Ever felt so tired but inspired at the same time. Yeah. That's how I feel right now. I have been trying my best and I feel this close to giving up. So, I am going to give one last attempt this time around its what some may call a desperate attempt. But what can I do, Time doesn't seem to be on My side anymore. I am turning 40 in a few months and I am yet to find my mate. My friends think I am silly for having this romantic whimsy of waiting for my one true love. My father thought me a disappointment. 

But I can't wait anymore she hasn't shown herself yet and I have to think about my pack now. I need to consolidate the power of my pack by getting a Luna even if she isn't my mate. Although, deep down I hope I find her– my mate this time around, if not...

I have already built the nursery, this goes further to show my pack how serious I am to get a Luna. The restless nature of the pack is visible now and I won't want any upstart pup challenging me. It would be a sad thing to have to waste the life of a pack member.

Signalling Jimmy, He comes forward with the papers and I sign them. 

It is done 

let's hope this is enough... 

One thing is for sure though. I would have married and bedded my Luna before or on my fortieth birthday.