Mathilda
My hands are trembling because I am so goddamn scared to hit the play button. James gives me a go-ahead nod, and I finally click on it.
'I love you so fucking much that it pains me to know how you've suffered over my absence, how you've beat yourself up. I want you to know that something came up, which I cannot make it known because it will hurt you so deeply. By the time you're listening to this, I will be dead. Just don't hurt so much when I'm gone. You deserve all the very best, my love. You've been suffering since we got married and now, it's time for you to be free.'
My stomach churns as my babies kicks inside of it.
