"It would be nice if you gave me a warning next time, like say 'wait' first before going straight to the safeword." Alex told her as he rubbed his neck a little.
"I'm sorry I panicked!" Sarah curled herself into a ball with her heart beating fast.
While she was slowly getting more comfortable around Alex, she was still terrified of actually having sex again.
Alex sighed, "Why don't we take this REALLY slow then?"
"R-Right..." she mumbled and Alex sat next to her.
She was still curled up so Alex offered his hand to her instead, which she hesitantly took. Alex slowly scooted over, letting her get comfortable to the closing distance and rubbing his thumb on her hand to help calm her down.
She hated herself a bit for being such a coward but she had a right to be after the things that happened to her. She wished she didn't feel this way with Alex who was clearly a much better man than her father and her ex combined.
He was sweet and gentle, good at listening, and honest with her. He was everything she wished for in a boyfriend yet her trauma prevented her from changing. Her mind was split, part wanting him right now, and the other part, the one that dominated her life for so long, wanted to keep her prisoner and prevent her from opening up.
As her mind was a mess, Alex was right next to her, with his side leaning against her legs as his face was inches from hers. When she came to, she was spooked that he was right in front of her and tried to scoot back, only to hit her head.
With an ouch, she rubbed her head. She saw Alex who hadn't moved closer and waited again for her to feel comfortable with the distance. When he started moving again, instead of going straight at her face, he went for her forehead, giving her a kiss.
He then slowly wrapped his arms around her even if she tensed up. She felt small and helpless as fear slowly set in but his next words prevented her from drifting too far.
"It's okay to be scared but don't let it consume you. Use that fear to help drive you forward. If it makes you feel any better, you can also try to imagine being with Alicia rather than me, I won't take offense this time."
She replayed those words as Alex got close to her face again and slowly made contact with his lips. She sucked in her breath, backing up slightly so their lips barely touched and Alex slowly brought them back together.
He was patient, not being too aggressive but just enough so that she would move slightly out of her comfort zone before relaxing again. He had to be careful since he could do more harm if he wasn't paying attention to her actions.
He couldn't focus this time on pleasure for himself at all, since this was "therapy" for Sarah. Maybe he really should be a doctor...
Sarah's heart fluttered while her mind was a mess and her body shivered. She was unsure what to feel so she let Alex continue leading. He was very gentle with her, only giving sweet kisses and not trying to tongue her.
They spent a few minutes just making out passionately as Alex slowly moved her arms and legs down so she was no longer curled up. The bench was too small so he slowly got them up and held her by the waist.
She flinched again after feeling his hot dong press against her stomach again. He bent down to her face and held it in his other hand.
"Mmm..." Eventually, Sarah moaned quietly. Signaling the first signs of surrender.
It took another 10 or so minutes before he finally felt she was more ready for oral. He laid her back on the bench and brought his face to her lower lips. They were moister than the first time he had a close look so he got a slightly sour taste of her healthy pussy as he gently licked her outer lips.
"Ah~" She tensed up and shut her legs on his head.
He gave her time to adjust again before slowly moving her legs aside and continuing on. He gave the outside of her pelvic region sweet kisses, getting her used to his touch before focusing more on her slit.
He held her hands with his as he started eating her out. She wrapped her legs around his head while she squeezed her eyes shut, still a little frightened of him but also from the pleasure she has long forgotten.
"Ah~ Y-You can go faster..." She eventually mumbled so Alex nodded while looking at her and obliged.
He never kept his eyes of hers, the two of them keeping eye contact the entire time he licked and sucked on her pussy. She never thought how hot it was to make eye contact like this and it quickly made her approach a dangerous place.
'Is this why guys like seeing girls look at them during bjs?' She thought as a massive wave of pleasure hit her.
She was surprised and quickly locked her legs around his head as she grabbed his hair tightly and squeezed her eyes shut.
"I'm cumming! I'm cumming! I'm cumming! I'm cumming! I'm cumming!" She mumbled over and over again as Alex continued to lick her gently.
He watched her climax, with his own member twitching. She really was a beautiful girl, even when she was angry or climaxing. His girls also had beautiful cumming faces but theirs were more erotic while Sarah's was just pretty.
Her flushed face and slightly damp brow made her look heavenly as she looked into those icy blue eyes again.
"How do you feel?" Alex asked as he slowly came up and held her hand again.
"Amazing..." She panted before she hesitated toward his mouth.
She felt like kissing him but she was still fighting a mental battle. Alex helped her by meeting her halfway since this was already a big step for her. He felt like she was still pushing it but he wasn't a licensed psychiatrist so it was up to her to tell him where her limit was.
"Are you ready?" He asked as she looked down at their genitals.
She could feel and see the hot mushroom tip of his penis touch her vagina. She shivered, unsure what she was feeling again before nodding with a bit lip.
"Gently please." She held his forearm and he nodded.
After lining himself up properly, he turned back to Sarah to make eye contact with her. He watched as her pretty face slowly changed. First, her brows knitted slightly, then her mouth opened a bit more, then her brow knitted more and her mouth opened all the way as she sucked in her breath.
Alex slowly pushed himself up to half of his length after taking his time. The two of them kept looking at each other panting for a moment before Sarah was the first to look away down at their connection.
She could see part of his dick still outside of her, and a ever so slight bulge of her belly from his size. He was very girthy, making her feel like a virgin again but this time it was much less painful and scary.
