anything and forget all about their hopes and dreams , they lose faith , i also was also lost but i found myself and that inspired me to write this book in hopes that everyone who reads it find their self .

As i reached a certain age where one finally knows the use of money but realizes one has to work for it and my parents couldn't give me wat i wanted , i learnt that the world will reward anyone with talent , that is when my journey started , when i was in school i was almost the fastest in my school i outran everyone in my age group but the biger boys always laped me and at that time i thought that i was an athletic because i could run and the sooner i grow up i will be able to outrun the big boys , and 1day our school was to compete with other schools in my age i was their best short at winning but there was only 1 problem i had no birth certificate and it was impossible for me to compete so they put someone in my place and our school lost , their winning points where to be aqquired by the last race in which i was supposed to participate and that demotivated me and i never pictured my self as an ahtletic again , so during the athletic seasons i never competed or even bothered to picture my self in the track , so i joined soccer and just like they say first one is always easy and i had an advantage on other players because i was fast at least that was wat i told my self the 1st day i out ran four diffenders and scored a goal , the second day the same then one day i tried wat i always did but id didnt work and at that time i was thirteen years old and you know how mean kids can be at that age they started laughing at me and some if said you cant play football you should just quit , then just like that i lost interest in sports , then my friend introduced me to dancing i tried it and i was getting better but someone was always better than me in everything i tried , then i reached to a point where i told my self that im not good at anything so i started doing anything and had forgotten wat i was doing all this for , and i had forgotten my goal and why i wanted to be good at something so i just did all that i knew for fun , like runnin for example me and my friends would race and we all knew the result of the race but we did it for fun and of cuase i outran them , and football was the same i would score a few goals and celebrate but never bothered to go further because i had already put the idea that im not good at anything in my head and that idea was there to stay, i even taught 1 of my friends how to dance i taught him everthing that i knew and he became a better dancer than me but i made sure he never new thatbecause i was too embarassed by the idea of a student out classing his master , and i was always faster than all my friends when it came to running so in their minds even now they think that no ene in my age can outrun me , but only i know the truth that i can't outrun all in my age group , my friends believed that i can and i was supposed to use their faith in me and do my best , but at the time i was too young to know anything about faith and the burning desire to do something so all i ever knew was just for fun ,

At the age of sixteen i started doing computer science at school and at the same time i also did woodwork , as you know when someone starts something its always easy so when things were easy i would picture my self as the best in what i did and i started to think that life wil be better once im good in computer repairs and carpentry , but when things got hard i quit , and i saw this in a lot of people who still have a chance to make a difference in life but they dont have motivation just like me wehn things got harder i quit without a second thought like what if tomorrow will be better , i finished my O level at the age of 18 and i didnt do well , but n my head i always told my self that education is the key to so i tried again and again but until i got to the point where , i had to go and do extra lesssons because the teachers at my school weren't enough .so i started doing extra lessons to improve my school performance beacuse i had hope that i will do better and i had given my all and the teacher who taught me was very helpful because i was getting better , but then something else happened the was a pandemic and everyone was forced to stay in doors schools where closed for the safety of the people so i wasn't able to learn but the lucky ones where able to learn using the e learning programm , i couldnt afford it and the lockdown took about three months and i learnt nothing in that time so i started losing interest in learning bit by bit until i found something else to do ,