"ARE YOU FUCKING TELL ME THAT YOU DON'T WANT TO LUST ON MY BODY!!?."
"That is...right..."
"ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!?." she said,still in a angry voice while tightening her grip in my wrist.
It hurts a bit but not enough to make my body shiver.In fact,I really don't mind it.
"WHY DON'T YOU JUST BE HONEST TO YOURSELF AND SAY THAT YOU WANT TO FUCK ME!!."
"No,I have my reasons....."
"FUCK THAT SHIT!!.I'M ALREADY OFFERING MY BODY TO YOU!!.WHY DON'T YOU JUST TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT!!?."
"That's the problem...."
Honestly,she was starting to annoy me.I'm actually don't know the exact reason why we came to this kind of situation,or why she was acting like that.
It was a mystery.And misery.
"ISN'T ALL MEN LIKE THAT!!?.THEY ARE JUST WANT TO DEVOUR BEAUTIFUL GIRLS WITH ATTRACTIVE BODY!!.THE AFTER THAT,THEY WILL JUST LEFT THEM LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN!!."
"Just like I said yesterday-"
"EVEN SOME ARE CHEATING JUST TO FUCK ANOTHER GIRL WHO IS CUTER AND MORE ATTRACTIVE THAN THEIR GIRLFRIENDS!!.
WHY DON'T YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND IT AND ACCEPT THAT FACT!!!?."
"..."
I couldn't manage to reply.I opened my eyes very widely.Not because she said that last statement louder than the previous ones.
It was specifically because of the her line "Even some are cheating just to fuck another girl who is cuter and more attractive than their girlfriends.".It hit me like a truck.Right after hearing that line,I immediately remember a particular scene.
Specifically,there is this middle-age man in the house.Then there is this young lady.They are doing the adult things.Something that a young boy like me that time shouldn't be witnessing.
But at that moment,I saw it.The man is kissing the young lady in the lips.That time,I could just say it was gross since it feels like he was devouring her.After that,the man kissed her in the neck,then in the shoulder and even in the fingers.A nasty scene if I would decribed it.
Right after seeing that scene,I immediately hide behind the wall.I sit down slowly i the floor and dropped my bag.I cover my mouth nervously.My body was shaking that time.And a thought that came first to my mid is "What the hell is that?.".And it followed by "That can be true,right?.That's impossible right?.There's no way-
"WHY THE HELL ARE YOU MAKING THAT FACE!!?."
Mishitsu-san interuppted me on remembering that memory by shouting those words.I came back to my senses.
"I see." I replied.
"I SEE?.DID YOU FINALLY UNDERSTAND NOW,
YOU MORON!?."
"Yeah.I finally understood now."
I'm actually don't want to remember that memory.In fact,I already buried it in my past.But thanks to her specific line she said to me,I remember it again.At first,I thought it was a bad thing to happen,but it made me realized
something.
"You're right,Mishitsu-san." I continue. "I'm not your father.I don't have the position to lecture you.I like to apologize to you about that."
"THAT'S NOT...WHAT I WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU!."
"Also,you said that men are greedy beings when it comes to their sexual desires.At first,
I'm against to that but after some time,I realized that you are right."
"YOU COULD JUST SAID THAT FROM THE START!!."
"Lastly,you said that you want to be honest about this situation right?.Then let me tell you this."
I pause for a bit,preparing the words I will throw.Then continue.
"Your face is so fucking beautiful,cute,
charming and erotic.Not only that,you also have an amazing body.Your waist is so thin and sexy and your skin isnvery white.Those two characteristics are usually seperated to most girls,but you have both of them.You are so damn perfect.There's no way a man wouldn't fuck you after doing all of this."
I was not supposed to say the last sentence but she wants me to be honest so I said it.I was also not supposed to use some vulgar words,but since she also said some while yelling at me,I guess we are even now.
Of course,I was already expecting that she will get mad at me.I wouldn't be surprised if she cry or slap me in the face.But when I glance to her face,it contradicts on what I expecting.
She was showing a slight smirk.She let go gripping my waist,put her right hand on her upper chest,as if she was persuading me and said.
"THEN IF THAT'S THE CASE,THEN COME AND FUCK ME ALREADY!!!."
"If that's what you really want me to do,then I'm sorry.I will not be able to do that.Or should I say,I cannot do that." I said,looking away from her.
It's not because I can't move my whole body with ease right now because of the effects fo that aphrodosiac medicine.
It was mainly because if I take advantage on Mishitsu-san,I will be no different with "that man".
Since that "nasty incident" happened,I swore that I will never be like with "that man".I would rather kill myself than to I do what he did that time.
"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!!.YOU COULD JUST GRABBED MY BOOBS LIKE THIS!!."
She forcely grabbed my left arm and tried to put it in her left boob.But before it even touch her boob,I immediately sway my right hand,stopping her attempt.I will never let that happen.Especially in this case.
Because of the great force I used in that action,it seems like she was also carried away since she stumbled a little bit on her left side.