Her heart was still racing a mile a minute but similar to what Alex said, she used that nervousness and fear to keep her moving forward. She took the lead for a second as she brought her face close to his.
Their lips brushed together and Alex met her with another kiss. This one was a bit harder than the previous kisses, making her moan louder in his mouth and squeeze her beautiful hands harder on his forearms.
"T-Take me..." She whispered and he nodded.
With a slow hip thrust, he pushed himself slightly further in so he could feel her cervix before slowly moving back out.
"Ah~ Oh my Goddess!" She moaned beautifully as her brow knitted again.
Alex slowly moved his hips, giving them both time to get used to the movements and feel every inch of their partner's sex organ. Sarah slowly got more comfortable, moving her hands up to his shoulders and eventually his neck where she rested her hands around his strong jawline and held his face close to hers.
Her fears slowly melted away as she got more ferocious in her kissing. She was the first to actually stick her tongue out with Alex quickly sucked on and twirled it with his own.
He started picking up the pace a little as Sarah started to move her hips in time with his. She never thought in her life she could feel this good. The way he treated her and the way he took special care of her body made her feel like a princess.
"You're an asshole," She said in between kisses before knitting her brow slightly and biting her lip, "I know how you corrupted Alicia now. You treated her like a princess despite having such a dangerous weapon."
She mumbled it all between kisses and moans, making Alex chuckle. Soon he moved his head next to hers to whisper in her ear, making her shiver again.
"Alicia doesn't like being treated like a princess you know~" He teased before kissing her neck.
The neck kisses reminded her of her ex, who did it a lot when she was forced down by him but for some reason it didn't scare her as much. Alex was slowly overwriting her fears and while it was only a temporary fix most likely, it was still some sort of progress to overcoming her trauma.
Slowly but surely, the pace picked up and Sarah started moaning louder. The two of them liked to keep eye contact for different reasons. Alex liked watching her pretty face morph as he hit her sweet spot and she liked to watch him ensure that he was still taking care of her.
To her, the moment he took his eyes off her was the moment he stopped caring. It may have sounded silly but it was something she had to deal with while under her ex. The whole time she was r*ped, her ex never once looked her in the eye or at her face.
He was always looking away from her like he was afraid of her eyes.
Maybe there was a part of him regretting it, but she didn't care. All Sarah knew was that she needed Alex to keep looking at her. While Alex didn't get her thoughts, he kept eye contact since she seemed to be happy watching him pant.
The two stayed in their world, eventually, Alex got tired of this position and decided to move. Scaring her slightly, he lifted her up into his arms, being able to finally grasp that juicy butt of hers in his hands while he continued lifting her up and down on his dick.
She moaned out louder as she felt him reach deeper inside her. She felt so full but also terrified of being lifted up. She held onto his forearms tightly, digging her pretty decorated nails into him.
"Can I give your breasts some attention?" He asked to confirm if she was alright.
She hesitated slightly before nodding. It meant not having eye contact but she was curious as to how it felt. She arched her head back in surprise as she moaned deeply as he made contact with her sensitive nipples.
Alex tasted iron from the piercing and flicked his tongue around to stimulate her erogenous zone. She quickly arched forward again onto his shoulder as he started sucking on her nipple. She panted onto his shoulder and back as she reached her arms quickly around his neck for a better grip to stay up.
She felt her body go numb as she felt her second orgasm hit her hard.
"Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Ahhhhhh!!!" Sarah stuttered as she came again.
Her pussy quivered, clamping down tight on him even further and driving him close to orgasm.
"I'm gonna cum." he whispered to her, waking her out of her stupor.
"N-Not inside!" She turned pale and although he was curious, he nodded and went back over to the bench to lay her down as he took his penis out.
He quickly started jerking off as they locked eyes again before he jerked and sprayed his cum all over her body. Some even reached her chin with most of it centered around her stomach with her navel piercing getting stained white.
After a moment of basking in the afterglow, the two slowly sat up next to each other. Sarah held his hand again, feeling much better than she had before about sex and men. Maybe it was just Alex though so only time would tell.
She rested her head on her knees with her arms around them while he held her hand. She ignored the cum that was still dripping off her body as they talked.
"I'm glad you only used the safe word once." Alex joked and she glared at him with a red face.
"T-That was an accident." she tried to defend herself.
"Its fine. What's more important is that your okay. Did you hate any part of it?" He asked with concern.
She took a shaky deep breath at how he was making her feel but she shook her head no.
"I didn't hate any part of it, that's the problem. You are too good and it felt like I was being edged the entire time. I hate you." She turned away with a pout.
Alex chuckled and kissed her hand.
"Well, I'm glad you liked it. I still don't recommend we do this as a way of therapy though. I don't think sex therapy is a thing. Hopefully thinking of Alicia also made it more bearable."
"Yeah..." Sarah thought and didn't look at him again.
Alex couldn't see the worried face she was making and only she knew her own thoughts.
They spoke a bit and got cleaned up before abruptly having to leave the dressing room when Sarah's boss, Casey, the owner, came in unexpectedly. She didn't her best to hide her recent adventure and luckily her boss was a little bit of an airhead.
As Alex left discretely and gave her a wave, Sarah thought to herself, practically forgetting Casey was there.
'I wasn't thinking of Alicia...'