Prologue
The throbbing pain in my chest is indescribable. I managed to lift my heavy eyelids that I couldn't open before. Love is poison. I drank more than I should have. Love is like two people pulling the same rubber band. If one lets go, the other gets hurt. It will just be more painful the further you pull it because eventually, it always snaps. I now have no desire to love or be loved. Love... is very complicated. It has never worked out for me and never will. With the loss of a mother, the abandonment of a father, and the betrail of trust, I will never understand the mind of people. You're just hurting yourself, choosing to let people in instead of keeping them out. They all leave whether they want to or not by dying, being distanced, or being betrayed. That's why I will be isolated. Until the day I die.
Chapter 1
"Alyza, let Duke Nester take you with him. He will take care of you from now on."
"Mom, what about you?"
"I'm going to keep the Emporer distracted. I need to tell you something before I go." My mother leaned down and whispered into my ear. I fell into utter shock. Duke Nester grabbed me and started running after hearing the Emporer come closer. I was in his arms as he was running away. I heard a blood-curdling scream from my mother.
"NO!" my eyes flew open. I woke up in cold sweat. I was out of breath. Dreaming about that day still horrifies me. I lifted my legs out of bed as I was slowly walking toward the closet full of clothes. It was so quiet that I could hear the faint footsteps tapping against the cold ground beneath my feet. I stared at myself in the mirror, which is on the right side of my closet. I looked at my long white hair that goes down past my waist. Then my light blue eyes led me to my soft pale skin with light pink cheeks and my plump light pink lips. My appearance reminds me of my mother. Except for my eyes, they are light blue. Sometime's my eyes remind me of the moon that glows at night. I probably inherited this trait from my father.
After I got my light blue dress on with frills at the end, and that sparkled a little bit in the sunlight, I went to the dining room and saw Duke Nester sitting at the table. His silver hair was shining in the sunlight, which made his glasses have a small glare across them. It's nice that he's wearing his silver alloy chain eyeglasses. They look the best on him out of all the others. I sat down at the table across from him. Then I let out a sigh. He looked up at me instead of his book.
"what's wrong?" he asked with a face that already knew what I was going to say.
"We haven't finished our conversation from yesterday."
"yes, we have. It's dangerous. You can't do it. You're staying here with me."
"you know I can't!" I didn't mean to yell at him, but I have to do this. "I have to do it for mother." he let out a sigh,
"you are your mother's child. I'll let you do it only if you're sure you can kill him without getting caught."
"I am sure. I know I'll be able to do it"
"Then we'll start getting it ready for it tomorrow."
It's been a couple of weeks now. We finally got approval from the Emporer. Now I will have to stay as their guest for a while. While I'm there, I'm gonna have to use my power to hide my eye color. It's a rare eye color that barely anyone has. I've never used my power on it for more than 4 hours. It will be difficult to manage. A young maid walked in,
"Ms. Nester, it's time for you to leave. I will put your bags in the carriage."
"thank you, Yui." When I got to the carriage, I was going over my plan. I feel a bit nervous but, I know this plan will work. It has to, for mother.
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The maids and the Emporer greeted me when I stepped out of the carriage,
"Ladt Alyza, I am so glad you are here to stay as our guest let the maids show you the room I have prepared." The bright blonde hair he has is shining in the sunlight. His light red eyes stared right through me when I tilted my head up to see him
"Thank you, your highness, for your gratitude. I will defiantly repay you for everything."
"you're too kind, lady Alyza, well then I will see you at dinner." The maids had shown me my room. I tried to get settled in. But I couldn't stop thinking about the plan. I brought Kallen poison with me. One drop of this in your system will kill you instantly. I had taken it upon myself to look around the Imperial Palace. I needed to get used to the idea of being back at this place. I also needed to know my way around so that when the time comes that I need to make my escape, I will be able to do so without getting lost. When I went into this dark room next to me because the door was open. Something about it made me feel uneasy. The room feels empty. It felt as if there was no one alive in the whole world when I stepped into this room. It felt as if all there was in this room was a black abyss. I could suddenly feel chills going down my backbone. The warm breathing down my neck made me stiffen. I wanted to fall to the floor or at least look behind me, and encounter this person but, my body wouldn't let me. I just stood there like I was paralyzed. I knew it was a person because I could feel the warmth of their body behind mine. They were very tall. In my ear, they suddenly Whispered in a potent gruff voice.
"What business do you have to be in my room?" I felt obligated to answer him
"I-i was just trying to get familiar with this place. I didn't want to get lost in the future." for some reason, this man intimidated me with his voice to the point I was so helpless I wouldn't know what to do. I closed my eyes and turned around slowly. When I opened my eyes, I saw a man standing right over me with short jet black hair that looked as soft as bunnies fur that was tickling the top of my face with his head right above mine, and his red eyes like blood looking down upon me. His long black thick eyelashes and he had a nice figure. He was standing so close that I got flustered. I looked down at my feet, trying not to make eye contact with him. I want to get out of here as fast as possible he intimidates me way too much it makes me feel uncomfortable "I'm- I'm sorry for intruding. I didn't know someone slept in here." I started walking away but, suddenly he grabbed my wrist. I spun right around and bumped into him. He stared at me confused
"Have we met? what is your name?" he said in an earnest tone.
"uh its-"