But the suprised face she is showing is not probably because of that.I'm sure it was because I stopped myself on her attempt to touch her boobs.
After that,she turned her expression into a pity one.Then she came closer to my face and put her hands on my chest.This position is like she was lying on top of me.
"What the hell is that..."
She said in a normal voice,for the first time since she burst out.She finally calmed down herself.Also,it seems like she already gave up on her goal,which was actually a good thing to see.Then she put her head down to my chest and said her final words.
"I can't understand you.....Harakiri-kun."
"That's my line,Mishitsu-san.I couldn't also understand you."
After that conversation,a dead silence fell between us.I didn't talk.She also didn't talk.We just stay in our position.It was so quiet that you could hear the ticking of the clock and the vehicles outside,passing in the road.
After a long a period of time,I noticed that the effect of the aphrosodiac medicine is already wearing off,as I feel that my body already went back to normal.There were no more heat rushing to my face and my breathing is already stable.
Because of that,I decided to go home.Since it seems like we already settle things between us,there is no more reason for me to stay here any longer.It would be also a huge problem if her parents come home while we are in this situation.So I need to leave here as soon as possible.
"Mishitsu-san.Please step aside on my body already.I will be going home now."
She didn't answer.She didn't even move an inch.
"I will be going home now,Mishitsu-san.Please step aside on my body already."
I repeated those words.But this time,with a louder voice,thinking that maybe she didn't heard what I said.But still,the same result.
If that's the case,I have no choice but to use a little bit of force.I grabbed both of her armpits with my hands,lifted her a bit,and put her besides me
When I lifted her,I took a glance on her face.
She was just wearing a gloomy expression with narrowed eyes.As if she was in her deep thoughts.
After some moments,she just buried her face downside,not looking at me.
Anyways,after that,I stood up from the bed and started buttoning my inner and outer polo.While doing that,I took this opportunity to say some farewell words to her before I leave.
"I don't know why you acted agressively today and I will never ask the exact reason for that.
But if you are worried about it being leak to our classmates,please rest assure that I will never tell what happen here to anyone.
Although it's up to you wether to trust me or not."
She didn't answer so I continue.
"Also,it seems like I hurt you when I gripped your shoulder and released my hands from your attempt to your boobs.I want to apologize for that.I'm sorry."
There is still no answer.
But with that,I finally finished buttoning my clothes.At that moment,I saw her camisole shirt and velvet shorts,lying in the floor.I picked it up and give it to Mishitsu-san,who is still in her the same position.
"Again,I'm not your father or mother.And I'm just your classmate.I have no right to lecture you but please wear them and fix yourself.
Your parents might become suspicious if they see you naked."
She didn't answer.She didn't even grab the clothes from my hands.So at the end,I just put them besides her.
"And for your request,don't worry about it.I will still solve it.If you don't want to talk to me anymore,maybe I will just write the solution in a paper and give it to you."
I finally said what I want to say.It's time now to leave.But when I'm about to do that,I thought came to my mind.And my mouth suddenly talked to its own.
"Ah.Well,you probably tired of me talking non-stop,isn't?."
As expected,I didn't hear an answer from her.
So I continue.
"This maybe the last time we may talk to each other but I just want to say thank you.Thank you for saving this suicidal idiot in his suicide attempt."
Although the truth is that I'm just postponing it.
"Farewell,my artist."
After saying those words,I left the room.I was not supposed that lame sentence.She was not even my artist afterall.But I just kinda felt to say it,so I ended spouting those words.
Anyways,I get my stuffs from the living room,get one cookie from the plate,ate it and finally left her house.
Of course,I went home using my bike.While biking,I noticed it was already past sunset.I looked at my watch.It was already six-o'five in the evening.
Upon arriving at my apartment,I changed my clothes and spend my time in my personal computer,watching some random videos in the internet.
When I felt hungry,I ate two instant noodles cup as my dinner.Then I went outside to take a smoke.After taking two to three sips from the cigarette,I looked a the sky.
The stars are still visible since it was not cloudy tonight.I could hear the cicadas,
making these strange voice in this starry night.I could also hear the family from the house in front of me,happily talking to each other.
"A lot of crazy things happen in the last few days no?."
A talented and beautiful artist approach me to do her request.Then she suddenly seduced me not only once,but twice.Then she showed a side of her that she never show in the school.
Then that artist made me to remember a specific memory.
Right after reminiscing that,I remember the scene again.I took again a cigarette,trying to forget it.
"Women are really the biggest mystery among the all mysteries out there,isn't?."
After taking my dessert,I went inside my apartment and spend my time again in my personal computer.When I got bored,I went to the bedroom and laid on the bed.
I was supposed to start solving right now Mishitsu-san's request but I decided that I will just leave that on the other day.She didn't said to rush it so I guess it was fine.
At the end,I chose to sleep early.But whenever I closed my eyes,I always remember that memory.It was now starting to hunt me down.
At the end,I got my phone,as well as my earphone and listen to the music from it to calm my mind.
And it was effective.I fall asleep.Altough it took me some time.