"I am very sorry to tell you, that you are dead"
Those were the words I heard when I… when I died… I guess.
Today is the day when I will say good bye to my shut-in life. Well you can't say I am a shut-in in particular.
My life was better than ever while I was shut in my room.
My studies were going smoothly. It's just after my primary school. I've been seeing people as a social animal and not as a human, so for that reason I shut myself in my room.
Though I was shut-in but no one was worried about me even my teachers supported me.
I was doing online jobs and studying both. The school made special exception for me and they conducted every exam at my home on the supervision of a teacher.
I was the special case.
I topped every exam no matter how tough it was. I guess that was the reason no one was worried about me.
I was productive.
While I was shut-in I started online jobs like writing light novel, building software for companies, building games and all.
Of course I was getting paid for that.
Everything was going perfectly but then I realized that I was losing my emotions. I was not feeling any emotion that a human being have like anger, happiness, love, loneliness, nothing.
I got little scared.
The only thing that makes human, human was fading from my body. I was scared to see myself as those stupid animals that walk on their four legs or like monkeys.
One day I decided to regain those emotions.
It was a night. I thought that I should go at daytime but the sun would've killed my eyes, so I went in the night time which will be the best for this task.
Look I was not shut-in for those years because I lost hope in my life, it was just I was going too rough with others. When I have conversation with those social animals they get offended and try to hit me. As I was in school I was called by principal every time when someone hit me.
I don't mind that I also know how to do martial arts, it was just I don't wanted to fight animal. If I were to fight I will become an animal too.
After calling I feel bad for the ones that hit me because they were scolded every time. No one scolds me because I was a scholar and the pride of the school.
I felt bad for them.
So I started to ignore them. In the end I calculated everything and the best option was to shut-in. Though it is my mistake that I never calculated the time when I will become emotionless.
So I decided to go out at night time. I gave a task to go to convenient store and buy cup of ramen.
They say that love contains every type of emotions like happiness, anger, excitement, sadness. So that means if I fall in love I will regain my emotions. But… huh I never even had a friend ever, how will I get a girlfriend.
I went to convenient store.
"Welcome"
Receptionist said charmingly.
I was nervous. This was the first time in four years that I was going out of my room.
I picked cup ramen and went to the reception area.
Then I heard truck's tire's noise.
This is bad. The store is at the corner of the road, so there are fifty percent chances to crash on the store. I could have made a move but I was too nervous to do anything.
Looks like nobody noticed up until now.
I guess I am just overreacting since I was shut-in for four years.
After some time the truck started coming towards the store. At this point everybody noticed. They started running to the other side of the store.
I started calculating
By looking at truck it could easily pull out 150Gs force which means if this truck hit me here right now then I am a dead meat for sure. Every part of my body will break and in no time I will be dead. The time to get out is… only four seconds.
I and receptionist were the only one that was close to death. At least I have to save her since I am a dead meat in no time but I could save this lady.
I pushed the receptionist.
I think this is the end. I never got a chance to fall in love and I never regained the emotions. That means… that means I am dying as an animal… so humiliating.
I opened my eyes.
"Uh…Where am I?"
I was standing in a dark room twinkling with the stars.
I saw reception area. It was looking like the same one as that convenient store. Am I in the convenient store? What happened to the people there? They should be safe since they were far away.
"Ahem…"
I saw a beautiful lady with long red hair and red eyes.
I have never seen anyone as beautiful as her in my whole life. She was wearing black and red colored long skirt. She sat on the white chair which was in the front of that reception table. I was looking at her while she was walking towards the chair.
With her soft lips she said.
"I am Venus. Goddess of love"
"And I am sorry to tell you, but you are dead"
It looks like I am actually dead and to say it I died as an animal… It's humiliating so humiliating.
"The receptionist that you saved is…"
I cut off what she was saying and said
"I know that she is alright. I applied the maximum force required to throw her away from that truck"
"Huh…?"
She was looking embarrassed.
To be honest she was looking cute.
With her embarrassing face she says-
"Huh… but don't they ask how is the person they…"
She calms herself and says.
"Ahem… I mean I am Venus and I am your supervisor"
"What… supervisor?"
Supervisor… you mean I am being kept as a prisoner or something. This is looking bad. First dying like an animal and now being kept in a cage. Is this the process of making me a full-fledged animal…? it's humiliating so humiliating.
"I am the goddess who reincarnates the people who dies in any means of love"
Huh… I thought that I was being kept in a cage and…What? Dies in any means of love, but I never had a girlfriend or anything.
"But I didn't died because of love"
I said to her.
"WH-What…"
Venus was surprised.
"But I heard you saying the word 'love' in your last word"
"Oh… that was… uh… I just wanted to fall in love so I could regain my emotions"
I answered her.
"What…? I pulled a wrong person… by mistake"
Venus says with embarrassment.
She was looking very afraid.
"What should I do…? What should I do…? For this mistake I will get punished"
I calmed her down and said "I don't mind calling love as a reason to die". I was actually not happy with that decision.
But then she turned towards me and said-
"Really?"
"Yeah…yeah I don't mind"
She is really very close to my face.
How could someone say no to this beautiful lady? What am I thinking about.
After that she started to tell me about the reincarnation. She said.
"Ahem… there are three kinds of world where you could be reincarnated the first one is a void which has nothing but a dark space, the second one is…"
I got little distracted by her beauty. I think this is the type of girl who ought to be someone's girlfriend.
While I was thinking of that I said-
"Will you marry me?"
"Huh…?!"
Uh… What…? Did I say it out loud?
I guess this is what happens after being shut-in for nearly four years. My social skills are hanging on a thin thread.
She was super surprised and embarrassed.
"What… huh… what did… you … said?"
She was super embarrassed and super confused. I could see her eyes rolling.
She looks damn cute but that's not the point here.
"That's not what I meant"
I said embarrassingly.
"If that's what you want"
Venus says with a small voice. She was looking very embarrassed and super cute while saying that.
"Huh…"
I never expected that reply from a goddess herself.
"Anyways, you have to choose one of the worlds you want to be"
She continued telling about things.
"Uh… yes"
"First there is a world which has nothing but a dark space, second there is a world full of women and at last there is a world which is threatened by a devil king"
So there are three worlds. I am not interested in a void, and then there is a world full of women, that sounds great. It will be full of girls, which means I can fall in love there and regain my emotions. I know what I am going to choose now.
"Okay I want to reincarnate in a world full of…"
As I was going to say Venus said.
"If you want to marry me you have to defeat the devil king first"
Venus said that with a soft voice.
At first I was shocked hearing that from her but of course as a man I agreed to her.
Marrying is a good way to fall in love and marrying to this beauty will be the best.
She said that, what I have learned at the earth is meaningless in this world. She said that this world is full of magic. It has adventurer's guild, monsters, and many things that I have never seen before.
"Have you seen that cartoons called as 'anime' in your world?"
Venus asked.
"Yeah I have seen"
"So you will be fine in this world"
I asked her if there is anything special that I will get to kill the devil king.
She said that she is a goddess of love and she offers men the world with full of women and offers women the world full of men. She never reincarnated anyone in the world of devil king before.
So she was not prepared to reincarnate me in that world.
She is right though. I was going to choose the world full of women too. But after hearing that acceptance from her I choose the magical world.
I got ready to get reincarnated.
"Okay, now…I Venus, goddess of love shall reincarnate you to the world full of magic"
A weird magical circle appeared beneath my foot.
"Shio Ken, I wise you all the best for the new world you are going to live"
A flash of light entered my eyes.
With this I am going to live a new life and with new motivation. This time I am going to get my emotions back and live a life of a human being.