I was awake for some time already but, I was afraid to open up my eyes. I was afraid to face my reality. I don't want my worst nightmare to repeat.
But, a human's resolve can only stand so strong for awhile and eventually you'd let anything that was supposed to happen, happen.
Just as I was about to open my eyes, I heard some movement across his office and then there were his domineering heavy steps before his scent got into my lungs making me find it hard to breathe yet desperate for it near me. I was his in every sense of the world.
Damon's.
He didn't left me at the hall, I was in his office. He didn't abandon me!. He still cared.
I thought he was coming to freshen up after his impromptu meeting that was going on in his office earlier on when I woke up but, No. He was busy shuffling and rustling things around the room before the bed dip to my left, hands circling my body under the duvet and then his soft full lips went on my forehead gently, melting me in his embrace.
If he didn't know I awake before he was sure about it at that time. And just like magic, I wasn't worried about anything anymore.
"The doctor said it's nothing serious just stress and an empty stomach... But, I'm worried, Love" Said Damon into the dead silence of the room except for our breathings.
"Is it that hard to make us go public in your country? Can we go back to mine,then? Honestly, I don't care where... Do you even love me, Sybil? Or am I just something to distract you from reality? I'm sorry for my rumblings but, I'm so insecure and you..." Damon was saying each word like it was a prayer. Every word from him had its own tears and grievances.
"Damon..." I had to put a stop to it with my pleading tone and squeezing his hands on my body.
His words were simple but emotional. I could feel how heavy his heart is, How used he feels, How hurt my denial earlier did to him. Because of my own selfishness I seem to hurt someone who is just like the past me.
Damon was a shockingly sensitive man.
"Just... Please, tell me how it's going to be" He pleaded and I refused to look back at him.
"What do you mean?" I asked in a small trembling voice.
"Are we hiding our relationship? For everyone to know we're single yet we are together behind closed doors or...?" He started to clarify patiently but, all I was thinking is that, that will give chances to bitches like Tasha to approach him before me like what happened earlier.
"Did you just dared to say that?" I asked him threateningly. Of course I was jealous!.
"Then, please... Tell me where I stand amidst all this!" Shouted Damon after leaving me alone on the bed abruptly before I followed suit into his sitting position.
"I'm human too, Sybil and I get tired too... It hurts like any other person out there when they experience their lover's rejection..." He said in an emotional tone like he was just seconds away from tears.
"Stop! Please... just, stop talking..." I stopped him forcibly before taking him to cry on my shoulder. I didn't want to see him cry and all because of me.
"And how are you going to understand my heart? I felt like a clown earlier when you acted like a slut... Like you came to seduce me in front of my secretaries. You're my wife!" He bellowed biting on my shoulder making me gasp in pain.
"I'm your wife, hubby. I was wrong... I... I... panicked and thought that I'd only tarnish your reputation if you were to be seen with me...I inturn made us a secret, I'm sorry..." I apologized with tears falling down my face.
I didn't if it was because of the bite he just gave me or the emotions he was projecting to me, all I could understand is the overwhelming pain suffocating me.
I didn't need a mirror just to see how much of a ghost I was at that time. I don't have a cute crying face. When. I cry? birds flee.
"Shhhh, Love. It's my fault... blame it on me. I hate tears on your face, Love" He gently whispered, rubbing my back soothingly while in his embrace.
"So, about Tasha..." I started with a nasal voice after everything calmed down a little.
"Fired and gone" He replied so casually that it made me groan. I may not liked the girl but, she got a family out there, people depending on her for money and everything.
"Relax, it's not because of you. She violated her contract with the company and me plus, she wasn't apologetic about anything she did un-professionally, so don't start blaming yourself, Love" He cajoled me.
"Thank you so much Damon. For coming to me though, I swore to never need another goon in my life after Trevor yet you showed that love wasn't hard. Never a one sided story, it's a give and take and I don't know why you doubted me but, I love you so much!" I declared before dominating his lips once more.
"Are we still on for tonight?" He asked huskily after breaking the kiss.
"Fuck! if I'll refuse you again" I told him before pulling his head for another kiss.
"You were such a tease this morning and then at lunch..." He said drawling after turning his head on the other making me groan in frustration.
"Do you have the balls to punish me, lover boy?" I inturn taunted him with a whisper.
"And they are heavy..." He said without hesitation taking my hand to hold his hard package through his pants before he flipped on my back with him on top so I could judge on the weight.
"How are you gonna discipline this naughty being beneath you?" I asked sensually not really sure if he was into bedroom plays but, when I saw his dangerous gaze my cock came to life. He was hooked.
"I want to destroy you inside out, Love... I want to use you like a broken toy, Sybil... I want your mind, body and soul calling out to me like I'm your life essence, my wife" Whispered Damon dangerously breathing into my ear making my spine stand and goosebumps rising.
Damn him!.
Those were my fears but, strangely my panic attack wasn't triggered but only made me hornier.
"De... Destroy me then, Damon" I permitted and the beast growled before tying me to the bed with his office tie that was on the hanger with his suit jacket making my adrenaline rush.
"Anderson Sybil... You're my wife" Said Damon seriously, unnecessarily ripping the shirt from my body but, successfully making me gasp in pleasure.
Never knew I was an animal on the inside that I could be impressed by strength.
"Everything that's yours... that. is. mine!" He growled coming for a bruising kiss once he was successfully between my legs.
"Even your asshole? Because, I kind of own it too" I taunted making him growl warningly before leaning down to me, he touched everything he could with his lips before returning to my face just to bite on my lower lip and suck on it, punishing me.
"Is that a no?" I asked mischievously feeling all breathlessly.
"You want to take your husband from behind?" He asked in a dangerous rumble flipping me to my back before taking down my trouser and briefs all together up to my toes and gone from my body, leaving my ass bare and raised before he sat on my legs.
"See this? You don't want my ass... You are just hungry for my big hard dick breaching you!" He growled as he was rubbing my hole teasingly.
I knew it would be futile but, I still pushed back to his finger.
Moaning helplessly to the pillow under me because, I could only squirm and not fight for my pleasure due to my hands being bounded by his tie on the bed rest with him sitting on my legs. He was driving me crazy.
"Fuck! Damon!" I cursed, still pushing my ass back to him. I needed his attention there. Desperately.
"Tell me what I want to hear" He dared me in his domineering voice.
"And that is?" I asked desperately needing that finger of his to move just an inch in, but, all I got was his chuckle before I felt something wet on my hole and I trembled in anticipation, my hole blinking like a bitch that I was.
"I'm waiting" He drawled the words out in a mocking manner making me frustrated even more.
"I fucking want your dick in me, okay!?" I told him in a shout angrily earning a chuckle before that maddening finger returned to tease my ring muscles again then, trailing down to my balls and dick before repeating the loop.
"What do you want from me?!" I asked with my teeth clenching and hands making a tight fist.
"Showing you that I own you" He said simply with a stupid knowing smile on his face
"It's just lust... Nobody owns me!" I told him strongly which he just dismissed with a slap on my blinking hole before pinching on my erected nipples again and again making me pant in a mess.
"I love challenges" He said casually with a smirk to his voice before leaving me alone on the bed, still on my knees, ass lubed up and self spread in the cold air.
Yes, I could change my position at any moment but, I found that I couldn't, not without his permission first. Pathetic.