Avery's pov
I couldn't help but remember all Avan , Ava and I had been through together , and now we were separated , like our bond was just that weak . For some reason the pain in my chest , from the time Avan declared our seperation seemed to have returned . My head was thumping really hard , and my frail little body , shaking in the cold , and my clothes and hair damp from all the water . I deserved this torture , I didn't deserve happiness . I think I'm Cursed , who knows , I was probably the cause of my parents death , It was clear now why my life was so miserable . I was lied to all my life , they always said I was beautiful , and that I am a princess , but I didn't know I was a devil , I killed my parents , and now I was paying the price of my evil deeds .
" Avery , what are you doing to yourself ", I heard a voice say , and I turned to see Lily , she walked up to me and took me in her arms . She hugged me tightly . She didn't seem to mind that I was wet , I thought she was really nice , only I didn't want to get her Cursed as well , she didn't deserve to suffer like I was doing .
" Go away from me Lily , I'm Cursed ", I said , crying , my eyes were probably pale already and red from all the crying .
" Don't be silly Avery , what have you done to yourself ", Lily asked , and a fresh set of tears fell from my face , she sat me down on a stair , and sat next to me .
" What's wrong Avery ", she asked and I looked up at her .
" Avan broke all ties with me ", I said and burst into tears again , and for the first time that day , I realized that he was now twins with Ava , while I was the outsider , I hadn't thought of it that way before , but now , it all became clear . For a moment , I thought it was good because they wouldn't get my curse as well , but I was still really heartbroken .
" Is he really serious ", Lily said and her jaw dropped .
" Yes he was ", I said devastated . I leaned in on Lily , I was really scared , all the people I loved were now out of my life .
" Don't cry Avery , let's go in ", Lily said , and alot of thoughts filled my head , how would I face them , we literally stay in one room .
" You'd stay in my room ", lily said , as if reading my mind . We went to her room , she stayed there with a couple of kids , like Kelly , the fashion freak , she would overreact when something about her looks goes wrong , she was friends with the baddies , but she was the nicest , Yung Lu , the Japanese or Chinese girl , I always got confused about where she was from . Celine Wennie Williams, the one I had never heard speak , she was really quite and so she was often bullied , rumour has it that she watched her parents die , when she was only three , so she's still suffering the trauma , she was also the youngest occupant of that room , but not anymore , we were the same age , so we were the youngest . They were four in the room , but I was the fifth . I felt really weird about it , not because the room wasn't as great as the room I shared with Avan and Ava , but because it felt like I was crowd , and I couldn't help but think that I was inconveniencing them .
" What happened to her ", Kelly asked , as she applied blush , she was sixteen , so she was allowed to have makeup , the restriction was till sixteen , and I didn't mind anyway , because I felt makeup was a whole lot of stress , but Ava would chatter about how she couldn't wait to start using makeup , the thought of that made me teary , I remembered we were now seperated .
" She's sick , so Astrid said I should babysit her ", Lily lied , and there was some truth In it because I was sick and if Astrid were to find out , she'd ask for lily to watch me .
" Oh , how are you doing now hun ", Kelly asked and I faked a smile .
" I'm getting better ", I said , and my voice was shaky from the cold and crying . My throat was really sore as well .
" I'll go get you some clothes that you can change in to , and some milk to help with your head ", lily said and I nodded . I sat on her lower bed of her bunk , lily stays up , while wennie stays down and on the other side , Kelly stays down , while Yung Lu stays up . I looked at Wennie who got up as soon as I sat on her bed , and she left the room . I already felt like a stranger . I felt like I was intruding in their personal space , and the room just didn't feel like home . Soon , Lily walked in with my pajamas , and she gave them to me , then she left , probably to get the milk . I went into the bathroom and got dressed into my pajamas , and I went into the room . It was so quiet unlike my other room , where we would chatter and play all night and I would oversleep and I would always wonder how Avan and Ava would get up before me . I wanted to cry , but I didn't want to draw attention to myself , so I tried to hold back my emotions .
Lily came back soon with a glass of milk . She handed it over to me , and I gulped it down and returned the glass to her .
" Thanks ", I whispered , and she smiled .
" You'll sleep on Wennie's bed with her ", Lily said , and she literally made matters worse . I didn't have a choice , I didn't want anyone else sacrificing their beds , so I had to sleep on the same bed as Wennie , I could only hope , she doesn't give those weird looks that she gave me earlier .
Soon Wennie came back in , and she laid down on one end of her bed , and I did the same . Lily switched off the lights , and climbed up to her bunk , and it felt like all the girls fell asleep . I just couldn't sleep , I was really restless . I was sad and unhappy , and I couldn't help but cry . I tried to be quiet so I don't wake anyone up , and I think I succeeded , my pillow got soaked with my tears , and I got snapped back to reality by Wennie who was rolling on the bed , it seemed like she was having a night mare .
" Calm down Wennie , it's only a dream ", I said , trying to lure her back to sleep . And soon she opens her eyes ,and shoots me a glance .
" Sorry , you were having a nightmare ", I said and she nodded , and that was the first time she acted like she was human .
" It's not your fault , I dreamt of my mum ", she said , and my jaw dropped .
" You can speak ", I said in shock , and she chuckled .
" Guess they did say alot about me ", she said and I nodded .
" No one talks to me , they all look at me with disdain , I lost my voice at three , and Astrid enrolled me in therapy , I got my voice back , and I went to tell her , but she was with the doctor , calling off my treatment , even she didn't believe in me ", Wennie explained , and I understood , it feels awful when the people who you think believe in you , have lost hope like the rest .
" So why didn't you show that you can talk ", I asked .
" My parents didn't die in an accident , I have been doing some work researching , and I found out they were assassinated , just before their big contract , the people only let me leave because they thought I lost my voice and I already lived a miserable life , I think it's not safe to just go around talking , they have a spy here ", she explained , and then I understood that I wasn't the only kid going through hell , I had to face my situation with courage .
" Why are you telling me all this ", I asked and she smiled at me .
" It's hard having no friends , I can't keep it to myself anymore , and moreover I trust you , you understand what it feels like to be devastated ", she said and tears fell from her eyes .
" Oh , you know ", I said , looking down , and tears welled up in my eyes .
" You must be going through alot , I heard what happened with your siblings , I'm so sorry ", she said in a sob .
" It's not your fault ", I said and she wiped her tears .
" Please don't tell anyone about this ", she said , and I nodded .
" What are friends for ", I said and her face brightened up .
" Friends already ", she asked , and I nodded .
" Yeah , you know , your friend may not be too far away from you ", I said and she smiled , she went mute .
" What's wrong ", I asked
" I think we should go to sleep ", she said and I didn't argue , we both went back to sleep .