"Honey.. It's time for your opah to be buried." Renita said.
Caca turned to Renita, then hugged the woman. "Can you do it tomorrow, Mother? Caca still doesn't want to lose her opah." Caca said.
"You can't do that, dear. Poor opah, do you really not love your opah? If you still can't forgive it, then opah must be sad to see you like now. Please forgive me?"
Caca was forced to nod in Renita's arms. Renita's words are orders, she must not disobey the woman's words. The woman in his arms was like his biological mother.
Caca looked up, then looked at Renita with a smile. "Thank you mother. I love you."
Renita returned the smile. "You're welcome, my mother loves you too."
Renita loosened her grip. "Well, mother wants to go in first. Do you want to come?" Renita asked, after they both released their arms.
Caca shook her head, making Renita go inside.
Caca looked back at the Alverage members. "Can my opah's body be preserved or not? Let my opah stay with me." Caca said.
"You crazy!" Alzam cursed, according to him Caca had thought too much about it.
"You know, Ca. You don't have to be crazy! Your oppa never left you! Your whole family never left you! They all saw your behavior from above! You don't have to be crazy about it!" Snapped Bima.
Bima, who had been silent all this time, finally spoke when he felt Caca was going crazy, if only he had the courage to make such a decision.
"Stress you, Ca!" Dodi said.
Why did his friend go crazy like this just because his uncle died?
Raga gripped Caca's hand tightly. "It's true what Bima said, your ipah or family have never left you. Don't ever think like that, we are all there for you, always there for you!" Firmly Body.
**
The funeral has been held. But Caca still feels at home there, even if it's just looking at his opah's grave.
Caca smiled when his opah was buried in the grave near his house, Opah's wife.
It felt like Caca was just hanging out with the whole family. Because near the graves of his mother and father, there are graves of his father, mother and brother.
"If God calls me too, I want to be buried beside my brother." Jcap Caca. Glancing at the Alverage members who were accompanying him.
"When will I be called by God too? Like my family." He continued, while looking at the graves of his family one by one.
"Everyone must be called by God, including me. So you don't have to talk like that anymore, I'm horrified to hear that." Raga said, then approached Caca.
"Why should we be horrified, our closest match is death. There is nothing to wait for other than death." Reply Caca.
Everyone who was there stared in horror at Caca. After her opah's death, Caca often talked about death. This made everyone worried by the girl.
"Don't kill yourself! Talk about death first!" Sambar Dodi.
Chaka laughed. "I used to think like that so that I could find them quickly. But I thought again. If for example I die by suicide, I will not meet them either. Because they will all be in heaven, while I will be in hell because of suicide."
"You all go home. I need some alone time to be with my family." continued Caca.
"No, I'll accompany you until you're done here." Raga said.
"No need, you all go home. After all, it's all over, right?"
"I'll still be with you, after all, mom told me to stay at home. Your opah's house isn't safe right now either!" Firmly Body.
Caca sighed, Raga was very stubborn.
"I'm not going to do anything wrong, Ga. After all, I'm strong, so it won't be okay. For example, why is it also fate." Reply Caca.
Words like that make Raga even more anxious and don't want to leave this stubborn human.
"Come on, leave me alone. I also need to be alone, I'm not going to do anything out of the ordinary."
Alzam grabbed Raga's shoulder and nodded. Alzam also thinks like that, Caca definitely needs time alone to let it all go.
"Promise that if something goes wrong, you have to call right away. Don't mind making your own decisions." Raga said giving his little finger.
Seeing Raga's face that was very clearly worried made Caca chuckle. Especially when he said that, Raga seemed unwilling to make such words.
Caca linked her little finger with Raga's little finger. "Promise me, if there's something wrong, I'll tell you right away."
"Let's just sleep over!" Invite Raga, still reluctant to let go of the link.
Alzam pulled Raga by the collar, then forced him to stand up. "Go home!" Alzam said firmly.
Raga chuckled, then nodded forcefully. He rubbed the top of his head, then walked away with small steps. Like reluctant to leave Caca.
Seeing Raga who had come out of the burial area, he smiled and then looked back at the tomb.
"Wait for Caca to follow you. There are still many cases coming. After everything is over, Caca will definitely follow you all."
**
Everyone had gone home, because the funeral service had already been done. At first the Alverage kids asked to stay overnight. Yep, after Raga came home at the funeral, it turned out that he didn't go home right away. He waited for Caca in front of the girl's house, intending to ask permission that Alverage's son would stay here.
Caca already thought Raga would do that. But Caca firmly refused. He just wanted to be alone now, pouring all the complaints in his room. Without pretending to be fine in front of everyone.
It was already one o'clock in the evening, but Caca still felt at home on his balcony. While looking up at the starless night sky.
Caca chuckled bitterly. "Even the stars don't shine when I need his light." He said sadly.
"Is it that hard to be happy? Is it that difficult? What have I done in the past, so now it feels like I'm suffering a lot. Why God? I didn't ask for anything, I just asked my family to gather and accompany me. That's all. Why is it difficult once you accept?"
The woman looked up at the sky with a pleading gaze. Unknowingly, a single tear escaped from his eyelids.
"Take my wealth, take whatever I have. But I beg you, not my family. I miss their affection."
Caca buried her face in the support of the fence that was there. He sobbed, crying over his very sad life.
"Mah, pah, sis, opah, omah. Why do you all have the heart to leave Caca? Why do you have the heart? Can't you see I'm suffering for your leaving? Caca is alone here. Can't you see? miss you all, miss you.."
"Why don't you bring Caca too? Why are you happy without Caca there? Why? What's wrong with Caca that you all have the heart to leave Caca alone here?"
Caca just kept crying. Crying for a life that he thinks is very sad. Caca is tired of everything, he wants to rest.
Caca understands, many people suffer more than him. He should still be grateful. But is it wrong? He occasionally complains and is tired of his life. He was tired of always looking fine, but his heart wasn't. He was tired, he wanted to reveal everything to his friends. But he was afraid, even very afraid, that they would all leave him. Because they think they are just a burden.
Caca is traumatized by the so-called departure.
"Enough of this, Lord, I don't want to hear the word sadness anymore."
Dor!