I HAD ABORTION 7MONTHS OLD AND NOW THE SPIRIT OF THE CHILD WON'T REST

I was 18 years old.... So innocent and scared my step dad raped me, saying if I would tell mom bout it he would beat me black and blue.... One day at school my teacher noticed some changes in me, "she asked" hey little girl you look sick your face is so down what's wrong with you, I dd not answer I started crying then she said ' please don't cry I'm here for you talk to me after classes' I just agreed, I went home from school met my dad home alone again..... Started to touch my waist all over my body he did it again..... After 5months I noticed that I missed my period for a long time I did not know that I was at the moment but then my teacher again noticed me and saw the signs that I was indeed pregnant.... My teacher took me to my dad and told him that I'm pregnant dad did not look like he was shocked he just said ' I will let her mom know when she returns back from work".......... Next day my dad took me to a certain hospital he kept on saying I should abortif not he will kill me to death " I accepted I never wanted to be killed by the look of his face looked just like a beast.......... We went in the hospital we saw a female doctor she greeted us and some few moments she took me into a certain room told me to open my legs and keep my eyes closed... What happened next I don't know I just found myself home in my bed bleeding alot feeling the pain...................... Sometimes it takes me even 3 weeks without seeing my mom because she's a busy woman sometimes she spends week out without coming home... 2months later ...... I started dreaming , me, breastfeeding a baby sometimes I can just see milk coming out of my breasts after the dream......... When I'm alone h I e I hear a baby crying in my room each day I might hear the cry nor the dream over and over, so I told dad what I'm hearing and dreaming. And dad just thought I was lying it kept on happening even when I'm in shower I hear a baby cry till then my dad thought I was going insane... He invited witch doctor to our house to see if I'm oky or not....... The witch doctor did what he has to do with his magics, he then said that ****': YOUR CHILD HAD AN A BORTION FEW MONTHS BACK AND THE SPIRIT OF THE CHILD IS NOT RESTING ONLY IF SHE CLEANSE HERSELF AT THE RIVER ONLY THEN THE SPIRIT WILL REST AT PEACE : I was shocked hearing that we even went to the river I got cleansed and apologized to the spirit that it wasn't my intention to abort, we through a live chicken in the river and called my name thrice and I spit on the ground then the witch doctor told me not to look back.... Till then the spirit doesn't bother me anymore and my dad he's scared to sleep with me anymore we live peaceful untill now I'm graduated in food security and nutrition I have a fiance all my advice to girls abortion is evil very evil we have different spirits among us......