Hazu has spent all her days doing nothing and just reading about dark matter and the countless experiments about it along with casually watching anime and Asian dramas instead of studying for the semester-end exam. She thinks that her university is the main reason for her deteriorated mental health and has completely set aside her studies and has given up studies for the moment.

"At the very least, I got my interest in doing something rather than just staring at the wall endlessly," Hazu thinks to herself trying to let go of the pressure of the exam. "I don't like how university killed my interest in geology for which I was interested since 10th grade, I also don't like how I have forgotten so much stuff about space that I studied in 7th grade"

"I feel like I have no future" She becomes hopeless and her eyes become dead.

She tries to shake it off by reading some memes on the internet but to no avail. "Maybe the antidepressant's effect run out by night or something since I was advised to take them only during the morning by the psychiatrist" She takes a deep breath and tries to calm herself down "Don't worry, it will be ok,.. it will be ok.. you will be fine,.. stop thinking"

She imagines herself jumping off her balcony which is on the 9th floor and find it tempting. "No! I cannot do that, I have my dad to live for." Her mom and dad are divorced and she lives in her dad's flat whose job is in another city. "I don't want to give him more trouble, I am already troublesome" She lays down on her bed for several minutes. She gets up and walks through the pile of empty plastic ramen noodle cups and some clothes that has fallen over from her laundry bag and gets herself a glass of water as she has grown a habit of drinking water constantly whenever she feels despair. "what the fuck is wrong with me!? how can my university make me suicidal? I have everything, I have all the facilities yet I'm such a piece of shit" She becomes aware of her toxic thoughts and drinks water again.

"I wish I met someone right, but I feel like there might not be any right person, love isn't for me, no one can help me in this state," She thinks of her past experience with love.

"Maybe I'll just sleep, I will try to sleep" she lays down on her bed and hugs a pillow.