2 SARYAT POV
---EARTH
IT'S FINE DEAR DON'T BE AFRAID THEY'RE SAFE
I knew at an early age that I am different, I believe, the moon follows me wherever I go, but that's all a lie.
When I turned eight, I started to see something unusual from people on their daily lives.
As they grew older, those little monster grows together with them, but they're not really monster but the soul, if the host was wicked by heart the soul which was originally a white transparent smoke, will have its shape, depends on the greed of its human.
I also have one, but mine was not a monster nor a white transparent smoke, but a silent little fancy shadow of a tree.
I grew up in an orphanage without knowledge who was my birth parents are, no one wants to make friends me either, they're all afraid to be infected of whatever they called jinx I have.
Furthermore, I never knew what that jinx was until that horrible incident happened to me, but as the day goes on, I was always adopted, and not a week will last, they will return me to the orphanage, not telling me the reason.
After I turned 18, the orphanage kicked me out, for I was the only one left unadopted and old enough to be adopted.
Then I found a work on a wet market, back then I was too naive to think their kindness was for my own good, giving me a roof and food was not something falling from the sky for free.
That night, I didn't know that the food they've given me was spike, the next day I woke up the house was all empty in eerie silence, while I'm left all naked sore and bleeding in my bottom, I was rape by them, I was helpless with no one to lean on, can only cry for my dirty sorry state.
The wet market was then raided after I left the barracks limping from a wound inside my hole, it was said the wet market was just a cover-up, but was a drug den all along.
That day I reported to the police what happened to me, my complaints were not heard, I told them that I was rape, they didn't believe a single word I say, and look at me with pure disgust clearly written on their faces.
They thought I'm one of those rent boys, who occasionally run a rampage to their post to report the same thing I did, just because the payment wasn't enough.
I have no witness to prove my innocence, I left the police station crying hugging my dirty body full of red marks, from multiple men.
I even suffered a week long of fever and when I finally felt better, I started to find a job to feed myself, and became weary of every people's good intentions towards me.
Strange thing was after three months I started to feel nauseous from every scent that I find unpleasant, I also became a picky eater and loves to eat a fried pineapple more than anything else.
Seven months passed, something was definitely wrong of me because I became heavy, and my belly was having a bump, like a drunkard man, I started to wear oversized shirt to cover it, and plan to visit a doctor after saving a little from my part-time.
But not on my regular days of walk, for my daily job, I passed out in the middle of the highway and woke up in an institution with an old lady by my side, holding my hand, her wrinkled face shows a smile of positivity.
"Your awake, glad to see your fine, I found you unconscious nearby and brought you here"
She smiled at me warmly, and tell me why I'm here without me even asking her.
"Thanks"
The only thing I could say, but then she held both of my hands, eyes that's telling me everything's going to be ok, it is unclear to me why she's acting that way and the looked on her face gives me chills.
"It's fine dear, don't be afraid they're safe"
That's when my brows creased, what was she saying, they're safe? Who?, does she know me?
"What do you mean?"
She looked back at me, and somehow I know she knows, that I know nothing of what she's talking about.
"I guess I'll be the one to spell it out, dear, congratulations for being a mother of two"
Did I hear it right? Did she mean mother? A man? Me? A mother?, I don't think it's April's Fool today right?, tell me?, how to understand what's going on right now?, I only found myself laughing and falling into tears without thought.
"What's happening? How's that even possible?, I'm a man, what a joke is this?"
My eyes glued to the white sheet covering half of my body and I don't know what she's thinking either, seeing me laugh and cry in a split of seconds.
"Have you not know? You're body was capable of being pregnant?, but because you don't have the thing, same to us women, they will cut your stomach open"
I can't say anything, I know I was rape for my ignorance, but being capable of being pregnant? That's not the right deal here.
Only then it came to light, i realized way back then in the orphanage, their whispering about me, so this was what they mean by jinx? I have?
The reason why I'm always brought back by my adopted parents after thorough check up for my health condition to start schooling? Was this?
My hands can only cover my face, I can't breathe properly holding this damn tears, as if all of this were just a dream, but reality was right inside me, the reason I feel nauseous for some scent that I dislike, became a picky eater, gaining weight and my stomach growing big.
Ha? I feel like shit, my shoulders start to tremble from my freed cries and that's when I felt someone hug me, she hug me, with her comforting warmth.
"Don't cry, this institution will not let you down, stay strong, even if this all seems impossible, the two inside you are breathing life, they need you, so gather yourself together"
Then a sting on my neck makes me lift my face to meet her smiling gaze, as the world around me, start to go hazy dark, I even heard a knock that makes her separated from me.
It was also the first and last, that I saw her, afterward I was directly sent to the operating room for Cesarean and was discharged after six weeks.
The institution where the old lady brought me, didn't asked a single penny out of me, and I was also given a lot of helping hands to raise my twins with great care.
And I don't know why, but my rare case was shut tightly within the institution alone, and that's what I'm glad about because I was not seen as a witch for being a man, who's capable of being pregnant, should I be thankful?