The man only smiles at me but I can feel the sadness through it. His eyes vividly beaming in sorrow. Slowly, I didn't realize my tears started to fall.
A cold liquid as it continuesly flow down to my cheeks untill it landed to the ground. I don't know, I just have this weird gut that I want to embrace this man. I want to wipe away his sadness. I want to shower him with kisses. It might be absorbed but I am eager to touch him. From his hair to his skin. I want to feel his warmth. I want to feel him.
I tried to reach out my hand. The man didn't retract, he only looked at me painfully. I tried to take a step forward and nearer. With my trembling hand and an aching heart I mumbled a word out of nowhere "Husband, I am here". But I was stop.
There's a transparent wall that separates us. I tried to breakthrough. I tried to scape. I keep on slamming the transparent wall but it's no use. I was certain that this man is a part of me that I lost. This man is the half of me. But why? Why can't I remember his name? Why can I remember anything about him? Why can't I stop myself crying looking at his face? What's happening to me?
No matter how much strength I release, the wall didn't even budge a little.
The man slowly faded, swallowed in the darkness but the smile never ceases. Before he vanished, he spout something I didn't even have the slightest idea.
I woke up from my slumber in shocked with tears still flowing down. I subconsciously wipe it out saying "Who are you?"
Husband... No way. Did I just call a man husband in my dream? A man I didn't even know. What the heck just happened? And I am crying? Why would I cry over someone I never meet. Am I this crazy for being single for too long? Calling a man husband out if nowhere.
I brushed my hair using my fingers. Strangely, I feel heavy inside. It's so uncomfortable that it almost suffocate me. I breathe in and out hoping it can ease my heart.
When I was about to release my third breath out, I feel something is poking under my clothes. Something is wiggling inside. It tickles and painful at the same time.
I rashly flipped my blanket away. The first thing I saw is that something bulging is under my clothes. I was stunned in horror.
AM I PREGNANT? HOW DID I BECOME PREGNANT? WHO IS S THE FATHER? WHO DID SOMETHING THIS OUTRAGEOUS AS GETTING ME PREGNANT? WHO WILL TAKE RESPONSIBILITY? I WAS JUST SLEEPING FOR GOD-DAMNED SAKE.
Did someone rapped me? Did someone take advantage of me? Knowing how handsome I am and the fact that I was leaving alone so they take that opportunity to ravished me. But who the heck will get pregnant that easily? And besides, I don't have uterus. There's no way a child will be formed unless I am a woman disguising as man?
Ridiculous. This is truly ridiculous.
I slowly lifted my shirt while internally praying to all this Buddha.
I feel so freaking nervous. This is the second time I feel this way. It's frustrating to be honest.
The first thing I saw after lifting my shirt is a green pointed something. Wait... Green pointed something.... Is that a tail? My child has a tail? God... why? I'm fine being pregnant you know but why punished my child like this? Not only he is green but also has a tail? Why didn't you spare him?
I was about to touch this tail when suddenly it slapped my face hard.
The fuck. With all other part of my body why do it has to slap my face. My precious face.
My fear was instantly replaced with pissed that I pulled out the thing who slap me. Even if you arey child I will not tolerate you from hurting my beloved face.
After pulling it out, my face suddenly darken horribly that everything went black.
When I open my eyes, the bump and the green tail are gone. So it was just a dream within a dream. Whew! What a relief. I really thought I was pregnant with a green pointed tail.
I rolled over the bed, smiling happily with my eyes shut close, ready to sleep some more. If it's going to be the same dream, then I won't call it a dream but a nightmare.
I feel comfortably asleep but... Yeah there's always a but so don't hinder me. But there's something amiss.
Something keeps on licking me with it's rough tongue and sticky liquid. I subconsciously wipe it with my hand but it didn't stop. Instead, it bite the hell out of me.
As for me who only wished to dream my dear boyfriend, instantly open my eyes wide. There I saw a green creature still currently biting my finger with.... With wait.. Something is rather familiar. That green pointed tail. The green pointed tail is back. Is this another dream? What a wicked dream.
Realizing my situation I shouted on the top of my lungs "AAAAAHHHHHHH".
Hysterically shaking my hand off, the green creature fell off somewhere. I look at my finger and shouted again "AAAAAHHHHHHH. BLOOD. IM BLEEDING. IM BLEEDING... AAAAAHHHHHHH"