It's not a good thing.
It's not just bad.
It's something he has always been unwilling to face or even remember.
Like a chronic illness hidden within his body, it would hurt and flare up from time to time, yet he was afraid to confront it for fear that it might be fatal once exposed. So, he preferred to keep it hidden.
This is the contradiction and weakness of human nature.
"I was probably too young at the time, somewhat unable to face it. Now that I think about it, it's not as scary as I imagined," He Zhiyao said to Qin Shuang with a light laugh, "Instead, I feel a bit embarrassed for having avoided it."
