I can't believe I could do such thing. I can't believe that I did gave up my all in that one night. I can't believe I managed to throw all my inhibitions away, my sanity out of the window as if I was never born to have a brain that pretty functions well. Its so sad to think that way, you know. This hell of set up is making me confused and frustrated. I don't want to believe it, but the more it is unbelievable that all of those are merely dreams that I've only dreamed of last night.