AMYRA's POV :
"please please, Tell me this is not true."Amyra is screaming while tears are flowing down from her eyes. "Hahhhaa Hahhhaaahaa" everyone is laughing at amyra. "N-Noo..No, This can't be true, I can't bear it, please don't do this to me, I beg you shanaya, please tell me this is not true.." Amyra is crying, sobbing uncontrollably.
"Amyra... sweetheart why are you shouting? what happened, sweetie? wake up Amyra" Mummy shooked me to wake me up, then I realized that I was dreaming till now. This is mostly my everyday dream, it haunts me daily in my dreams, I wish I can delete that chapter from my life.
I took a deep breath "Nothing Mummy, it's just a bad dream" I said to her as she is looking at me worriedly, "okay then, it's already late so wake up and get ready, Today Zareena is coming with Sohel son in law" Ammi said with a huge smile on her face, "really! that's great. I will go and get ready as soon as possible and then will join you in the kitchen to help you mummy" I said with a smile.
Birds chirping sounds, sunlight peeking from windows, mummy's unstoppable trials of waking me up, waking up from bad dreams most of my days, screaming due to the nightmares, waking up with a heavy heart, later the whole day acts in front of everyone like nothing happened.
This is my daily Life.
I am AMYRA and I am 23 years old, I have completed my graduation in my home town Lucknow, I am from Lucknow. I completed my master's degree from Delhi University as our whole family shifted to New Delhi. I completed my exams and waiting for my results, which will be released within a week or two. I don't like to do Jobs I want to read academics more. So, that I can gain more and more knowledge. So I am thinking to go for M.Phil in Modern Physics after the results.
But, I don't know whether mummy and daddy will agree to it or not. Because They already took a promise from me. After graduation, They decided me to get married. But, I was not ready, so I requested mummy, daddy, sister and brother-in-law too. Finally, everyone accepted it and then Abbu asked me to promise him that after my masters I have to marry a person whom they will choose as a groom for me without creating any chaos. To my surprise, I promised my Abbu for marriage after my masters, but I don't think that I am ready now and will never be...
I know my daily schedule was not so good, because there is no life. Yes, That's true. there is no liveliness in my life. Not that no one helped me to come out of it, but mummy and Zareena sis supported me a lot. Tried to make me normal, They kept so many efforts and it churned my heart, I know I can't be normal after whatever happened, so I started acting in front of them like I became normal, I know I am cheating them with my acting but I can't see them dull and their efforts going into vain. my family is my strength and also a weakness, I can do anything and can go to any extent for my family.
"My Family"
Mummy (Mother, Ameena Begum), is the cutest mother and also adorable, if she likes someone then she can go to any extent for them. My mother loves the whole family a lot especially me. When I was going through a big trauma a few years ago, she was also the one who stood by me always no matter what.
Daddy (Father, Nazeer Ahmed), my Daddy is working as a Bank Manager in Delhi, he looks like he is a hard person when it comes to emotions but no, he looks like he is very strict and serious but to be the fact he is soft at his heart. From my childhood onwards I have seen my father working soo hard so that he can fulfill our wishes. For every daughter, Her father is her hero, and I am not exceptional in this case. For me, My Father is my Hero.
Sissy (Sister, Zareena), my sister is always fun-loving, cute, and intelligent. She always took care of me like my mother. whenever I feel low, she has been always there for me. When I was in trauma, she gave me so much moral and emotional support being with me for months.
Sohel bro (Brother-in-law, Sohel Ryan), my brother-in-law is not my brother-in-law he has always been my brother, He always took a stand for me even when mummy, daddy, and sissy were opposing.
So, This is my family, a small family but cute family. Daddy, Mummy, Sissy, and Sohel bro these four people are my world. I can do anything for them and the same goes for them too. But one thing is missing and I don't know what is it, I don't think that I will ever know.
I got up from my bed, brushed my teeth, took a bath, wore a red salwar suit, and had to comb my hair.
After all, was done, I went to help mummy in the kitchen room. I made tea for my mummy and daddy. while mummy is preparing breakfast.
I went to the living room with a cup of tea where daddy is sitting on a sofa chair with a newspaper. I gave tea to daddy and said "Good Morning daddy" then he wished me back with a smile "Good Morning Sweetie" and took a tea from me, I went back to help mummy.
Finally, we are done preparing breakfast, I and mummy both sat in the living room, I was reading the newspaper when I heard a familiar voice with their hands on my eyes behind from sofa where I was seating, right at that moment I recognized my sister it is... I was so happy that after so long Zareena sissy and Sohel Brother-in-law came home as they went to the USA for some business work approximately for complete one year and now they came back, Finally.
"Sissy ...Sissy, How are you" I am screaming due to happiness, Zareeena sissy opened my eyes then came in front of me and hugged me. "Heyy sweetie, I am absolutely fine, how are you..?" Zareena Didi said with tears in her eyes, I nodded smilingly with teary eyes and said "Doing good sissy, but missed you so much sissy" by me. "Ohh.. poor me, so my cute little sister-in-law just missed her sister but not me right! hmm," Brother-in-law said with a fake teary face while I smiled and wished at him.
mummy, daddy, brother-in-law, and Didi all wished each other, and I am looking at them and smiled to myself by standing in a corner.
After talking a while, we all had our breakfast and settled on the sofa couch in the living room. "So, when will the exam results be released sweetie," Zareena sissy asked me, "within a week sissy," said me. "so, what next sweetie?" asked Zareena sissy. "I think, I want to do M.phil in Modern physics sissy," I said in a low voice while taking a deep breath.
"Now it's enough Amyra When you completed graduation itself we want to get you to marry, but you said you need time and we gave it too, then you did your M.Sc(physics) and you promised us that you will listen to us after ur Masters completion, So now listen to us Amyra, we will see matches if you like him then only we will go ahead, if not we will go to next. That's it, we are not going to force you, sweetie, so please understand" daddy said with irritation in an angry tone which made me jump on the couch and I felt numb, really numb.
After saying those words, My father left for his office. Zareena sissy and Sohel Brother-in-law gave me an apologetic look whereas Ammi gave me a "can't do anything look".
Past is rolling in front of my eyes. Graduation day, heavy rain, my friend shanaya, my senior Abbas, worst day of my life, the day my life got changed, the day my heart went cold and my smile got faded, the day I stopped trusting people, why GOD whyyy...
I don't want to remember it. But whenever I hear the word "MARRIAGE", it pains me a lot in my heart. But I can't stop my father this time, I promised mummy and daddy that I will marry after my masters. Now I don't know what to do...
"Amyra, just be cool, it's okay. Everything would be fine, just trust our parents, they will never do wrong to you" Zareena sissy said with a little hope in her eyes." Just give yourself a chance instead of panicking and worrying by remembering the past which is not even your mistake Amyra" said by sissy, "I need some time Didi, I will come back in a while please sissy" said me and left the room.
I reached my room and closed the door behind me, because I don't know what else to tell her, I can't handle any sort of this marriage relationship now and maybe not even in the future, even though I can't tell her no to this because I don't have any option now.
[To be continued]...