CHAPTER 4
Ling hun:
Numbness creeped through every tissue and muscle of my body, as I felt the car rampaging out of the road.
"Ling hun! Wake up! Ling hun, (Lang shi frantically cried)
"Ambulance, please come as soon as possible. At the Number ate restaurant, her head is haemorrhaging severely, please I beg you come now!"- Lang Shi
(IN THE HOSPITAL)
"Miss, can you give us some information on how this accident occured? How old is the girl and what is your relationship to her?"- Nurse
"Ling hun Hong, an 18 year old girl. I was walking out of the Number ate restaurant. I witnessed this car accident. I knew that Ling hun consumed alcohol which could have led to this accident. Ling hun and I were classmates at West Lake High, that is my relationship. - Lang shi
The clouds were dark and ominous, all of the surroundings were white, ceasing the sight of anything. A woman walked up to me, she was at the brink of adulthood and was dressed in a black line dress with white embroidered flowers. The smile on her face was ever reassuring that everything is alright. Nurturing and caring for others was the essence of her persona.
"My Ling hun, you have grown into such a beautiful girl, just like I thought you would have. Wait it cannot be, you are fighting in the middle of life and death. Once you accept the white chrysanthemum given by the grim reaper, you would have to cross the bridge of death. Ling hun I urge you to fight for your life, do not let my sacrifice go in vain. I have faith in you!"- Sun yee Hong
"Wait, are you my mother? I spent 18 years of my life with the feeling of emptiness. How are we able to see each other if you are?....I am willing to do whatever it takes to be with my mom again. "- Ling hun
"Yes my child, I am able to communicate with you because it is your birthday. A mother and child creates a magical connection like no other. This power allows me to communicate with you. Ling hun you must listen carefully to what I am about to tell you. Your birth was an abnormal one. During the parturition you were expected to release an unexplained energy into this universe which could kill the mother. I found technical advice from a Buddhist monk, Kai tufu and found out that I can either kill the child and I would live or give birth to the child and the energy would kill me. I chose option b. I could not have faced the fact that I killed another being, especially my child. Ling hun you have a whole life ahead, I urge you to go live it."- Sun yee
"Throughout my life I have always felt desolated. To know that I could finally see my mom, why would I choose to live? If accepting the flower means I can see my mom in the afterlife, why waste it?"- Ling hun
"Ling hun! I beg you must embrace life, Your Aunt Qu is grieving just to see your eyes open. Please! Make your mother's life a meaningful one! Live"- Sun yee
"Doctor, how is she doing?" - Aunt Qu
"I am afraid according to the ecg, Ling hun is experiencing asystole. We would try our best to resuscitate her, if it does not work, I am sorry to say….."- Doctor
"Doctor (Aunt Qu breaks down in tears) my Ling hun is all I have, my sister left me, my parents died when I was young so please try your best! I plead to you."
"Mother, (Ling hun mournfully speaks) I promise I will bring you justice, I will live a full life just like you wanted me to when you sacrificed yourself for me. The feeling of emptiness is now filled with love for I know that you are every step of the way with me. I love you very much mom."
"My child, words cannot express how..."- Sun yee
It was 12:00 my birthday was over, this broke the connection between my mother and I. Life was now full of new aspirations, I wanted to search and find out what was peculiar with me and why I was the cause of my mother's death.
My eyes opened to the sight of cannulas which penetrated my veins, several medical machines and I was bedridden in a hospital room that appeared to be blurred as I slowly came back to my senses.