The ride to Tomb Haven was exceptionally tense, you could almost cut the tension with a knife with how tense it was. I will admit I felt guilty, and I'm still trying to come to terms with everything. Like the fact that I apparently have magic, and I have a wolf inside my head, that can force me to change into said wolf, Auburn colored with huge black paws. Not to mention the fact that I am a guy, when all my life I have felt out of place, like I don't belong because to me my gender wasn't correct, and to think I was going to move away and start the gender reassigning process, it's just all so unbelievable. I cant wrap my head around any of it.
A day ago I hated my life, hell just last week I wanted to end it all, just so I could be free. Now not only am I adjusting to all this crazy shit, and a wolf that doesn't shut up. 'Hey I resent that!' 'to fucking bad, you could at least give me time to adjust before rambling.' he scoffed and retreated back, thank the lord. Back to what I was saying as much as I am happy that I am truly a male, I have little time to adjust to it, Suddenly I'm taller than even my dad, broader, and all of the muscles I have been trying to gain over the years suddenly appear, not to mention I no longer have to sit to take a piss is a little overwhelming, with everything else that has happened.
Like I said I'm happy that my cis gender is male, but at least if I was just transitioning I would have time to adjust. Now I don't and I have a shit ton of responsibilities on my shoulders. Everything is happening all at once and I'm truly afraid I'm going to screw up, maybe I don't fight well enough to be an Alpha, or maybe I'm not manly enough, all of these doubts are on my shoulders. Not to mention I'm going to have to train to be Alpha-Coven leader, but I'm going to have to be more manly, 'wouldn't be to difficult on that part' I thought to myself. I'm also going to have to learn magic or what ever on top of everything else. What the hell am I supposed to do? Honest to god I think I'm going to have a fucking panic attack.
"Blake calm down, breathe with me, that's it. We are almost there, everything is going to be fine, Beth and I will be with you every step of the way. You will be great and hey maybe you will meet your mate!" dad grinned as he said that last bit. Bane was howling in my head with joy, I guess this mate thing is really serious.
'Yes Blake meeting ones mate is the best thing in the world, we have stronger bonds then the humans do. Everything is 10 times more intense, our world will revolve around our mate, he will be beautiful I just know it! We will protect him with our lives!' 'Whoa there big guy, I've never heard you so passionate, I kind of like the passionate you.. Wait your okay with me being gay? Don't Alpha's need an heir? We can't be alpha if we have a dude mate!'
'Oh naïve young human, all wolves are pan, and of course we can be alpha. There are male omega's who can conceive, some male beta's though its difficult for them because of genetics, and then there are male alpha's who can get pregnant. Whoa Blake calm down we are not one of them trust me, breathe young one! As I was saying they are called submissive alpha's. Now don't think just because they are considered submissive that they are any less powerful than you and I. Some alpha's don't respect submissive alpha's because of their biology, and being able to swell with our pups! Don't be like them, they are only submissive in the bedroom, you cant go around bossing them around, besides they are only submissive to their mates. Don't underestimate them.' 'Whoa so we can still have children, and I'm not one of them, no offense to those that can but I would refuse, more power to them. But Bane you promise to stick with me right? Your not just going to leave right.... Like I would totally get it... but I need you, I have no clue about any of this.'
'Of course Blake through thick an thin young one, we are one, I will never take full control unless asked we will fight battles together. We have much to discuss soon but we can hold off until you start figuring out everything.' 'Thanks Bane' he only nodded and went to the back of my mind, when I finally started paying attention to my surrounding I noticed that we were about to enter Tomb Haven, Welcome home I guess.
I look over to see my dad smiling I bet he is excited to see his true mate, I can Honestly say I'm kind of excited to meet her maybe Beth will have a good female role model now, and hopefully we will all get along with her.
Not long after getting into town we pulled up to a massive house in the middle of the fucking forest, when I say huge, I mean a fucking castle! As we step out I hear a series of gasps and look around to see hundreds of people staring at me as I help Beth out of the car. Its crazy to think in a few years I will be in charge of thousands of people. I'm not even sure if I am a good leader. None the less I kept my resting bitch face on as Beth would call it, and grabbed Beth's and my dad's bags.. I have none of my own shit cause well you know.... Also my dad seeming a little preoccupied with a very beautiful dark haired woman. That must be his true mate, I guess she is called the Luna.. or something along those lines. 'That's right Blake a mate to the alpha is called the Luna, female or male be damned, the only exception to that is if the Male or Female are Alpha's them selves, and it is truly rare for submissive alpha's to be born, they make their dominant extremely strong. They become the Alpha of Alpha's, usually a submissive Alpha is mated to an already extremely powerful Alpha. Two dominant's are never mated or heirs will not happen because Alpha males are extremely possessive.' 'ah gotcha so Medusa isn't the true Luna and this woman is... That means she is a submissive for my dad... Wouldn't that mean their child would be the true Heir?'
'No Blake the true heir is the first born child with a Alpha qualities, and a strong wolf biology doesn't matter here, like some packs. You are the first born child with a wolf, and you have qualities of an alpha, plus I wouldn't stand for not being Alpha, I was given you as a human for a reason, what ever reason the Deity's saw fit, and we will be Alpha.' Oh damn okay I gotch you, thanks for all that.' he only chuckled before retreating to the back of my mind, I think my wolf is great he doesn't sugarcoat anything just speaks his mind, I think we will be okay here...
"Welcome kids my name is Alamay, your fathers true mate, I hope you kids accept me, Welcome to your pack Blake." okay awe she is adorable and her voice is so soft and sweet, this is what a Luna is huh. Definitely see the difference between her and Medusa. I give a polite nod and pull her in for a hug. Lord have mercy is she short, but damn is she strong.
"Geoffrey Pack welcome your soon-to-be Alpha Blake, you all know his wolf-magic was blocked by the same woman who forged a fake bond by dark magic. Let's Show young Alpha Blake and his twin and my princess Beth what we are really made of!" a series of 'Welcomes' and whoops could be heard from the pack-coven members. For the first time in my life I feel I belong somewhere. It is truly a great feeling. So I grab Beth and lift her swinging her around while Whooping my own damn self. Beth cant stop laughing. Things are finally looking up for me, the first time in 18 years I am finally who I was meant to be!