My face continues to burns with embarrassment, hatred and ignorance. Apparently, everyone has known about my fate except for me. But that ends now.
After having burst through the fucking door of the Alpha's house without a single trace of hesitation, I head for the stairs where I know his so called office is. I'm marching my way down the hallway when angry hushed voices stop me dead in my tracks.
"That maniac is on the loose! How am I suppose to takeover when he's out there just waiting for someone to pounce on?" I recognize the whiny yet still smug voice of the celebrated prick, Jasper Ray.
Since I need to talk to him anyway, sticking around by the partially open door wouldn't be that wrong, would it? I've never exactly been against eavesdropping before, so what's the difference now?
That's my reasoning as I creep closer to the door and press my ear against the wall, letting the gift of heightened hearing as a wolf come in handy.
"He's less likely to bother us if there are two leaders. You have a Luna picked out right, correct?" I recognize the voice of Alpha Romano, speaking in a hushed tones like the idiots they are, forgetting that everyone can hear them with the gift of heightened hearing.
"I want Phoebe," Jasper responds almost immediately, causing me to physically restrain the gag squirming to escape my innocent throat. At the mention of my name, I feel the color drain from my face. "She's the one I want to mate with and I'm tired of waiting for both her and my title."
A deep hum reaches my ears, what the Alpha always does when he's trying to consider something. "Then wait no longer. I'll have the wedding moved up to Thursday. Since there's no mate bond to bind you, wedding vows will work just as well. Plus, you'll have more time to get acquainted with her. Maybe even-"
"There's not going to be a wedding," I announce, seething after barging through the door on impulse. There's no way I can stand out there and silently listen to my future being decided for me. Not anymore. I'm sick of being a ghost in my own life.
Two pairs of eyes turn on me. One is jasper's-- a light blue that pairs nicely with neatly combed blonde hair. The other pair are a darker blue and belong to his father, whose once inky black hair is now peppered with grey. Evidence of the stress that comes attached to the title.
"Excuse me?" Alpha Romano stands up from his leather office chair. He has squared shoulders and a tall stature that would be hard to beat. One thing is for certain, and it's that he's used to looking down on people, not vice versa. He shoots me that disappointing gaze that he's mastered over the years, making even the most arrogant of wolves ashamed of themselves.
I swallow, fighting to keep my attitude under control. Too many times I've mouthed off to him and seen the consequences. But keeping this new leaf turned over is proving to be quite challenging.
"I'm not marrying him or anyone else," I seethe again, planting my feet firmly in place. He can't possibly think that he can force me into this. Can he? He's held control over me my entire life, but surely there's always a line he won't cross. There has to be right?.
To my right, Jasper lets out a frustrated moan.
"Why can't you just cooperate for once?" He whines at me. "I thought we were past this. I can give you everything you want! Who turns down the title of being a Luna?" He looks to his father for help with pleading yet demanding eyes.
He's never grown up. He still reminds me of that same child who threatened to throw a tantrum if he didn't get his dessert. Or the one who threatened to have my fingers cut off if I tried to play with a toy he'd forgotten he even had.
"You can't give me shit or you wouldn't have treated me like it my whole life," I shoot back, feeling a growl starting to rumble deep in my chest. He's always thought of himself as royalty and everyone else peasants. But in my eyes, a king without a crown isn't a king at all.
Alpha Romano snarls at me for my backlash. "Watch your Godamn tongue." He then turns to his son, confidence thick in the air around him. "She'll do whatever I say." He sits back down in his chair, leaning back and watching me with a calculating look, telling me to back down. One that reminds me of a beady eyed snake in the grass.
"Won't you Phoebe?" He asks in that sickly sweet, ominous voice. I hate that voice, that tone. I hate it with all of my being and I always have. It makes me sick. Sicker than imagining a future with Jasper. He tilts his head down and smiles darkly, clasping his hands loosely together. "Then you'll be locked up again. You wouldn't want that, would you? I'd think it gets awful lonely down there."
I clench my jaw tightly, my hands curling into fists. "And if I don't?"
My blood turns to ice and suddenly I feel cold. Chilled to the bone. It's as if I can already feel the frigid stone against my skin and the silence ringing in my ears.
I hide my fear and scoff, skeptical and taken aback. There's no way I can go back down that dungeon, at least not to that hellhole. Though if he's serious about this, then I'm more screwed than the missing ones in his head. Though that's an easy accomplishment.
"You wouldn't." I force my words to come out as a challenge, yet on the inside I feel like breaking down, dropping to my knees, and begging to keep my freedom.
He smiles again, his eyes sparkling with a twisted amusement. "Oh but I would."
He always enjoys seeing defeat in my eyes . I know he does.
I find myself staring down at my shoes. Heat rushes to my cheeks at the fact that he can bend me so easily with one simple threat.
This can't be happening...
"The wedding is Thursday," the Alpha's words are like a cold bucket of reality, reassuring me that this isn't a nightmare. "That should be enough time. Now go on. I believe you have ceremony to prepare for."
Go figure. Forced into an engagement and I'm still the one who has to cater the party I don't want.
My feet move mechanically towards the door, more than ready to leave. But not without knocking a potted plant off a nearby table first. The sound of the clay shattering on the floor is amplified by the thick silence of the room.
"Bitch," I mumble under my breath.
"What was that?" Jasper snaps. It surprises me that he doesn't let his daddy handle this for him, too.
I start to prepare a sarcastically sweet response, but instead I decide to voice my true feelings. There's no longer a reason to keep my mouth shut.
I whirl around on my heel to face him. My eyes lock with his, shooting daggers dripping with venom.
"I called you a bitch motherfucker"
It feels as though my skin is on fire and my lungs ache for air. I mean every single word of what I say and my tone is more than laced with hatred; it's seeping it. Pure and livid hatred.
I don't wait to see if he's going to patronize me further or if his father is going to throw me back underground for not holding my tongue. I slam the door behind me with enough force and intent that a loud crack through the wood streaks across it.
Instead of going back to prepare for the party like I'd been told, I head straight to one of the many smalls cabins in the village and into my bedroom, which is similar to a loft.
Fairy lights hang loosely around the tops of the dark grey walls. The room is flooded with natural lighting from the giant window that my bed is sidled up against. I plop down on it, burying myself in the pillow.
Just forget it. Forget everything.Forgetting is always easier. Except this time, I can't push the dreadful thoughts of getting married to someone that's not my mate.
The wedding is Thursday. That leaves me with four days. Four days left of freedom. Four days left to figure out how to save myself.
Suddenly, in a random thought, I remember what Jasper said before I barged in.
"That maniac is on the loose! How am I suppose to takeover when he's out there just waiting for someone to pounce on?"
What maniac was he talking about? And what does that have to do with him needing a Luna before he becomes the Alpha?